(Clearwisdom.net) In the past, my work unit would now and then promote some exercise. Some people would be delighted while others would be disappointed. My heart would also be moved by the external environment. If I gained a little I would be happy, if I lost a little I would be sad. That kind of feeling was really mixed. Although I lacked nothing in terms of material needs, in my heart I felt that something was lacking in my life but I could not find words to describe what it was.
When I started cultivation, I suddenly discovered that what I lacked was a sense of contentment. My desires led me to purse endless things. I hoped that my bank account would grow steadily as the days passed by. I also wished that my husband would become rich like other people. I dreamed that I could elevate in my career and be promoted to some high postings. In this way I would not have to be at the mercy of others.
I did not realize that all these intense pursuits were the source of my sufferings. My boss, a lady, was very good at socializing and public relations. When I looked at her, I felt that she led a very tiring life.
It is is my nature to be very frank, and my boss claimed that she trusted in me to handle well the tasks that she had delegated to me. However, at the year end performance appraisal, she always rated me very poorly. I was very angry. I felt that it was unfair and thought that a person who abided by the rules and was conforming was always bullied by others. One time I argued with her. She was shocked by my anger. Besides, her conscience was not clear as she had done some deeds against her conscience. She was afraid that I would expose her what she had done and not only would she be sued, she would also be in deep trouble. In the end, she used her connections to transfer me against my will to another work unit. She also declared war on me. I wanted very much to take revenge on her. At that time, I had just started to learn about Falun Dafa. After I started cultivation in Falun Dafa, I realized that resentment should be resolved and not aggravated. If it was not because of the suffering that she had caused me, I would not have realized that cultivation was so precious. I would not hate her anymore. I would let it go.
The new me, who now takes fame, material gains and sentimentality lightly, really experienced what it meant by real self-possession, self-contentment and not fighting with others, and taking monetary gains lightly. I feel that having just enough money to meet my needs is satisfactory. I now believe that I am the wealthiest person in the world. This is because I am satisfied with my salary and I also give part of my pay to contribute to society. I feel very good and content in my heart. As for my husband, I am starting to appreciate his virtues. He is honest and trustworthy. He is also thoughtful of others and is easily contented with a pure soul. How could there be a better husband than he in the world?
During this process I have understood that many things become bad because we are pessimistic and try to dig into a bull’s horn. It is a self-fulfilling prophecy when we feel that the surrounding circumstances involving people and matters are not satisfactory. When I change my mentality and attitudes towards all these, the bad things around me all become wonderful things. People whom I disliked in the past now seem to be quite likable. Why such a big change? It is because my heart has become kinder and better. I try to turn bad things into good things. This is something I would not even have dreamt of previously. This drastic change in me and all these wonderful things are brought to me by Falun Dafa.
