(Clearwisdom.net) I obtained Falun Dafa in September of 2004. When I first came into contact with Falun Dafa and Dafa disciples, I was inspired by the wonderful power of "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance," and was also touched by the unselfish frame of mind of the Dafa disciples; thus, I started practicing Falun Gong.
Once I walked into the pure land of Dafa, I would never leave it. But at the same time, I was still deeply poisoned by the atheism of the CCP, and could not understand the Fa well when I studied it at the beginning. I appreciate all the fellow practitioners who patiently explained things to me again and again. I went through the preliminary study period tottering.
Later on, I seized the time to study Dafa. One day, I deeply understood the principle of "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance," and was moved to tears. I was determined to assimilate to it thoroughly, return home with Master, while at the same time helping more people be saved by Dafa, like me.
Following Master's words, I searched for causes of problems within myself. In a short period of time, I changed from being a bad-tempered person to becoming a more humble, gentle person and who was willing to help others. All my acquaintances said that Falun Dafa was so amazing. This made my truth clarifying progress smoothly.
Since May of 2005, I began spreading the Fa and clarifying the truth. Many people among my family, relatives, friends, students and students' parents obtained Dafa and cultivated solidly. Many were persuaded by me to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its related organizations.
Sometimes I slacked off, though. There were several reasons for this, including laziness, the interference I received after fellow practitioners were illegally arrested, and the main reason was my attachment to Consummation; I thought that I had too many attachments. There wasn't even a need to search for them, as the attachments were so apparent. I thought that the time for cultivation was so limited, and it seemed that I didn't have enough time, so I might as well have a rest. I did not study the Fa deeply, and had loopholes everywhere; so it was easy for the evil to take advantage of my attachments. All of this almost made me to stop clarifying the truth, one of the three things Master asked us to do. I even covered up my fears using the excuse that I was studying the Fa and sending forth righteous thoughts more.
I studied the Fa intensely for two days and recognized that the reason why the evil was so fierce in our area was that we clarified the truth too little and could not restrain the evil. If we all stop making and sending materials after fellow practitioners are arrested, we are just acknowledging the arrangements of the evil and thus lag behind in the Fa-rectification progress. We should go beyond the fear and selfish protection of ourselves. Time is so limited, and we cannot wait any longer.
After I recognized this, compassionate Master gave me a hint in a dream. In the dream, I left to catch a train. At the beginning I realized that the train would leave soon and I needed to run. But due to tiredness and laziness, I slowed down after several steps. Then other things happened on the road. People looking on were too many and they blocked my way and I lost some time again. Finally, when I was too impatient to wait and ran toward the platform, I saw the train had already left. I could not express my regret when I saw the back of the departing train, and suddenly awakened.
We cannot waste any time; this is the compassionate hint of Master. Are there any other fellow practitioners running and then stopping like me, not willing to overcome the difficulties but waiting awhile before continuing on? It is time we run forward, and it will be too late if we stop to have a rest.
There are so many sentient beings waiting for us to save them, and Master is waiting for us to be diligent and to bring us back home after we establish our own mighty virtue. If we are controlled by the attachment to comfort and slow down in our efforts, then we will not be able to keep up with the Fa-rectification progress.
Master does not want to give up on any disciples, but we should also be diligent.