(Clearwisdom.net) The article of fellow practitioner Gan En, entitled, "Give Up One's Ego and Harmonize Dafa's Clearwisdom.net," encouraged
and inspired my sense of responsibility. I would like to share something with fellow practitioners.
I suffered a lot of losses in the area of sending forth righteous thoughts. Here, I want to talk about it in order to remind everyone not to make the same mistakes I did. The first loss I suffered was in the spring of 2001 when the fabricated incidents of "self-immolation" and "killing" were spreading across China. Everyday people were deceived by the lies, and Dafa practitioners were in very difficult situations. Under this circumstance, I went back to my hometown. I wanted to save the people in my hometown and tell them the facts. I talked with people one after another and my schedule was full. Something happened on the third day as I was trying to persuade my best friend, a person who had enlightened on a wrong path, to resume cultivation. I was not aware of the situation, but thanks to a hint from Master, I departed before the police arrived. I then stayed at home for three days. However, I did not read one page in the Dafa books and did not even send forth righteous thoughts a single time. From this experience, I realized that if we do not eliminate interference, not only can we not save people, but we also cannot keep ourselves from danger. Thus, it is very important to send forth righteous thoughts.
The second loss I suffered was in September 2004 when Dafa disciples were all actively involved in validating the Fa and saving sentient beings. Master stated in "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Western U.S. Fa Conference,"
"Some students need to pay attention here: every time I mention that the evil is getting smaller and smaller, and becoming less and less able to carry on, a lot of students think, "Hmm, then I'm going to drop everything else and just do Dafa work." You can't do that. You can't go to extremes with anything Dafa disciples do. Just live a normal life and cultivate normally, and at the same time do what Dafa disciples should do. That's how it should be at present. In ordinary society, other than doing what Dafa disciples should do, there isn't any difference in form [from ordinary people], on the surface it looks the same as ordinary society, only you're a cultivator. That's how it should be. What you're doing today is establishing things for the future, and that's how this path should go. This is the most upright path and what cultivators of the future will follow, so you can't behave in an extreme way at all or go to any extremes, as that would create unnecessary obstacles and trouble for yourselves."
I studied the Fa. However, I did not fully follow the Fa. My eyes were on the Fa but my mind was not. Thus I went to extremes. I put other things aside and only concentrated on validating the Fa. Thereby, I neglected Fa study and sending forth righteous thoughts. More and more dark minions and rotten demons accumulated in my space. When I was not careful, the evil took advantage of this opportunity and the persecution was really shocking and unforgettable. Master repeatedly gave me hints but I just did not understand them because of my extreme behavior. As a result, I was hit by a car while on the road and injured my lower back. It could have been a nightmare for a woman in her 60s. However, I am a Dafa practitioner. I studied the Fa and did the exercises every day and thus quickly recovered. This incident showed me that it could be dangerous if I did not follow the Fa and effectively send forth righteous thoughts.
The third loss occurred when the quality of my righteous thoughts was not high. I could not keep my mind tranquil, especially in the evening. I often felt sleepy during sending forth righteous thoughts. In "The Effect of Righteous Thoughts" from Essentials for Further Advancement II, Master said,
"I have asked disciples to send forth righteous thoughts, because those so-called evil beings are in fact nothing. Yet because the old forces have taken advantage of Dafa disciples' mercy, the evil beings that are protected by the old forces have been deliberately persecuting, so what Dafa disciples are enduring is no longer just their own karma, but something they should not endure under the evil beings' persecution. Yet these evil beings are extremely base and filthy, and are not worthy of playing any role in the Fa-rectification. In order to lessen the persecution of Dafa and Dafa disciples, I have asked disciples to send forth righteous thoughts to clear away the damage these beings deliberately do to the Fa-rectification, thereby lessening what Dafa disciples should not endure during the persecution and, at the same time, saving all sentient beings and consummating Dafa disciples' paradises."
Master's teaching was so clear. However, I did not have a deeper understanding of the Fa and my power of eliminating the evil was weak. When I heard that the vicious party was harvesting organs from live Dafa practitioners, I was pained. After I calmed down I just had one thought in my mind and that was to save fellow practitioners and sentient beings by clarifying the facts to everyone as soon as possible. Then a pure and powerful field of righteous thoughts surrounded me, which was very powerful and filled the entire cosmos.
