(Clearwisdom.net) During my cultivation, I came to deeply understand that no matter what difficulties you encounter, if you believe in Master and Dafa, none of the difficulties will hinder you. After you break through a difficulty, you can taste the beauty of improving.
On December 12 of the lunar calendar last year, I suddenly felt uncomfortable and could not walk with ease. At night, I got out of bed to use the bathroom, and suddenly could not stand up after squatting. My back was too painful to straighten up. I realized the situation was serious at once. At that time, I firmly believed that there was no problem with me, and I could definitely stand up. I then stood up straight, but bent over the edge of the bed and could not get into the bed. My husband exhausted his strength to get me into the bed, but I still could not move. It was difficult even turning over my body. With the slightest movement every part of my body was in pain which was hard to bear. I thought, "I will not listen to you, evil, and will sit and send forth righteous thoughts." My whole spine was pulled upward, causing me so much pain that tears flowed. But I still sent forth righteous thoughts. It became a little better then, but I still could not move. Even the slightest movement in a certain part of my body would cause much pain throughout my entire body. This lasted about two weeks, and I was still not able to put on clothes and socks by myself.
During this period, I did not stop righteous thoughts even for one moment, believing that Dafa is omnipotent and Master is compassionate. I believed in Master and Dafa without any doubt. I bore the great pain and persisted in sending forth righteous thoughts and sitting cross-legged. Every time I sat up, it was a contest between life and death, with my tears and sweat mixing together.
After four or five days, I did the standing exercises with great pain. Surprisingly, when doing the exercises the pain was relieved a little, but I could not squat. When finishing the exercises I lay on the bed and could not move again. In spite of this, I persisted on doing the exercises every day, and after ten days, I became a little better. I never forgot that my mission was to help Master to rectify the Fa and save sentient beings. I could not fall down, as my mission had not been fulfilled yet and there were endless sentient beings waiting for me to save them.
Within two weeks I had recovered completely and could walk freely. But I did not forget that all my time should be used in saving sentient beings and cultivating myself.
After this difficulty, I felt that I went through every day with righteous thoughts. If my righteous thoughts were a little weaker, I would be paralyzed forever. If I had a bit of doubt in Master or Dafa, I might not stand up forever. If one believes it is illness, he is a human being. If not, then he is a divine being. The difference of only one thought will bring different results.
In our area, there are several cases that fellow practitioners went by, which caused misunderstanding of Dafa from their family and people nearby, and this affected some sentient beings being saved, and brought some losses to Dafa and saving sentient beings. I wonder if they did not have righteous thoughts when the "illness" appeared or the righteous thoughts were not strong enough, and went on the way arranged by the old forces.
Now with my experience I would like to say to Master and other fellow practitioners who are still not firm in their belief in Dafa: If you believe in Master and Dafa firmly at all times, then you will be omnipotent and can overcome everything. This is not spoken from the mouth, but demonstrated by the behavior that you do not doubt or fluctuate in the struggle between life and death. If you believe in Master and Dafa 100 0.000000rom the bottom of your heart, any miracle can happen and Dafa is omnipotent! At this point, there had already been many miraculous things with myself. Sometimes only a small degree of believing in Dafa would make a difference, and it sometimes did not work.
Another understanding of mine is that we should practice Dafa in our everyday lives. If we only read the book and do not practice in person, or we treat ourselves as ordinary people once we encounter something, then we will remain ordinary people! Lessons for me are bitter. Cultivation is really serious. Since the day we began cultivation, our paths were rearranged by Master, and none of the everyday events happen by accident. It is not over by only reading books and doing the exercises each day. We should cultivate in Dafa well and enhance ourselves well, with all of our thoughts in line with the Fa.
