(Clearwisdom.net) In May 2000, when fellow practitioners in China went to Beijing to appeal for justice for Dafa because of this illegal persecution, I also went to Beijing because "Master and Dafa are being persecuted." When looking back, I actually still had many human attachments when I went to Beijing. I felt that I did not know what I would be facing during this trip to Beijing. I was also afraid that I might be arrested, because I had studied too little of this good Fa. In order to truly improve myself from the perspective of the Fa, on my way to Beijing, I kept reciting the Fa.
When I arrived at Zhongnanhai and handed in my letter, the staff person waved his hand Very quickly a police vehicle came over, and I was arrested. Inside the police vehicle, there was an iron cage. When they learned that I came from Dalian, they asked the Dalian police to take me back to Dalian. Six fellow practitioners and I were jailed at the Drug Addiction Rehabilitation Center.
Every day, we were forced to watch videotapes and TV programs that slandered Dafa. The police also asked those who had already been "transformed" to surround us and force us to listen to their evil theories. These people were so irrational, as if they suffered from a mental disorder. Every day, they tried to force us to write the guarantee statement to give up cultivation. Some fellow practitioners were either verbally abused or beaten up by them. Several fellow practitioners who refused to write the statement were sent to the Masanjia Labor Camp and persecuted there. An 18- or 19-year-old young man who refused to watch the slanderous videotapes was beaten so badly that one of his legs was broken. An over-70-year-old senior was beaten so badly that he could hardly walk.
They used blandishments, coupling threats with promises to try to force me to write the so-called guarantee statement. Although I did not write the statement, I had the attachment of fear. Every day, I had the attachment of not knowing what the police were going to do with me. This attachment grew stronger and stronger, and I realized that this state was not right. I started to recite the Fa. I understood that only the Fa could help me see my own shortcomings, and also help me find out what made me so scared. However, I could find nothing. Instead I just continued to recite the Fa with fellow practitioners. Sometimes I was even scared that I might not be able to study the Fa in the future. I felt so sad, and regretted that I had not studied enough of the Fa before I was arrested.
Once a fellow practitioner asked me: "What is a person made of who has great spiritual inclination? He should have tolerance, enlightenment, virtue and the capacity to suffer." I added: "And also sacrifice." Ah, suddenly, this word, "sacrifice" grew so large in my mind. I felt that my mind was suddenly straightened out. My body also grew to be tremendously large with it. Why had I felt scared? It is because I could not sacrifice. I could not sacrifice my own body, I was scared of being beaten up, scared of losing my own body... I already understood that all things within the three realms are the manifestation of the universal characteristics of "Truthfulness, Compassion, Tolerance" at the lowest level. We should assimilate to "Truthfulness, Compassion, Tolerance" and return to the higher level, going home with Master. If I was still attached to the grasses and trees in this, the three realms, or to anything, including my own body, I could hardly reach the standard of the higher level. Even if I lost my body, I had already obtained the Fa, understood the Fa, and assimilated to the Fa. Nothing could change me, so what was I scared of? What else could I not sacrifice? When I looked at my daily necessities, I was enlightened to another Fa principle: For example, there is truthfulness in "sacrifice." Because you can sacrifice, when people ask you whether you have it or not, you will tell them the truth. There is compassion in "sacrifice." When people want to borrow things from you, since you can sacrifice, you are willing to let others use your possessions, and help others. There is tolerance: when people borrow your things, you won't feel unhappy. Oh, it is so wonderful. Even in "sacrifice," there is "Truthfulness, Compassion, Tolerance." At that moment, I truly felt that I had studied too little of the Fa. Such a great Fa of the universe, and what I understand is only several words.
When I understood this, I had no attachment of fear. I felt that I was tall and large when I was walking. Later on, the police did not have an issue with me and they released me after sending me to another location for two weeks.
From this experience, I realized my own shortcomings. That is: only when I was facing the tests and tribulations did I realize I needed to study more of the Fa and recite the Fa. I dared not relax my own thoughts and mind. However when I was back in the improved environment, I slacked off unknowingly.
My personal level is very limited. Fellow practitioners, please point out anything improper, with compassion.
