(Clearwisdom.net) I started to practice Falun Dafa in 1996. Before I practiced Dafa, I was a businesswoman who was very attached to fame, profit and emotion. After studying the Fa and cultivating my xinxing for years, I have gradually understood what Teacher said in Hong Yin (Version A):
An Upright Person
He who acts for his name
a life of anger and hate is his
He who acts for profit
cold is he, knowing not his kin
He who acts for emotion
many are the troubles he brings himself
Bitter,
fighting away,
he makes karma all his life.
Not seeking a name
life is carefree and content
Not set on profit
one is known as humane and righteous
Not stirred by emotion
the mind is quiet, desires few
Kind,
cultivating himself,
he builds up virtue all his years.
I have also realized that I should make good use of the time that "is precious beyond measure" to do well the three things that Teacher told us to do. So in the past two years, I always put Dafa projects as the top priority. My husband has witnessed that I have changed so much and almost turned into a totally different person after practicing Falun Gong, so he is very supportive of me. He also helps me to do some Dafa work.
However, sometimes whenever a test or a tribulation comes, I still am not able to follow a cultivator's standard, and fail to follow Teacher's instruction of being friendly to others and to always consider other people first. When my father-in-law visited us before, he usually stayed for just a few days. However, this time, he stayed for two months. My human attachment came out, and I wanted him to leave, because I thought his stay would interfere with my Dafa work. Because I didn't do well, he misunderstood Dafa, said words that were disrespectful of Dafa and created karma for himself. I didn't realize it and failed to explain things to him with compassion. I even quarreled with him. I was actually pushing him away instead of saving this sentient being. I didn't realize the problem, didn't look inside and failed to improve myself in the midst of conflicts. Merciful Teacher gave me hints through my husband's mouth, and I suddenly remembered Teacher's teaching about looking inside ourselves when problems arise. Why didn't I follow Teacher's words? My father-in-law is also a sentient being to be saved. Without compassion, how do I save people? The more I thought about it, the more I felt regret. When I realized it, my father-in-law suddenly left. I felt so ashamed and sorry.
I now realize that nothing happens accidentally. When we have troubles or problems, when we have tests or tribulations, we must remember what Teacher said and what's in the book (Zhuan Falun). When we really understand things from the Fa, the result is different when we clarify the truth, and when we try to convince people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its affiliated organizations.
One day, I went out with my son and we convinced over 40 people to quit the CCP. We also encountered someone tearing down Dafa truth-clarification signs. I stepped forward and asked him, "Hi, how are you?"