(Clearwisdom.net) It was almost lunchtime when a practitioner and I logged on to the Internet to submit articles to Minghui (Chinese version of Clearwisdom.net). We hadn't even had breakfast. A practitioner called me and invited us to his home for lunch. He said he had something to discuss with us. I was very happy hearing this because I was just about to tell him something. I then said to the other practitioner, "Let's send the articles quickly and go to our acquaintance's home. He's prepared lunch for us." The other practitioner straightened his back at once when he heard this. I felt that he was happy, too. Shortly afterwards, I heard a regretful sigh. It turned out that he forgot to use anti-web-blocking software to get access to the internet. Instead, he got access to the mailbox of Minghui practitioners directly and logged on to the Minghui website to download articles. My heart sank immediately because we accessed the internet via our telephone line. Any neglect may cause huge losses.
I immediately realized that my thoughts were not righteous just now, and that's why we had such a big omission. We had been homeless for a long time and lived a very simple and irregular life. Sometimes we got a meal, but other times we did not, but we have strong attachments to food. It was true that we did have something to discuss at that practitioner's home. But what made me happy was the delicious food there. I recognized that I had a complacency and attachment to food. I also realized that I wanted to feel the atmosphere of a family because I have not been back home since I had to leave home to avoid arrest. Sometimes when I go to a practitioner's home, I can temporarily enjoy the atmosphere of a family, which I have not had for a long time.
I was regretful because a delicious meal brought back so many attachments that may cause losses to Dafa work. I also discovered that although I was homeless physically, I had attachments to the human world's comfort and regular life.
At that time, the other practitioner said, "Let's send forth righteous thoughts and prevent the evil from finding us." I sensed the passiveness and self-comfort in his words. I thought that the other practitioner and I were one. The whole body had loopholes because both of us had attachments. If either of the particles of the whole body had pure thoughts and righteous field, the evil would have no loopholes to take advantage of. Practitioners must unconditionally look within. Meanwhile, the ascension of the whole was also a key to deny the persecution and interference. Master says in "Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference,"
"And when you are thinking things over, whether you use human notions or the righteous thoughts of a cultivator is going to determine the different results you get."
In the article "Path," Teacher said,
"But a person always has to enlighten on his own to what he should do in the face of tribulations. Every time a person improves, the Attainment Status he has validated and enlightened to rises"
I shared my enlightenment with the other practitioner. I thought that righteous thoughts were not just empty words, nor comfort to ourselves. Sometimes behind the so called "righteous thoughts" out of human notions, there were attachments to comfort, the fear of trouble, the unwillingness to look within, and the failure to set expectations for ourselves using a practitioner's standard. The practitioner thought my enlightenment was good. He said his heart was moved when he heard of the delicious food. He had the attachment to food especially when he did not have breakfast until lunchtime and felt hungry.
Both of us looked inward and discovered our own attachments. We were purified during the course of sharing. At last, the other practitioner asked if we should stop the Internet line for a while. I thought it was unnecessary. My understanding was that we discovered our loophole with righteous thoughts, and we did not have attachments of pursuit. It would be just as what Teacher said,
"As you get rid of human mentality, evil naturally disappears" ("Don't Be Sad," from Hong Yin II, provisional translation subject to further improvement).
We should listen to what Teacher said and not deal with things with human notions and comfort ourselves with the mighty power of Falun Dafa facing interference and persecution. When we can look at our problems with an attitude of a true practitioner, and look within, we can achieve what Teacher said in "Teaching the Fa at the Conference in Singapore,"
"If you can examine yourselves with every thing you come across, then I'd say you are really remarkable, and nothing can block you on your path to Consummation."
Teacher also told us in "Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference,"
"When it comes to those who genuinely do well, they truly don't dare to touch them. When it comes to those who oppose the old forces' arrangements and who have very strong righteous thoughts, they can't touch them. In other words, during this period of time, no matter how bad the persecution is, if the Dafa disciples' minds are very upright, they have very strong righteous thoughts, and understand everything clearheadedly and calmly, a lot of losses will be averted."
During our cultivation, there is the issue of righteous belief in Teacher and the Fa. Teacher said in Zhuan Falun,
"The enlightenment that we actually refer to is a matter of whether in the course of cultivation practice one can enlighten to and accept the Fa taught by the master or the Tao taught by the Taoist master, whether one can treat oneself as a practitioner upon encountering tribulations, and whether one can adhere to the Fa while practicing cultivation."
Teacher said in "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference,"
"It's not that you're cultivating amidst the ordeals they created. Rather, you are to walk your own path well while not acknowledging them, not even acknowledging the elimination of their ordeals' manifestations."
I enlightened that in this Fa principle, there was an issue of righteous belief in Teacher during the course of validating the Fa and denying the persecution. Even if we did as Teacher said to do on the surface, we still lack faith in the Fa and Teacher if we still have doubts about our ability and could not get rid of the doubt.
In this human world, because we have the longing for a so-called comfortable life, we may form notions and have an attachment to the "happy ending." This is an incorrect understanding of the Fa. Sometimes when I read practitioners' sharing articles or experiences of validating the Fa, I felt sorry if I didn't see the end. The reason was the attachment to a happy ending.
If we didn't eliminate such notions, it would jeopardize our firm belief in the Fa, Teacher, and our righteous thoughts. And we would constrain ourselves in the notion of "only believe in what we see."
We should take every step well with righteous thoughts. Facing the evil environment arranged by the old forces, Teacher said,
"Rather, you are to walk your own path well while not acknowledging them, not even acknowledging the elimination of their ordeals' manifestations." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2004 Chicago Conference")
1-30-2006
