(Clearwisdom.net) In 2001, I was afflicted with a late-stage terminal illness; the hospital told me that it was incurable. Later, with the help of fellow practitioners, I started Falun Dafa cultivation. Our benevolent Teacher gave me a second life, and my health returned. Many people in my area, including doctors who had examined me, said that it was miraculous.
Over the last several years, I have stumbled many times in my cultivation. I was persecuted by the authorities and placed on their blacklist. Because of the severe persecution by the evil, as well as my deeply buried attachments, I suffered a serious illness. I once again went through a life and death test. While on the brink of death, I formed a solid faith in Teacher and Dafa. Our compassionate Teacher gave me another chance and I was able to stand up and enter the mighty Fa-rectification process. I will make every effort to break through all obstacles and share my experiences with fellow practitioners. I want to testify to Teacher's greatness, the mighty power of righteous thoughts, and the miracles of Dafa.
At about 3 p.m. on November 6, 2006, I felt a strange pain in my stomach after lying in bed for about 30 minutes. I struggled for a short time and then sat up. I couldn't move my right arm and the left side of my abdomen was in enormous pain. It felt like a steel bar piercing through my right arm into my stomach. I was in such agony that my underwear was soaking wet and I could hardly breathe. My son and daughter-in-law came into my room and saw what was happening to me. They were terrified and didn't know what to do. My husband was panicking and kept saying, "What should we do? What should we do?"
Seeing that I was in such pain, my son wanted to call for emergency rescue. I wanted to tell him not to call, but couldn't say a single word. I used all my strength to wave my hand to signal him not to call. I called out repeatedly for Teacher, "Teacher, help me!" I knew that it was the dark minions and rotten ghosts who were taking advantage of my gaps and attempting to take my life. I needed to keep a clear head and ask Teacher to protect me. I sent forth righteous thoughts in my mind to eradicate the evil.
Teacher's words flashed in my mind, "When disciples have sufficient righteous thoughts, Master has the almighty power to turn the cosmos around." My husband and my son helped me to sit up and raise my right palm so that I could send forth righteous thoughts. I was in incredible pain for the first few minutes. After a few more minutes, the pain lessened. When I lowered my palm, a burst of pain reappeared. I immediately erected my palm again and the pain lessened. Although my legs were also in pain, I persisted in sending forth righteous thoughts until 1 a.m. The pain in my right arm disappeared, but I still had stomach pain. I laid down for a while and then sat up to send forth righteous thoughts. This went on all night long and I didn't sleep at all.
The next morning, my feet felt very weak as I prepared to do the exercises. While washing my face, I saw how sunken my eyes appeared when I looked in the mirror. I continued to send forth righteous thoughts for the next three or four days without taking any food or water. My husband and son were very worried and called my out-of-town daughter to discuss taking me to a big hospital in the city for an examination. My husband told my children that they had to persuade me to see a doctor.
I made up my mind not to go to the hospital. While waiting for my daughter to arrive, I thought that my daughter would speak out for me, as she always believed in Dafa. I thus went to the city with my son. When my daughter arrived, the first thing she asked was which hospital I was going to. I answered quietly, "Don't force me to go to the hospital. I have always followed the arrangements made by Teacher during the last few years of Dafa cultivation. You have always known that Falun Dafa is good and have supported me. Why would you force me to go to the hospital?" As soon as I finished talking, my daughter made a comment uncharacteristic of her, "You say that Teacher is taking care of you, then why hasn't Teacher cured your illness when you have such severe stomach pain? We are all worried to death about your pain. Please at least have a checkup first."
I didn't say a word, thinking about what my daughter had just said. I recalled that in 2001, a doctor told me that even if I had an operation, the illness would likely recur and I would die in severe pain. Since I had experienced serious illness previously, what the doctor said always reappeared in my mind and I couldn't get rid of those thoughts. Our compassionate Teacher has endured all my karma, but I was still having doubts. When I had some slight discomfort, my doubt would return. This attachment had stayed with me all along. I had sent forth righteous thoughts and recited the Fa for the last several days. Why hadn't I gotten well? I looked inward with a calm mind.
Teacher said in Zhuan Falun:
"... his mind still worries about it. He always thinks that the condition still exists. He still thinks that it is there, and this is already an attachment called suspicion."
My attachment lasted for a long time and I was not even aware of its danger, nor did I understand why I was suffering so badly.
Teacher had said it clearly, but I didn't realize it.
I found the root of my attachment and felt the evil was eying me covetously. Could I face the test of life and death and get rid of my attachment? Could I persistently believe in Teacher? When I have righteous belief and righteous enlightenment, the evil will perish. Full of righteous thoughts, I told my children, "I appreciate that you are treating me with such caring thoughts. But when you think of the kind of illness I have, what can one do? Can the hospital cure me? I will not go to the hospital. I believe in Teacher and Dafa. I believe that Teacher will take care of me. It must be that I am not doing something well and the evil has found a reason to persecute me. That is why my stomach continues to ache. I need to get rid of my attachment and send forth righteous thoughts more frequently to eliminate the evil. Then I will get well. Besides, Teacher protects every Dafa practitioner. Teacher will take care of me."
My insisting on not going to the hospital left my children without much choice. We remained silent for a while. After a few minutes, I felt hungry and my stomach wasn't hurting any longer. I could straighten my back and I felt hungry. I told my daughter to go buy some food. Not believing me, my daughter said, "You got well in just a few minutes? You are afraid we are going to force you to go to the hospital and so you are putting on an act for us. Just a moment earlier you were still holding your stomach and crying out!" I replied, "Don't say any more, just go and get some food." I joyfully ate a lot of food and my children were all happy and amazed. My son said, "Your Falun Gong is so miraculous!" I took the opportunity to promote Dafa to them. My energy returned. I went with my children to a shopping center and didn't feel tired at all.
I have never sent any articles to the Minghui/Clearwisdom website. I always felt reluctant to face Teacher since I do not have any higher education and didn't do well in cultivation. When I read articles written by fellow practitioners, I had a feeling of inferiority. However, I am a Dafa practitioner and I have a responsibility to write down my personal experience to share with fellow practitioners who may also suffer from sickness karma. Let us witness Teacher's greatness and the mighty power and miracles of Dafa.
