(Clearwisdom.net) As a member of my village party group, I worked for several years at the government's lowest level. I didn't understand for many years how the Communist Party's education twists the conscience and nature of the Chinese people, causing us to lose our true selves, until we do not know right from wrong.

In my early days, as the child of a farmer, I had a virtuous nature. After I finished work, no matter how late it was, I rushed back to town and ate in the eatery because I felt I should use my own money. However, my behavior caused other party members to treat me as a dissident, and push me out everywhere. The branch secretary in the village said I did not get along with others. At that time, the entire party group stayed in the village and let the people there entertain them after finishing work. Most of the branch secretaries were happy to entertain cadres visiting from town because they didn't need to spend their own money. They just sponged off of the common people's hard-earned money. Any food they didn't eat was wasted, and they did this with no consideration for anyone but themselves.

My superior often criticized me, saying that I did not work earnestly. I felt very sad. When I was in pain, a senior member "gave directions" to me, which changed my style. I decided to go with the flow; I ate and took things from common people. When we were supposed to live in the village, I dined together with other party cadres in the village. When we were not supposed to live there, I contacted other cadres to see where they were, and joined them no matter how far it was. Behaving in a corrupt manner, everything changed. My personal relationships at work improved, the branch secretary and the leaders all said I had changed for the better, that I work solidly now, unite with other comrades, etc. Isn't evaluating someone in this way reversing the standards of right and wrong?

Being a party cadre in China, can one not be kind? I felt really puzzled. I gradually understood, that as long as you want to be a party member, it is impossible to be a good person. Everyone puts a squeeze on people's hard-earned money. If you want to be a good person, you will be pushed out, labeled as incapable, an under-performer who doesn't work well with others.

For a period of time, my leader made me join a group that sent party officials to each village to call on farmers who had not paid what the party demanded. We beat them up and forced them to pay. We would carry away the grain rations of those who could not pay.

Farmers work very hard all year long, and after paying the government, they have very little money left. If they have an illness or if there is a disaster, they have to borrow all around. Just paying for food and clothing becomes a problem if villagers have a small conflict with the village cadres.

Villagers are called "stubble" by the secretary, and "chopped" by our workgroup. In order to complete the task of collecting tax money, our area organized a group of hatchet men to help the branch secretary take on the villagers. Some of the so called "stubble" were dragged into the village committee office, forced to sit on the ground with their arms straight out from the shoulder, and were not allowed to move. Some became extremely tired and put their arms down and the hatchet men would brutally beat them. Villagers could not bear the torture and agreed to pay their taxes; only then were they allowed to go home.

A previous branch secretary owed a farmer money, and was not willing to suppress farmers, so he was removed from his position. A more vicious person came to work as branch secretary, and did not admit the previous secretary owed anything and would not let the money go against the lending fund. The farmer disagreed and refused to pay his taxes, and so was treated as "stubble." The villager argued with the cadres, but they would not listen, and beat him until he agreed to pay up. I knew the officials were wrong. Villagers are forced to pay the government, but how can the government owe villagers and not pay? What principle is this?

The villager was very scared, with a bellyful of complaints, he painfully returned home to get grain and borrow money to pay the village committee. Fellow villagers were sympathetic: after a brutal beating, money and grain exchanged for a year's sweat and toil were handed over to the hatchet men. The same time next year, they would again be bled white. The vicious circle goes on, villagers are like lambs being led to the slaughter. Where is justice?

My heart was bleeding, but I could not show a bit of sympathy, because in the group of party politics, whoever showed sympathy or refused to join the workgroup would be washed out by the party.

In this environment, with the passing of time, my heart gradually became numb, the bit of kindness I had had, disappeared. In order to strive for leaders' appreciation and be promoted, I also began to hate the "stubble," and tyrannized people like other cadres. My superiors praised me, said I was capable, for more praise and promotions. I became more ruthless. I became one of those who hid at home during the daytime. Following our leads, we and the village cadres surrounded homes, climbed walls, kicked in doors, and pulled quivering "benefactors" out from under beds or from cabinets. Leaders would put belts around their necks, pull them out, and harshly begin the brutal torture. The next day, our "benefactors" came to pay their taxes with borrowed money.

Unknowingly, I became a backbone in my district, and was gradually promoted to the area leader. Under the fostering of the Chinese Communist Party (CCP), from a kind person, I became a numb hatchet man and lost myself in the party.

On July 20, 1999, the CCP began to suppress Falun Gong. I was learning the operation, and had yet to participate. I heard it mentioned that some people went to Beijing, and the party committee sent a car to bring them back. First we detained them at the police station for so called "education, and transformation" (torture). The TV broadcast propaganda that slandered Falun Dafa daily. It was like June 4, 1989 all over again (the date of the Tiananmen Square Massacre).

Propaganda came first, followed by persecution. The same mold, with nothing new. This made veteran comrades feel it was another political campaign, like so many during the party's tenure since 1949.

I met a Falun Gong practitioner in 1996, so I did not think they were as bad as the TV said. They are a group of good people. My child was sick before, and would cry all night. The hospital could not find anything wrong, but an old person said the child's soul was frightened, and invited someone who could call the soul back with a shout, the child stopped crying, and became completely normal. I was astonished, and understood humans do have spirits. Under the old person's guidance, I also bought a copy of Zhuan Falun. At that time, I only understood the supernatural effects of Falun Gong in curing illness, but did not practice, because I had no sickness. I had just gotten married and had many debts, so I had to try my best to make money to pay them off, leaving me with no spare time.

In 2001 the Central CCP was going to hold the People's Representative Congress, and feared Falun Gong practitioners would go to Beijing to appeal to the representatives there as well as journalists from abroad. The Central CCP ordered all levels of governments to strictly prohibit anyone from their area to appeal in Beijing, and if it happened, the top leader from that area would be removed from their post and held responsible. Therefore, the Party Committee also held a meeting, and put it into effect. A big net for seizing Falun Gong practitioners opened. I was sent to arrest Falun Gong practitioners in my area. So, after the meeting, we went straight to our targets. Our group arrived at a practitioner's home, first we randomly searched for Dafa materials, and found nothing, and we then pulled the practitioner into the car. The practitioner asked me: "What law have I broken, can you tell me which law from the Chinese Constitution I violated, or what bad thing I have done, how can you arrest people? You know the law and yet you violate it!"

I was speechless. Yes, she was forced to undergo tubal ligation due to the CCP's one child policy, and as a result, she could not work. She took medicine every day but it was useless. Afterwards, the village paid her a 2000 yuan subsidy every year, but she knew the money would not help much, it was not even enough to buy medicine! Her husband worked hard each year to support the family. After she began practicing Falun Gong, her illness disappeared. She could work again and didn't take the subsidy any more. It caused a huge shock in town. Since she began practicing Falun Gong, she never quarreled with others. What's wrong with being a good person?

None of us could find a reason to arrest her. Without official documents or any evidence of anyone practicing Falun Gong, we had no right to arrest her. We would be deliberately breaking the law! However as officials of the CCP, we have to deliberately break the law, so we can be promoted. We knew it was against the law, but had to follow unconditionally, and took her away forcibly. My conscience woke up from our actions. Although I felt sympathetic to them, I still forced them into the temporary "transformation" center.

Meanwhile I also started to face up to Falun Gong, I collected every Falun Gong truth-clarification flyer that I picked up on the roadside, and read it carefully.

The propaganda on TV, the pictures of the "self-immolation" in Beijing, Liu Siying's distorted appearance from the burns misled me again, and unknowingly deceived me, causing me to sin again.

Under the CCP's law, evil spread all over the country. Farmers who struggle on the verge of death are endlessly bullied and coerced. The branch secretary can get away with beating villagers, but villagers would be taken into custody after punching the secretary once, and interrogated, fined and forced to apologize. In China, people are forced to obey the law, and must adhere to the law strictly, yet party officials are not liable for any breach of law. The so-called law has become relationship law, money law and "law" that oppresses people.

When children of party officials violate the law, they can avoid punishment by going to the back door and paying some money. High officials strive to be umbrellas of criminals for power and money. This has caused gangs to run amuck in China. In order to complete the task of collecting agricultural taxes and boat usage taxes etc, village officials hire gangsters to collect them. They even let gangsters become the branch secretaries in villages with messy situations, "using evil to control evil," "using black to control black." This caused people's seething discontent. Many places began to have villagers no longer enduring such suppression and resisting together. The CCP leaders picked up on this crisis, and played a trick. They broadcast on TV how the Central Party understands farmers' situations, and implemented policies to reduce farmers' burdens, misleading the farmers into thinking the Central Party's policies were good, but were ruined by the villages and towns. This fooled a lot of people.

But the Central Party Committee actually changed the way it collects taxes from provinces, cities, counties and towns. They implemented the system of one being responsible for one's own finances. The head of a town is personally in charge of his or her towns' finances. The Party Committee secretary will lose his job if the task can't be completed, so the town government had to assign members of the villages to collect. The village secretaries use every method to get more money from farmers. After the farmers saw the TV propaganda, and thought the town and village governments charged randomly, some refused to pay. The town government then formed workgroups to bully people. Some villages made collective appeals. Town officials feared to take responsibility, so they forced the village officials to do it. Village officials had no other choice but to hire gangsters to collect money for them. Some farmers became anxious and jointly appealed. The CCP feared it would affect its international reputation, so it made a regulation that appeals could not bypass the immediate leadership, numbers could not be more than five people, otherwise it would be an illegal appeal, and the appealers must take responsibility for violating the law. At the same time, it also made it a regulation that the head of every level of government must take the main responsibility for appeals. The head of local governments must complete every task given by a superior, and not allow people to speak up, so they have to rely on state terrorism. Local police and public security bureau officers are forced to arrest appealers, cruelly torture them, and carry out an implication policy, in which neighbors, relatives and close friends of appealers are also fined or detained. Law abiding citizens have to tolerate and be a "dummy" for sentimentality, and pay unreasonable fines, a vicious circle .

It seems that farmers do not pay an agricultural tax; yet their income is still very low, and their lives do not change for the better, why? Frankly speaking, it is a sneaky technique used by the evil party. In China, the party controls the entire economy. Although it no longer charges agricultural tax, the prices of fertilizers and agricultural chemicals unceasingly rise. Although farmers do not pay taxes, their actual income is not high, and they still live in poverty. Why? As a matter of fact, the evil party deceives people, and as long as the party leads, farmers will never live above the poverty level.

Now, the CCP has developed a plan called "maintaining the advancement of CCP members." It alleges to consolidate the Party, but is simply another nominal formality that wastes manpower, and physical and financial resources.

First it requires that all party members, probationary party members, and activists joining the party to study. Whether they are retired or sick, they must receive materials delivered by fellow party members. The party set up assistance teams to help members at home. Doesn't the Central Party Committee know when people are sick or weak? How can they study? Not to mention that each party member must hand in experiences of no lesser than 3000 words, and 10000 words of study notes, some are illiterate, and can't even write: how can they write study notes? All these unreasonable requests cannot be put into practice at all. The village cadres and party members are busy with forms and materials, and become angry: Spring is a busy season; the Central Party Committee disregards the planting of crops. Can they compensate the farmers? It's true, some party members in the village have a lower conscience than villagers, some retired party members have many conflicts with current members, and do the opposite on every matter, not to mention gathering them to study leaving no one out. Every form and study notes are copied by teachers or students hired by branch secretaries, the experiences are also downloaded from the Internet, written by somebody else. All the advice is compiled together by each team leader, all the material, from top to bottom, is all fabricated. "Maintaining the advancement" education must carry on 64 provisions in the countryside; it is extremely tedious, and not realistic at all. It has caused many complaints from party members. Do you believe it is effective?

Some intelligent cadres thought about it, "Why did the Central Party Committee arrange such complicated but ineffective study tasks. Is there something happening in society which hit the CCP's vitals, and left it unable to fight back. Could this be something to keep us from looking elsewhere? Could this be a ploy to hold party members together by indulging in self-admiration."

After many inquiries, I heard about a book called the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party which fully exposes and judges the CCP. This book reviews the past 80 years of lies, dictatorship and suppression by the CCP. The CCP has committed monstrous crimes against the Chinese nation, has slaughtered 80 million compatriots in China, destroyed countless happy families, polluted the Divine Land that our Chinese nation lives on, and sold out three large, fertile provinces in the northeast to Russia. It has destroyed traditional Chinese culture, and persecutes Falun Gong practitioners who follow "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance." There is not one true sentence on TV or in the paper. Gangsters run amuck in China. Kind people are suppressed by the evil. Evildoers collude with officials; where is the Chinese nation's outlet!

The Nine Commentaries triggered a tide of members quitting the CCP. The Central Committee requested the "CCP theory elite" to write a book rebutting the Nine Commentaries, only to discover that this book was written according to the real history of the CCP, from its birth to now. Full of facts, there was no way to rebut it. They became very anxious, and thought up the nonsense "maintaining the advancement" education to take up party members' time, so they wouldn't have time to read the Nine Commentaries. They did not expect it to actually have the opposite effect; causing party members' repugnance, and let smart party members become aware of the Nine Commentaries, and join the tide of those quitting.

Once again, the CCP has shot itself in the foot. I also obtained the Nine Commentaries during that time, and truly realized the Communist Party is a cult, that brought huge disasters to our Chinese nation. In the Soviet Union, after Stalin died, the slaughter of 20 million Soviet people was disclosed, which caused the Soviet political power to fall in one night. The Communist Party of the Soviet Union became synonymous with butchery.. The Nine Commentaries exposes all the evil deeds of the CCP since its establishment. Over 80 million Chinese people were killed; let us wake up! Quickly withdraw from the evil CCP, replace the CCP's dictatorship rule with a democratic, free system, and return our Chinese' true quality.