(Clearwisdom.net) I am a woman from the countryside in my fifties, and I am fortunate to know Teacher's great law. Through my genuine practice of Falun Gong, level by level I have come to understand and experience many of the Fa principles that Teacher told us about in Zhuan Falun, such as purification of the spirit, the return of morality, family harmony, the wonderful effect of the dispelling of diseases, the main spirit leaving the physical human body, various supernormal abilities, the Celestial Eye, and so on. When Jiang's regime began to persecute Falun Gong, even after thinking about it a lot, I could not understand it. Didn't the government loudspeakers and television and radio programs often say that practice is the only standard by which to examine the truth? All through our practice, practitioners of Falun Dafa have drawn the conclusion that Falun Dafa is the great and righteous law.
Jiang's regime implemented the policy of "Ruining their (the practitioners') reputations, bankrupting them financially and destroying them physically" on one hundred million Falun Gong practitioners who don't fight back when they are beaten or sworn at, and has turned all of China into a living hell. No matter who you are, where you live, or what position you hold, as long as you believe in "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance," you are not spared. Practitioners are suffering the most brutal tortures in history.
"Education Is a Healthy Influence" is written everywhere in the forced labor camps and brainwashing centers in China, and is repeated on television and by the lecture groups. The goal is to surround those "obsessed people" with warmth like a spring breeze and make them "transform." Is it the result of the "healthy influence of education" or bloody rule? One hundred million Falun Gong practitioners, their families, and hundreds of millions of the general populace who know the truth can bear witness! Didn't those so-called "transformed" people even say that they wrote the five statements (similar to the three statements) against their wills due to unbearable physical and mental torture? After they went home, some of them cried their eyes out, distressed and regretful, and then wrote solemn declarations to retract their five statements.
In order to explain the true situation to the government, I once went alone to Beijing to appeal. Unexpectedly I was arrested, abused, cruelly beaten, locked up, and detained in a detention center by police. Our freedom of appeal is actually feigned. They forced me to perform heavy labor. I escaped using righteous thoughts when I was working. Afterwards I went to appeal at the highest People's Court in Beijing. I thought that the highest court would redress these wrongs, but, unexpectedly, they arrested me again and sent me back to the local police department. The director general was chided by his superior, became angry out of shame, put shackles on my angles that weighed more than forty pounds, handcuffed me, and said, "You are wearing one of the biggest pairs of shackles in the northeast."
More than ten police officers took turns beating a pathetically weak woman like me. They not only ceaselessly punched and kicked me, they also tortured me with high voltage electrical batons until I fainted. When I woke up that night, a policeman surnamed Sun tortured me after drinking alcohol. When his hands were tired from hitting me, he kicked me with his feet. When his feet hurt, he tortured me with the soles of his shoes. I again lost consciousness. After I woke up in the daytime, they buckled my hands and feet together and forced me to walk in the courtyard. Very soon, the skin on my ankles tore from the rubbing and would not stop bleeding. They deprived me of sleep at night, did not remove the handcuffs or foot shackles, and fixed my arms in-line on an iron stand. At that time, I thought, "I have been a farmer and suffered my whole life, and sometimes I did not even have enough food to eat, but I have never criticized the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). What did I do wrong in practicing 'Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance?' What law have I broken? Why cruelly torture me like this?" Only then did I realize the true meaning of "the heaven is big, the earth is big, but not as big as the benevolence of the party!"
Later, I picked up a very small nail from the floor, poked it into the foot shackles and made them open. In this way, I opened them up at night and locked them in the daytime, enabling me to get through these hardships. I knew that Teacher was helping me. Actually I was not the only one that suffered brutal persecution. I witnessed a young girl surnamed Wang, about 10 or 11 years old, who had bruises all over her body from torture. In the chilly cold of November 1999, she was forced to stand in the snow for several hours while wearing only thin cotton clothes. In this place, I have seen several hundred practitioners encountering persecution.
A few days later, I was illegally sentenced to one year of forced labor and sent to Heizuizi Women's Forced Labor Camp. Unavoidably I was beaten mercilessly by the guards, tortured with electronic batons, slapped with a bamboo rods, deprived of sleep, forced to work from 4:00 a.m. to 10:00 p.m. and so on. Later, because I was steadfast in the practice of Falun Dafa, I was transferred from 4th Brigade to the most barbarous 2nd Brigade. The leader was surnamed Zhang, the guard was surnamed Hao, and there was also an unmarried female guard. Beatings, verbal abuse and torture with electric batons were normal. The cruelest torture was to tie me on the death bed. I could not move, and I had to eat, drink and excrete on the bed. During this time, I witnessed a female practitioner tied to a tiger bench for seven days and nights. Upstairs and downstairs, the sounds of beatings, verbal abuse, and painful groans could be heard faintly. The miserable situation was indescribable. I was persecuted until I had lost the ability to take care of myself. I was set free after serving an extra three months.
In 2002, I was abducted by the 610 Office officials from the local police station and brought to a brainwashing center. I conducted a hunger strike to protest the unreasonable persecution, so they barbarically force-fed me. They first used a thin tube and then a thick tube. They could not insert the tube, so they tried with all their strength to jam it in. After every force-feeding, I vomited blood for a while. I became extremely emaciated from the torment. Afraid of being held responsible, they quickly transferred me to the Changchun Brainwashing Center. They carried me into the room and quickly left. On the second day, I became comatose and was only kept alive by being given oxygen. Only when the police saw that my situation was really bad did they let my family take me home.
Because of the Changchun cable TV tapping incident on March 5, 2002, I was again arrested and persecuted. Three policemen and two medical personnel force-fed me. I could not breathe and fainted. My husband saw that my eyes had stopped moving. They left in a hurry, leaving me alone in the clinic. At that moment, I felt a big hand wiping me from head to foot. I immediately awoke and sat up. I saw I was alone in the room and realized that Teacher was saving me. I walked out of the hospital with bare feet and again escaped. A good-hearted person who was selling ice cream gave me a pair of slippers, and a kind taxi driver took me to my daughter's home without asking for payment.
I was arrested and detained several times. I did not sign anything that the authorities ordered me to, and I always walked out in an open and honorable way. Of course I feel delighted, but the cruel beatings by my family make me extremely sad.
Due to the lies and deceit, the poison of the party culture, and the fear created by the Chinese Communist Party in the successive political movements, my family became cold, negative and selfish. They blame me for the mental pain and material loss brought to Falun Gong practitioners by Jiang Zemin and the CCP, and take out all their anger on me. My husband frequently yells at, scolds, and hits me. Once he hit my head with a cooking pot, he really hit me with all his strength. Another time he punched my eyes with his fists. I almost went blind, and they bled a lot.
I always bear the burden of responsibility, taking care of the elderly, looking after my children well and showing consideration for my husband. However, because of my belief in "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance" and striving to be a good person, I am not only persecuted by the Communist regime, but also beaten by my family. Is this society normal? I often shout in my heart, "Kind-hearted people! My family! Please wake up and recognize the deceitful, cheating, violent, terrorist, evil and scoundrel nature of the CCP's evil spirit! Open your conscience, make a clear distinction between right and wrong, promote justice. Let us suffocate the evil and move towards a glorious future together!"
I recall my experiences of going in and out of detention several times. Every time I escaped with the thought, "Let go of death." How can I still be alive today without the protection of Teacher? Letting go of death does not mean you want to die. The aim of Falun Dafa practitioners living nobly is to follow Teacher until the completion of the Fa-rectification.
Teacher said in "Teaching the Fa at the 2004 International Fa Conference in New York,"
"The evil is raucous on the surface, but inside it is afraid. You are Dafa disciples, and you can't have fear inside. If a cultivator can truly let go of [the fear of] death, then that death will forever be far removed from you. But this isn't something you can will to happen--it's a point that you cultivate to in the Fa, one at which you become that kind of being."
I have deep feeling regarding this truth.
