Letting Our Behavior Prove That Falun Dafa Is Good
(Clearwisdom.net) Today I came to an understanding of what a "Fa-rectification Dafa practitioner" is. Though I have worked on many projects for Dafa in the past five years and have read this term thousands of times, I never really understood its immense and deep meaning until now. The Fa-rectification Dafa practitioners are very important to the future of humankind. Our every word and action has to come with righteous thoughts and righteous actions, and we should use our behavior to prove that Dafa is good and validate the Fa principles at this human level. This is truly helping Teacher in this human dimension, and we should do our best, because Teacher and Dafa gave us everything.
I obtained the Fa in June 1996. I knew at the time that it was a good thing to reach Consummation, and I was determined to follow Teacher all the way to the end. Before the persecution started in 1999, another assisting practitioner and I had some xinxing conflicts. Sometimes other practitioners would feel sorry for me. Later I gradually realized that I have to let go of ordinary people's attachments if I ever hoped to improve. My heart then opened up. The other practitioner was giving me a chance to upgrade my xinxing and helping me to improve. So why was I mad at her? I should thank her, instead. I said thank you in my mind at that time. I was reading Teacher's article that night, and my heart felt so bright and open, like I had never read that article before. The memory of this experience is still fresh in my mind. One time when I couldn't get past a particular test, I read Teacher's article and a phrase caught my eye, "Why is it that you still couldn't pass this test?" I truly felt Teacher's immense compassion.
In the five years after 1999, I have experienced many tribulations. I went to City Hall on April 25, 1999, to tell the government that "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance" is good. I told them that the practitioners were trying to be better people through the practice, and that they were good for society and family.
On July 20, 1999, Jiang's regime started the nationwide persecution against Falun Gong. All over China, people were slandering Dafa. I was worried and thought, "The climate has turned against us, what do I do? Live or die, I will follow Teacher closely and never regret it."
On July 20, 1999, I went with my daughter and son-in-law to Beijing to appeal. There were police everywhere. The police surrounded the practitioners, seized them, put them in large buses and sent them to the Fengtai Sports Stadium. At about 3 p.m., large speakers started to make alarming sounds. The practitioners were reading Lunyu out loud. Police ran around but couldn't find any leaders. This lasted until 6 p.m. and I was put on a train headed home.
On October 20, 1999, I planned to go to Beijing to validate the Fa. A practitioner told me, "Don't go. I heard that if we get caught, we will be considered counter-revolutionaries or be executed." Several of us returned our tickets. To prove Teacher and Dafa were innocent and to ask for a peaceful environment for the practice, a practitioner and I went to Beijing anyway. Another practitioner commented that it was an attachment to go to Beijing again and again. I didn't mind the comment, but I was sad. Wouldn't you want to ask for justice if your parents were wronged? I didn't realize at the time that I should tell other practitioners and go out and validate the Fa.
In March 2000, I was taken to a detention center and later transferred to a railroad prison. Practitioners came to the understanding that we couldn't allow the evil to persecute us at will. Over 70 of us went on a hunger strike to protest the unlawful persecution and imprisonment. Under Teacher's care and protection, we read out loud "Lunyu" and Hongyin everyday, and none of us felt unbearable hunger. The police were scared and released us. The political and legal commission expected us to pay a deposit of 2,000 yuan, plus 800 yuan living expenses in the detention center, and 300 yuan living expenses in prison. The practitioners clarified the truth to the police, and some of them hence obtained the Fa.
I was again seized in 2001 because I distributed truth-clarifying materials. I was imprisoned in the Jinzhou First Prison and sent to the Masanjia Women's Forced Labor Camp on September 28, 2001. The situation was very difficult in the camp. They wouldn't allow me to sleep and tried to brainwash me daily. When I was incoherent and irrational, I let someone write the Three Statements for me. That left a stain on my life that could never be washed away and became a lifelong regret.
In the camp, I set to memorizing "Lunyu" and Hongyin every day. Sometimes I thought I wanted to get out and do what I was supposed to do. There were many people waiting to be saved. Teacher took care of me because I had this righteous thought. I fell while I was walking and needed assistance going up and down stairs. The captain asked me what happened, and I said that I had an eye condition. It was healed after I practiced Falun Gong but now it has recurred because I stopped practicing. The captain told me to have a checkup at the Shenyang Hospital. I didn't go because the transportation was too expensive. The next day, the captain told me to go to the Masanjia Hospital. I thought Teacher was hinting at something, so I went. A doctor said that my eyes were very bad. Under Teacher's protection, I left the camp on January 4, 2002, after three months in the Masanjia Forced Labor Camp.
In the car that transported me many times, I told the police the facts about Dafa. One time the political and legal commission brought me to court, and I was a little scared and didn't mention "Teacher" when I clarified the truth to them. The commissioners said severely that calling someone "Teacher" is a serious matter. I immediately realized that I was wrong, pressed my hands in front of my chest, and said solemnly, "Teacher, I was wrong."
A practitioner from Jinzhou named Du Baolan was tortured to death. The next day, other practitioners exposed this crime that the police committed. From then on, there were plainclothes policemen and special agents everywhere. A special agent has monitored me for the past five years. A practitioner worried that I would be arrested again and told me, "Go home. The police team there has reported to the upper authority that there are no Dafa practitioners." I went home. I was doing the three things Teacher asked us to do, but I relaxed and started to get comfortable because of my attachments. The evil dark minions took advantage of this gap, and I started to play Mahjong. I caught this attachment later. When I thought about it, it was scary that I couldn't see the dark minions. If there was a little something I didn't do well, the dark minions would sneak in the gap and try to ruin me.
Now I can feel how Teacher has worried for us, as well as his great compassion. I regretted my actions and was in tears. If we didn't catch this special period of Fa-rectification, where Teacher taught the Fa in person, how could we ever succeed in cultivation? We are very fortunate, indeed.
Seeing the articles written by practitioners in China, I, a lady in her sixties, also wanted to write down my experiences of the past five years. Please point out anything that is improper.