(Clearwisdom.net)
The righteous thoughts of a cultivator are extremely precious. I can still, very vividly, remember an incident that occurred to me in September of 2001.
At that time, there were already a few people at my workplace who knew the truth behind the persecution of Falun Gong. However, the overall situation of the persecution was still very severe. One day, a colleague from the security department told me that several people from the police station had visited them and probed them about Falun Gong-related issues. He suggested that I had better pack up my Falun Gong materials in my house soon.
Nevertheless, at that time I remained unmoved by my colleague's suggestion. I knew that my righteous thoughts were strong and that they were able to overcome the evil. Moreover, the evil had not dared to touch me at all before then. On my way back from home that day, my colleague's advice appeared in my mind again. To pack or not to pack, these 2 choices constantly troubled my mind, just waiting for my decision. I thought, "Why should I pack? Is it because of my attachment to fear? However, should they really come to my house, won't my Dafa books be confiscated if I do not pack them?"
Finally, I decided that whether or not I had an attachment to fear, I would not acknowledge the arrangement of the old forces. My priority would be to protect Dafa books. I tidied up my Dafa books from the table and placed them onto the shelves. Immediately after I did that and turned myself around, I heard a thump on the floor. My mind became tense and I turned around to have a look - a Dafa book had fallen on the floor! I was startled, "What happened? Didn't I place the books onto the shelves tidily? Is Teacher trying to enlighten me to some thoughts or actions that I had done wrong?" I held the books in my hand and tried to search for an answer from the perspective of the Fa.
I thought, "Regardless, I am not wrong in protecting Dafa books!" I then placed the book back onto the shelf again. When I turned myself around, I heard another thump and the book fell on the floor again. I became really confused as I picked up the book again. "Did I really do something wrong?" "How could there be something wrong with protecting Dafa books?" I seemed to have found a strong backup for my actions from the Fa, and decided to put the Dafa book back onto the shelf again.
At midnight, banging on the door awakened me. My heart missed a beat, and simultaneously seemed to become a little enlightened. I recalled something that I learned from studying Teacher's lectures: If you still do not become enlightened after Teacher's repeated efforts to awaken you, then you would have to go through a major hardship. I felt that now the problem had become very serious and that a hardship was unavoidable.
I was told to "Please have a seat." They began to ask me questions: "Do you still practice Falun Gong? You should look at the situation now, it has already become..."
I was struggling with myself as I listened. I felt terrible inside. It became clearer and clearer to me: it was because of my lack of righteous thoughts. In the battle between a cultivator's righteous thoughts and human notions, my righteous thoughts had been unconsciously substituted with human notions. I had been using Dafa as an excuse to hide my attachment to fear and had provided the evil with an opportunity to strike.
"I cannot hide it any longer!" A strong thought arose in my heart. "Although my attachments have been exploited by the evil, I have awakened to it. I want to face it courageously, and use this great opportunity to clarify the truth!"
At this time, all the fear in my mind vanished. I walked back and sat on the sofa, and began clarifying the truth:
I told them that, as cultivators, we only seek the improvement of our moral values;
I told them that we are all good people in society;
I told them that the government has no right to take away its citizens' freedom of belief and freedom of speech;
I told them that the CCP's propaganda is all illogical and irrational;
I told them that the persecution of Falun Gong is irresponsible to the nation and its people from a fundamental level.
As I was speaking, I gradually felt myself merging into the righteous energy of the universe. My mind cleared up and my thoughts became more free-flowing. As I continued on, the policemen from our district started to speak up for me unconsciously. After continuing further, my legs became crossed in a lotus position.
In the end, the leader of the group said, "All right, all right, we'll leave."
That moment made me feel the holiness of cultivating during the Fa-rectification. Teacher's article, "Cautionary Advice" occupied my mind:
"If every one of you can understand the Fa from the depths of your mind, that will truly be the manifestation of the Fa whose power knows no boundary--the reappearance of the mighty Buddha Fa in the human world!"
