(Clearwisdom.net) My wife and I are Falun Dafa practitioners. I always looked down upon her because she did not forge ahead diligently in cultivation practice. Instead of seizing the day to study the Fa, practice the exercises, clarify the truth and send forth righteous thoughts, she watched TV or haggled over everyday affairs. As a result, it took her a long time to finish reading Zhuan Falun.
One night, she suddenly suffered a serious headache. She said that she could sense some black things pressing her and asked me to help by sending forth righteous thoughts. At that time I was dissatisfied with her, saying to myself, "Why didn't you cultivate diligently before?" Several days later, she suddenly lost her sight. She persisted in going to the hospital for treatment, but the ophthalmologist could not find any problems. Just as we left to see a neurologist, she was startled as she caught sight of what seemed to be some evil thing that fell down to the ground. She immediately developed a twisted mouth, skewed eyes, foaming from the mouth and lost consciousness.
The next night I was awakened thoroughly by the thought that my wife is still a Dafa disciple even if she did not practice well, and I should not allow the old forces to persecute her this way. Although she did not behave exactly as a Dafa disciple should, the point is that she needs to improve, and this should not be an excuse for persecution.
Accordingly, I taught her to read Teacher's Fa-rectification formula out loud. At first, she could not read it clearly. Later she could read it by herself. After returning home that day, I intensified sending forth righteous thoughts. After several days, her eyes recovered without any treatment. During this period, she was unclear on many things. But, she said she had one righteous thought: I can overcome this tribulation, that's for sure. She really came through by holding this thought. What a dangerous situation she was in!
Through this lesson, I gained a whole new understanding of denying the persecution of the old forces. The old forces persecuted us on the excuse that we as a whole body had loopholes, and I held the idea: How can a Falun Dafa disciple behave like this? By thinking this way, I unknowingly approved the persecution of fellow practitioners.
Looking at her situation, it was clear that she had a big loophole, which resulted in the evil's violent treachery on her. How can a disciple not treasure such a precious Fa and risk losing this opportunity? Besides personal consummation, we also bear the mission of saving sentient beings. Teacher said that personal consummation is not the goal of cultivation:
"When you came, saving sentient beings was your great aspiration, and that is the responsibility and mission history has bestowed upon you in Fa-rectification."
("Let Go of Human Attachments and Save the World's People")
If we do not perform well in our personal cultivation, how can we save sentient beings? That is where my wife needed to improve.
She did not forge ahead diligently, but I also bore part of the responsibility for that. I was not pure enough, such that my energy field failed to affect her. My loophole intensified the evil factors. Now I pay close attention and encourage her to study the Fa and help her to improve. I also try my best to create a positive environment for her in our family and thus form an all-powerful whole.
March 27, 2005
