(Clearwisdom.net) I began to practice Falun Dafa in 1999. I, like all practitioners in China, have experienced many hardships. I am sharing my experiences as a witness of this historical time, to show that Dafa is indestructible and great, to share my cultivation path and growth, and to show how I achieved firm faith in Falun Dafa.
1. Second Time Illegal "Re-education" through Forced Labor
In the beginning of December 2002, after I had been unlawfully held in a forced labor camp for two years, and been at home for four months and nine days, a group of policemen rushed into my office, presenting a document committing me again to forced labor. They showed no actual legal documents, only an internal paper signed by several staff members of the police department. Without legal justification, they sentenced me to one year of forced labor because I was still practicing Falun Gong.
Several policemen dragged me to and then pulled me into the police car. I held no fear when they manhandled me while pushing me into the car. I loudly shouted in an open and honorable way, "Falun Dafa is great! Falun Dafa is the righteous law!" I held onto the car door with all my strength, and continued to shout loudly, so kind-hearted people passing by could hear that Falun Dafa is great. I also wanted to expose their evildoing.
They took me to Sanshui Female Forced Labor Camp. The camps brigade head Wang had guards Yang, Liang, Chen, and several drug addicts body-search me. They yelled at me non-stop. They pulled off all my clothes, pushed me into the bathroom and washed me with cold water. Then they forced me to put on the camp's uniform and tag. On the third day, guard Pan wanted me to do physical exercises. I refused, and I completely opposed the so-called forced labor identity. Therefore, Pan ordered prisoners Liu Yan, Wu Xiaohong and others to drag me to the courtyard. The most vicious guard, the head of the No. 3 sub-group Liang Guiling ordered several prisoners to tie me up. My hands and body were held against a wooden board and I was tied up. Then, prisoners lifted my arms, dragged me twice around the courtyard, and then had me stand against the wall. Guard Liang told them to throw cold water on my face. I was wet from head to toe during that chilly December day. They kept me tied for more than three hours before they released me.
On the morning of the next day, guard Liang called me to the office and ordered me to squat. I did not cooperate. Therefore, brigade head Wang ordered two prisoners to push me to the floor and make me read the slanderous writings. I refused. The guards punished me. They did not allow me to use the toilet, and forced me to squat in the office for an entire day. At night, they dragged me to the meeting room and forced me to squat for three days and nights. During this period, they deprived me of sleep, rest and did not let me close my eyes. They also cuffed my hands and feet.
2. The Forced Labor Camp Set Up Hidden Illegal Dark Dens to Persecute Falun Gong Practitioners
After 8 a.m. on the fourth day, guard Pan and several prisoners wrapped my head with some material and tied it tightly with strings. I could hardly breathe. They also cuffed my hands and feet. They dragged me to a car. The car drove off. I did not know where it was going. It stopped and they dragged me out of the car, into a building and into a room. Then they removed the wrap around my head. I opened my eyes. The room was dark, and the four walls were full of slanderous and dirty words against Teacher and Falun Dafa. Guards Liang, Gu and Chen immediately pushed me down, with the help of several prisoners. They used all their strength to make me step on Teacher's Buddha image. I firmly resisted, made an effort to push them away and firmly refused to squat or step on the image. However, they succeeded eventually. They pulled me on Teacher's Buddha image. The pain within me was excruciating. This is how they mentally torment Falun Gong practitioners.
Behind me was a wall, and on my front, left and right side were stools tightly pushed against me. The prisoners sat on the stools, faced me, held down my hands, and did not allow me to close my eyes. As soon as I closed my eyes, they poured cold water on me. The prisoners who supervised me changed shifts every two hours. In order to compel me to renounce Falun Gong, they utilized every conceivable evil method. First, they did not allow me to go to the toilet. When they saw I could still bear it, they forcefully pressed me onto Teacher's Buddha image, forced me to squat down and tried to make me urinate on the picture. I did not cave in. Finally, I felt I could no longer endure it any longer, as it was terribly uncomfortable. I thought, I am a Falun Dafa practitioner, great Teacher's disciple. Teacher's words from Zhuan Falun clearly penetrated my main consciousness.
"When I practiced cultivation in the past, many great masters told me these words, and they said: "When it's difficult to endure, you can endure it. When it's impossible to do, you can do it." In fact, that is how it is. Why don't you give it a try when you return home. When you are overcoming a real hardship or tribulation, you try it. When it is difficult to endure, try to endure it. When it looks impossible and is said to be impossible, give it a try and see if it is possible. If you can actually do it, you will indeed find: "After passing the shady willow trees, there will be bright flowers and another village ahead!" (Zhuan Falun, Lecture 9)
I said to myself, I have Teacher and Dafa, what is there to fear! At the same time, I begged Teacher to help me dry up the urine. I became more and more relaxed, and then, I no longer felt the need to urinate. After 49 hours, the guards instructed the prisoners to bring a bucket for me to relieve myself. I realized the great Teacher was truly guarding me, protecting me, and not allowing the evil to persecute me in this way. No matter what kind of vicious methods they used, it had no effect. I firmly remembered that Teacher said,
"Under any difficult circumstance, everyone, remain calm in your hearts. Just by staying unaffected, you will be able to handle all situations." ("Lecture on the Fa at the U.S. Midwest Conference")
Therefore, I incessantly recited Teacher's articles, sent forth righteous thoughts, did not slacken, always conducted myself according to the Fa, and did not leave any loophole for the evil.
3. Eliminate the Inhumane Persecution with Righteous Thoughts
After a day, the guards again covered my head, and took me back to the No. 2 brigade of the female forced labor camp. At 7 p.m. the next day, they again covered my head, and took me to that horrible place. This time, they did not take off the cover over my head, or the cuffs on my hands and feet. Guard Pan tried to intimidate me through threats, and gave me three choices:
Write the so-called Three Statements and transform;
If I do not write the "Three Statements," at least put it in writing that I would renounce Falun Dafa;
If I do not agree, then I will suffer physical torture.
I completely negated this, solemnly told them that I would not write the "Three Statements," or guarantee anything against my consciousness. I explained that I am a Falun Gong practitioner who practices "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance." I strive to be a good person. Everything we do conforms to the moral standards of human beings. There is nothing wrong with me. However, the way you treat us is inhuman. You can't change people's heart by coercion, suppression and torture. You achieve just the opposite, because people's mind will become firmer. On the other hand, you are perpetrating crimes. Eventually, you will receive your due in the court of conscience and morality. You will have to suffer the consequences for following the dictates of Jiang's scoundrel regime.
Guard Pan held two electric batons that were fully charged. He pulled apart the cover on my head and began to cruelly torture me with the electric batons. He did not leave any place on my body untouched. He tortured me like this from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet. After the torture, he asked me if I had changed my mind. I said: "No. I practice "Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance," I will not concede!" Guard Pan tortured me with the electric batons three times, and repeatedly asked me the same question, and I negated the persecution with the same answer.
In the end, Pan had no choice but to order the prisoners to cover my face and take me back. When I was suffering the electrical currents, I continuously sent forth righteous thoughts and recited the Fa.
Mighty Virtue
Dafa never leaves the body,
Heart contains Zhen-Shan-Ren;
A great Arhat in the world,
Spirits and ghosts fear the most.
Hong Yin January 6, 1996
Non-existence
To live with no pursuits,
To die with no regrets;
All excessive thoughts extinguished,
Cultivating Buddhahood is not difficult.
Hong Yin October 20, 1991
After 9:00 a.m. the next day, deputy director Tang, three guards and several prisoners covered my head, and again took me to the car. This time, they untied me after I got in the car. They drove to a place opposite the female forced labor camp, which was specially designated for persecuting Falun Gong practitioners. They pulled me into a room on the second floor. The surrounding walls were full of slanderous words, attacking Teacher and blaspheming Falun Dafa. Furthermore, they again placed Teacher's Buddha image on the floor, pushed down practitioners and forced them to sit or squat on the picture.
Sanshui Female Forced Labor Camp has four hidden dark dens for persecuting practitioners. They use many cruel, inhuman and demeaning methods there, such as forbidding practitioners to go to the toilet, sleep deprivation and brainwashing. They force practitioners to listen to lies and slanderous words against Teacher and Dafa around the clock. Their pressure techniques are designed for the practitioners to renounce and slander Falun Dafa and Teacher. They did not let me rest or use the toilet. Sometimes I could not hold back, so I had to urinate in my pants.
The guards did not allow Han Zhimin from Zhuhai drink anything for more than 70 hours. Then they brought a big cup of water, about half a liter, and asked her: "Han Zhimin, do you want to drink water?" She answered: "I am thirsty, I want to drink." They replied, "Then you drink it all." Han Zhimin all of a sudden drank all the water. They said: "Han Zhimin, you drank the water. But if you want to urinate, you must get my permission. Unless you write the "Three Statements" or the Guarantee Statement, you must drink all your urine."
However, the evil is always defeated in the end. Han Zhimin wrote a guarantee statement to firmly practice Falun Dafa!
They wanted me to read the slanderous words on the wall, I completely opposed, and loudly shouted: "Teacher is great! Falun Dafa is great! Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance is great!"
4. Study the Fa and Exchange Experiences to Prevent Going Astray
At 8:00 a.m. one morning, guards Zhang and Chen took me to "exchange experiences" in the male ward of Sanshui Forced Labor Camp. The so-called "exchanging experiences" is used when torture is unsuccessful. They use collaborators to brainwash practitioners. They come up with the most despicable "theories," hoping that practitioners' will falter. I enlightened that in dealing with those practitioners who have temporarily gone astray, I need to have kind thoughts and recite Dafa's principles. Therefore, I was very happy to share with them. It gave me the opportunity to help them to come back to the path of Teacher's Fa-rectification. I knew that I must do well.
During our sharing, I recited Teacher's articles to them, such as "Coercion Cannot Change People's Hearts," "A Suggestion," "Dafa is Indestructible" and so on. I told them it was wrong to be "reformed," that it was betraying Falun Dafa and Teacher, and the most disgraceful thing for a practitioner. In the beginning, they were obstinate and held on to the attachments of fear, human notions, and false mentalities. But slowly, Teacher's articles brought into play immense supernatural power. Their side that had attained the Fa woke up slowly and they no longer spoke untruths. They treated me very well, and asked me to recite more of Teacher's articles. Therefore, I recited all articles I could remember, and we studied the Fa together. They felt it was quite precious to be together like that. The power of Fa is truly unique, even in the evil dark dens, practitioners still can study the Fa and share experiences as if in a normal environment. The evil did not expect this.
They asked me to come again the next day and I happily agreed. The guards saw my smile and thought that they had succeeded. They mistakenly thought that my thoughts had "become flexible," and I could be "reformed." They asked me if I wanted to "exchange experiences" again in the male ward. I said it was very good.
The next morning, I went to the male ward again to share with practitioners. This time, I had a chance to share with more practitioners. I shared with them for the whole day. After studying Teacher's articles, they all understood and realized that it was wrong to "transform." Some of them immediately decided to publish a solemn declaration, negate all "guarantees" they had given to the evil, and void the written "Three Statements." Dafa again revealed its great power. Dafa is truly indestructible and solid like diamonds.
Guard Zhang asked me about the outcome of the "sharing," and whether I was ready to be a "reform" success. I said the result was excellent, I had a new understanding of Falun Dafa, and had become more steadfast in the practice. In regards to being "reformed," I did not entertain any such thoughts. My answer is "No" now and will always be "No." Guard Zhang was furious and cursed, "You were so active in 'sharing,' we all thought you would be 'transformed.' We can see now that you are hopeless. Wait and see how I will deal with you!"
5. Regard the Fa as Teacher and Deny Forced "Transformation"
1) Torture the Victim until Unconscious and Forge the "Three Statements"
Guard Zhang had two cruel prisoners push me to the ground, hold me down and cruelly beat me until I fainted. They tried all conceivable cruel methods to have me write the "Three Statements." The guards also showed me the "Three Statements" written by other practitioners to deceive me: "Look, such and such was steadfast? They wrote it." They told me to copy the contents, I resisted. The prisoners pressed me on the bed as instructed by the guards, violently beat me, slapped my face, hit me with elbows and fists and kicked me. I loudly rebuked them, "It is wrong, you have no right to treat me like this!"
They used pillows to cover my mouth and continued to kick me. They violently kicked my lower back. I felt severe pain, and cried out wretchedly immediately. They covered my mouth to stop me from yelling. After some time of this torment, I was incapacitated and in a stupor. At this time, guard Zhang brought a sample of the "Three Statements," ordered the prisoners to hold my hand, and copy the sample. They took advantage of me when I was in a stupor. I had lost my strength to fight them after the torture. They had fabricated the "Three Statements" that were "written by me". They forged another "Guarantee Statement," the language of which was very depraved, such as: "I, such as such, personally wrote every word of the 'Three Statements.' I will never take back my promise. If I should do so, my family will die and be hit by lightning." After the prisoners held my hand and finished copying the statements, it was 1:30 a.m. I lay in bed in a total stupor and my main consciousness could not focus. I could not sleep. My main consciousness gradually awakened and I regained consciousness. I instantly recalled words from Teacher's article "Coercion Cannot Change People's Hearts":
"For over a year, the evil has utilized the bad people who have been used as its tools and who employ all sorts of torture instruments and methods to beat cruelly and torture Dafa cultivators. Although many people have been beaten to death, beaten to disability, or sent to mental hospitals, this has still not changed true cultivators' steadfast, righteous thoughts. [The bad people] produce fake scriptures, don't allow students to sleep, fabricate charges, frame up students, spread lies, and so on. Being threatened severely, deceived, and pressured greatly by all those indecent means, some students have written things like the so-called "guarantees to stop practicing" or "statements of repentance" when they were not in their right minds and forced. None of those were genuine expressions from the students' hearts -- they were done against their wills. Although they had attachments, were momentarily taken advantage of by the evil, and did what a cultivator should not, a cultivator ought to be looked at in his entirety. I do not recognize any of those things. When they return to their senses, they will immediately start doing again what a Dafa student should do during this time, and, in the meantime, will declare as null and void everything that they said and wrote when they were not in their right minds due to intense persecution, and will declare that they are determined in cultivation. A large number of declarations from students all over the country have appeared daily. The last hope of attempting to change Dafa disciples' righteous thoughts through coercion and deception has been completely shattered. The evil no longer has any way to change the determination that Dafa disciples have developed from their true understanding of the Fa through cultivation and from their Buddha-nature after the elevation of their benti1 in actual cultivation. In this situation, the evil's performance has completely turned into the venting of personal resentment by the malicious people, using the power in their hands and employing the most base means."
2) Regard the Fa as Teacher, Void the Statement
I realized that I must behave according to Teacher's requirements, and prohibit any blot to my cultivation path in Dafa. Around 3:00 a.m., I endured severe pain, picked up the pen and paper on the table and wrote a solemn declaration.
At 8:00 a.m., brigade head Wang, chief Zhang of Administration Section and deputy director Tang came to talk to me. Guard Wang smiled a crooked smile, and said: "I heard that you have written an acknowledgment, and written the "Three Statements?" I came personally to take you back to No. 2 brigade." I slowly got up from the bed, and told him quietly, solemnly and in a serious tone: "Yes, I want to tell you that I want to assimilate to the cosmic characteristic of 'Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance.' How can I change my mind? What are the 'Three Statements?' I practice Falun Dafa. It is the most righteous and kind factor in the cosmos, how could I 'atone' for it? How could I 'transform?' You think inhuman, cruel and coercive means can destroy my faith? Don't waste your thinking on such speculations. No evil can win against 'Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance.' As long as we persist in practicing the fundamental law of the cosmos, we fear nothing."
Then, I took out my solemn declaration and handed it to him. Wang's face changed immediately. He ran towards me and slapped my face cruelly three times. He scratched my face and there were three bloodstains from his sharp nails. He hit me, at the same time and shouted loudly, "You reneged on your promise. Your entire family will be struck by lightning and die." He furiously tore my solemn declaration, threw the broken pieces into the toilet, and walked away swearing foully. Section chief Zhang pressed me down on Teacher's Buddha image, and forced me to squat for a long time. At that time, the left side of my lower back was in unbearable pain. I lost my strength for three days. I could not empty my bowels and it was extremely difficult to urinate. I hurt very much and even felt pain when breathing. I urinated only blood.
I requested a check-up, but they feared that their evildoing would be exposed. They did not give me permission. The more evil fears there are to be exposed, then the more I must expose.
3) Resist the Evil and Maintain Steady Righteous Thoughts
After 8:00 a.m. two days later, deputy director Tang and chief Zhang from the Administration Section came to see me again. They shouted and abused me, and wanted me to read the slanderous and vicious words on the wall, slandering Teacher and Dafa. I resisted. They asked me to read them. I then loudly said, "Teacher is great!" "Falun Dafa is great!" "Falun Dafa is the righteous law!" and so on. Deputy director Tang tortured my mouth with an electric baton. My lips became immediately numb, were injured and I felt extreme pain. He tortured me from head to toe with the electric baton. He was going mad, and his face looked ferocious. When chief Zhang realized that Tang was exhausted, he took the electric baton and continued to torture me. He felt that I needed additional torture and ordered guard Zhang to pour cold water on me. He wanted to make sure that it was more painful. However, I had no fear.
"If a cultivator can let go of the thought of life and death under any circumstance, evil is sure to be afraid of him. If every student is able to do this, evil will of itself no longer exist." ("Eliminate Your Last Attachment(s)."
They changed their mind and did not pour water on me. Eventually, they tore off all the slanderous lies on the wall, and pasted the paper on my body. I removed the paper, tore it into pieces and threw it away. The debased writings that defame Teacher and Falun Dafa were finally destroyed by the evil themselves. They tried every conceivable cruel method they could think of to make me give in to their demands. They finally realized that they would not succeed. Therefore, they took me back to the forced labor camp. I was held in the secret dark den for 28 days.
At the forced labor camp, the guards ordered prisoners to drag me to room No. 109. On the second day, brigade head Wang and instructor Yu came to the room. Wang looked at me fiercely. I faced him with righteous thoughts to restrain the evil behind him. I said: "You have seriously injured me, I must go to the hospital for an examination." Wang raised his right foot and cruelly kicked my lower left leg. I felt extreme pain, and I could not help but cry out. I thought, I couldn't allow the evil to barbarically persecute me like this. I immediately sent forth righteous thoughts to stop it. I insisted on going to the hospital. I rolled up my pant leg and noticed a large bruise that hurt for a long time. The evil feared exposure, so they transferred me to No. 1 brigade and thought they had seen the last of me.
4) Abuse, Torture and Lawlessness
I was taken to No. 1 brigade. The solemn declaration I wrote was torn to pieces by head Wang. I felt that he should not have torn it. Dafa is very serious, and cultivation is very serious. I could not allow this matter to end here. I knew that I must rewrite the solemn declaration. I wrote the solemn declaration, which briefly described the persecution I suffered in the forced labor camp, and handed it to the head of the No. 1 brigade Liao.
Around 9:00 p.m. on May 25, 2003, I was taken away by guard Yang. I was only allowed to bring a cup with me. He took me to the 2nd floor of a building in the forced labor camp, which was used solely to persecute Falun Dafa practitioners.
I was tortured again. I had to squat for a long-time, was forbidden to use the toilet, and both my hands were cuffed behind my back. I did not cooperate, and held a hunger strike for three days. I was not allowed to use the toilet and thus urinated in my pants. They did not let me sleep for three days, nor even close my eyes. As soon as I closed my eyes, they poured cold water over me. Three days later, guard Liang Guiling from No. 2 brigade came with two prisoners, and took me back to room No. 101 on the 1st floor of the No. 2 brigade. This is also a room where they torture Falun Dafa practitioners.
The guards ordered two prisoners to push me to the ground, deprive me of sleep, and make sure that I did not close my eyes day or night. When I closed my eyes, the prisoners poured cold water or urine on me. Icy cold water or bad smelling urine ran down from my head and got into my eyes. This was an ugly and uncomfortable situation. They also put the chamber pot between my legs, pressed my head down and made me inhale the stench. They used many methods to stop me from falling asleep. They moved my shoulders back and forth, took a feather and tickled the inside of my nose and ear or under my armpit.
One night, guard Gu brought a recorder, and ordered the prisoners to push me to the ground. They tightly held my hands and feet, so I could not move. Guard Gu pressed the earphone against my ears and made me listen to depraved words that cursed Teacher and defamed Falun Dafa. I refused to listen, and shouted loudly: "Teacher is great!" "Falun Dafa is great!" "Falun Dafa is the righteous law!" They hated my resistance. Therefore, they slapped my face and kicked me.
They also force practitioners to watch a video that slanders Falun Dafa and Teacher.
Even though the guards allowed me to use the toilet and wash myself, they made it as unpleasant as possible. The environment was meant to create terror in me. They always waited until I could no longer endure it before they allowed me to use the toilet and then rebuked me. In the bathroom, before I could squat down on the toilet, the prisoners loudly shouted: "Hurry up!" "Hurry!" When I was a bit slow at times, they rushed in and dragged me out. They did not give me much time to take a shower. Sometimes I was not allowed to take a shower for weeks at a time.
5) Remove the Block from those that Have Gone Astray, Return to the Righteous Law
After they had tried every conceivable torture method without success, they came up with the idea that practitioners who had gone astray because of their attachments and fear would be able to make me capitulate. The guard showed me practitioners' "transformation statements" daily. They asked me to read them, but I firmly refused and resisted.
One day, the guard gave me a "transformation statement" from a practitioner whom I knew. When I was in the No. 1 brigade, I had talked with this practitioner. She had a clear understanding of Falun Dafa's principles, her behavior was rational and she often transcribed Teacher's article for me. She was a true pillar and helped me hold on to righteous thoughts.
We have said that no matter how inhumanly they persecuted us, we must stay true to the practice and under no circumstances give in to the evil. I read this "transformation statement." I understood the reason why she could not bear the evil persecution any longer. But, I also knew that this was written against her true will. However, as a practitioner of Falun Dafa, how can we violate our own vow? I really wanted to talk to her, and hoped I could help her.
On the following day, the guard arranged that practitioner to meet with me. We had many things to tell each other, but the two guards' presence hindered us from sharing freely. We just could not get the conversation going. She saw how cruelly they had tortured me and could not hold back her tears. The guards asked me, "Don't you want to see her? How come you don't talk?" I replied: "You are monitoring us. I don't want you to hear what I have to say. I want to talk alone with her, or I won't say anything."
The guards made the prisoners leave, and we were allowed to have a one-on-one conversation on the balcony. I asked her: "How could you write this?" She said: "It is too inhuman here. Such and such have been in the forced labor camp twice, and behaved well for some time, but then they were also forced to write the phony "Three Statements." Some people wrote the statement, became clear later, wrote the solemn declaration, but then were forced to write the statement again. Some people have written three to four solemn declarations. The inhuman persecution is unbearable. People's physical endurance has a limit. There is no environment here to study the Fa well, being away from the Fa, the god's side is hard to come out. The physical body is unable to endure. I wrote the statement with the thought that when I get out, I will write a solemn declaration. Furthermore, being in here, we can't meet the requirements of Dafa. We cannot save sentient beings. We can't do any of the three things here. In fact, how many people here are really muddled? About 80% to 90% are forced to write because they can't endure the physical torture. Many people who help the evil to do "transformation" work have not changed at all. What they write in the notebook are all words like "Falun Dafa is great," "those practicing Truthfulness, Compassion, Forbearance are innocent," "Falun Dafa is the righteous law." I asked her, "What we are practicing is truly the great law of the cosmos and Teacher came to save us. How can we betray Teacher, and give up practicing Falun Dafa?" She told me to simply write a statement like hers, so we could leave the evil dark den as soon as possible and not to delay doing the three things. We talked for two and a half days.
After listening to her words, I was affected. I thought, of course, this practitioner erred only temporarily, she is good, and doing very well now. At last, I took what she had written, copied a bit here and there, and scraped together the so-called "Four Statements." A little later, this no longer felt right and I was unsure of this. I always felt that it did not comply with Teacher's requirements of his disciples, and Falun Dafa's requirements to practitioners. I thought: "Dafa is serious, cultivation is serious. I absolutely won't do what is not within the Fa, and won't do what Teacher did not tell us to do. Teacher has clearly said that practitioners should not cooperate with the evil, not guarantee "not to practice" to the evil, and not be "transformed" by the evil. Teacher has made himself perfectly clear, and we clearly understand this. Then, why do we waver? Why do we not follow Teacher's words? Is this the reflection of strong human notions? We should regard the Fa as Teacher, and not imitate others.
Teacher clearly said in Zhuan Falun:
"Also, after seeing the demeanor of the disciples who travel with me, some people will imitate them without realizing whether they are good or bad. In fact, it does not matter who the person is--there is only one Fa. Only by observing this Dafa can one meet the genuine standard."
I realized that I couldn't write the statement, even if I considered it to be untrue in my mind. Cultivation is to cultivate the heart, and one must keep a righteous mind at all times. If the mind does not hold righteous thoughts, one may go astray. I felt that this practitioner held the attachment of sentimentality, she held human notions, and this was wrong. After two days, I handed in my solemn declaration. However, the guard neither accepted my declaration, nor looked at it, but directly gave it to the prisoners to throw in the sewer. I realized that this was shameful. I knew that I had to expose it. We were in the courtyard. I loudly shouted to the prisoners to take my solemn declaration out of the sewer. I purposely shouted very loud. I wanted to make sure that all practitioners who were close to writing the solemn declaration heard. I thought if they were wavering back and forth they would hear me and understand. I wanted to encourage them and tell them to not take the wrong path. Falun Dafa practitioners are one body. We must all regard the Fa as Teacher, and righteously walk on our cultivation path, which includes validating the Fa.
I wrote quite a few of the same solemn declarations and tried to turn them in during times when many people were present. I wanted them to see that the evil could not refuse to accept them. One day, the guards inspected my personal space. I purposely let them find my solemn declaration. A few guards read it together. They could no longer deny that they had not received and read my solemn declaration.
I had negated evil enlightenment and had opposed the so-called "transformation" arranged by the evil. I melted into the immense force of Fa-rectification in an open and honorable way.
6. Conclusion
Completely negate the old forces' arrangements and negate the vicious "transformation" that destroys Falun Dafa practitioners. My mind is clear. I have Teacher and Dafa. I know that I am steady and sure of the direction I'm going. I am relaxed.
I must admit that human notions that did not comply with the cultivation principles of practitioners at times affected me. Yet, the benevolent salvation of Dafa and Teacher have given all sentient beings in the cosmos the chance to enter into the new cosmos, which is all-harmonizing-and-never-failing. We must cherish this precious opportunity, hold firm righteous thoughts and return home with Teacher.
Teacher said: "There was a saying in the past: 'Having heard the Dao in the morning, a person can die at dusk.'" ("Teaching the Fa at the Assistants' Fa Conference in Changchun") I have already obtained the Fa, so what else is there to be afraid of? The evil can only affect human notions, but cannot affect a practitioner's cultivated side. Teacher chose me, an ordinary person to become a genuine Dafa practitioner. It is Teacher and Dafa who chose me. Innumerable living beings placed infinite hope in me. I must not disappoint the benevolent salvation of Dafa and Teacher and sentient beings' trust in me. I must be more diligent, during this special historical period of Teacher's Fa-rectification in the human world, do the three things well, make good use of my time, assist Teacher in validating the Fa, and spread Dafa to everyone who has a predestined relationship.
