Some Thoughts About Time

I feel that the notion of "time" that I conceptualize in a human manner blocks me in cultivation and in my Dafa work. I always feel as if I don't have enough time. I fear time, and I'm worried about time. I don't have time to read, time to practice, time to do truth clarification work, and to do the projects that I need to do, and I don't have time to send forth righteous thoughts. This notion of time exactly targets the three things that we need to do. When I get home, I have limited time to do what I need to do, and it makes me stressed. Even my mother asked me why I always look at my watch.

When my mother needs some help, I get stressed or annoyed, because it takes my time. The more time it takes, the more I get stressed, because I don't get the time to do what I need to do. I have a hard time finding time to read Clearwisdom. I have so many things to do. Check my emails? Read carefully an article before publishing it? Send forth righteous thoughts to New York? Beijing? Some projects? Practicing all of the five sets of exercises?

It also creates a lot of interference for my cultivation. When I send righteous thoughts, I sometimes think, "I have no time, I have this and that to do" and then want to shorten the sending of righteous thoughts, or I might wait for the beep that will release me. Or sometimes I just don't feel like sending righteous thoughts when it's not the fixed times. Or when I study the Fa, sometimes I can't calm my mind, and thoughts run in my mind such as, "I have this and that to do, but I must read all this lecture. How much is left? How much more time?" and in such a state I can't study the Fa well.

It is like living in some kind of a race, where I need to manage to do what I need to do, and it comes from an ordinary person's thought, and thus can be taken advantage of by the old forces and end up in my really not managing to do all of what I need to do. If a cultivator is afraid of something, then he actually invites it. If a cultivator is fearless and keeps a righteous mind, then it's bound to be that Teacher will help him with everything, and there are also righteous Buddhas, Daos and Gods, and Teacher's fashen everywhere. In my understanding, everything that was not planned by Teacher was planned by the old forces, so I just need to go with the righteous planning, and it won't happen if I develop worries. As soon as we get afraid of getting some illness, it can sneak into our bodies, and it's very dangerous. It's the same in this case.

There are all kinds of stories about how practitioners deal with time, like that practitioner who had only 10 minutes to study but could read a full chapter in this time. Teacher also says in the second lecture in Zhuan Falun:

Today, science believes that time has fields, and that when something isn't within the expanse of a time-field it's not restricted by that time. The concept of space-time in other dimensions is different from the one here, so how could it restrict matter from other dimensions?

So if it is for saving sentient beings, maybe we can give less power to this "time," give it less ability to take advantage of us, and thus save more sentient beings.

The above is only my understanding. Please correct me if there are any wrong views.