(Clearwisdom.net) For a long time, clarifying the truth has been a challenge for me. I have tried to clarify the truth to my relatives and friends many times, but seldom succeeded in gaining approval or acceptance from them.
Some people politely advised me, "If this practice is good, then you can practice at home, and not go out to risk trouble. You have to think of your children, how the current situation is..." Obviously, this was caring and considerate, but they did not accept the truth I tried to clarify. Some people even raised questions to counter me, so there was minimal acceptance on their parts. To top it off, my child argued with me openly. In fact, he wouldn't let me say anything at all. As soon as I would bring up the topic, he would immediately show the "time-out" hand signal and yell, "Stop, stop, stop ..." and prevent me from continuing. For this, I felt awful and at a loss. Because of this attachment, as soon as I thought about clarifying the truth, I would be under pressure. I always felt that I could not summon enough stamina to do it. Therefore the notion that, "clarifying the truth is difficult" became a psychological barrier in my mind.
Not long ago in a small shop, I incidentally struck up a conversation with a couple of customers, and we talked about faith and cultivation. I clarified the truth to them and the outcome was quite beyond expectation. I clarified several issues in what seemed like one breath, and a miracle happened. I found that both of them were very interested as if their hearts were moved. One of them, the younger one said, "You speak very well. You must be well educated?" The other smiled and said, "What you say is very good." But they also raised the question about getting political. So for this issue, we discussed a while longer.
After they left, I was elated. The scenes of how I clarified the truth to them started to appear in my mind constantly. I felt it went really well - and to my surprise all of the issues were clarified without hesitation. I even did not have any preparations beforehand, yet I did it better than any time prior. I could not help asking myself, "Why did I speak so well today?" I had the answer almost instantaneously, "I acted completely for their good and I did not mix in my own human attachments and sentiments, so Master helped me!" I was very excited, and as I thanked Master for His encouragement, I felt a strong sense of confidence and strength, and a strange happy feeling.
Originally I did not think it was worthwhile writing about this little achievement, because in regards to clarifying the truth, I am still not good at it, and I am still in the state of "unable to do what I intend to do." As I think about this, I feel ashamed and awful. But, over the last several days I could not forget about my experience that day. It so happened that the call for papers was out for "the Second Mainland China's Falun Dafa Practitioners' Cultivation Experience Sharing Conference," so I thought I'd give it a try. Why don't I write about it so fellow practitioners can appreciate Master's grand compassion and how fortunate we really are. But then I thought I did not do well in this aspect. What if, after I wrote it, I could not do well with it?
Just when I was hesitating about whether to write or not, on the very same day, an extraordinary scenario appeared when I was doing the sitting meditation. On that day I went into tranquility very quickly. Then, I gradually entered a wonderful state - as if I was in cloud nine - a very comfortable feeling. I sat for over an hour and a half, and only felt a slight ache in both legs. It was unusually comfortable. I knew that it was Master encouraging me and pointing out to me in the maze to give up the notion that, "It is difficult to clarify the truth." This experience gave me the strength to stand up and go forward, and encouraged me to write this article.
I could no longer ignore my task and I picked up the pen immediately. I carefully mulled over the differences in the way I clarified the truth on that one occasion and at other times. My first feeling was that I could not clarify the truth well with human attachments! In the past, every time I clarified the truth, I was always thinking about myself and had many misgivings. Can I do it well? Will the person accept it? What kind of attitude does he/she have? What will I do if I cannot provide answers to the questions he/she might raise? I had all kinds of doubts. Consequently, each time the outcome was not good. But that one time I did not have any mental preparation or any human attachments interfering with me. Therefore the result was beyond expectations. Just as Master said:
"Don't use human notions to judge the Fa-rectification or the form in which Dafa disciples cultivate, and don't always prolong the process of improving your understanding due to your human thoughts. You are people walking the path to godhood, and every single attachment will hinder you." ("New Year's Greetings")
The second point is that I must work harder on my thinking and clearly recognize its serious nature. I must not slack off for a moment from the thought that "I am a Dafa practitioner saving people." Third, I must not forget to cleanse the evil elements in my own dimensional space and in other dimensions that are interfering with sentient beings' learning the truth. Finally, and certainly the most important, we need to study the Fa more and better, so that our thoughts can melt into the Fa. In this way the results of our truth-clarification efforts will be much better.
What I have done thus far has been minimal, but I have renewed confidence and strength that comes from Master's encouragement and Master's grand mercy. I will double my efforts and diligently study the Fa. I will study the Fa well, constantly cultivating away the barriers created by all kinds of human attachments, and I will eliminate the notion that "It is difficult to clarify the truth" from my dimensional field. I will change my thoughts when I feel that "nothing is going well," and accomplish the Fa-rectification Dafa practitioners' mission to save sentient beings.
November 17, 2005
