(Clearwisdom.net) I want to share with fellow practitioners how I cleared away all the obstacles to access the Minghui/Clearwisdom website. Sitting in front of the computer now, I can just double-click to easily and conveniently connect to the website. I can read Master's new articles, download files and read other practitioners' experience-sharing articles or papers. Although it is a surface thing, I feel like I am part of the whole body when I can easily access Minghui. I do not have to wait for my mom anymore to send me Master's new articles from my hometown thousands of miles away. Furthermore, since I have regular contact with the Dafa website, I cannot be easily dragged into the everyday human world any more. However, all of this was impossible for me even a few months ago.
I started to cultivate Dafa in March or April 1999. Not long after I could feel that the "winds and rains would come in a short time." I needed to take the university entrance exam in July that year, so at that time I only studied the Fa by myself and thought that I would join the group exercises and Fa-study after the exam. After I finished the exam though, "July 20th" arrived and the persecution of Falun Gong had begun. Consequently, except for some relatives, I did not know any other practitioners, nor did I come across any other practitioners during the time that I was practicing Falun Gong at the university.
Now I understand that this was not the path Master arranged for me. Master has arranged for us to do the exercises and study the Fa together so that we can share our cultivation experiences and improve together. It is the old forces that separated me from other practitioners. I can deeply feel how adverse an environment can be when one has to practice cultivation on one's own for a long time. For me it was especially hard during the first few years, when I was only able to read Master's new articles when I went home for holidays or when they were emailed to me. I had no access to truth-clarifying materials on my own and nobody to share cultivation experiences with. The only truth-clarifying materials I had were those I brought from back home or some handwritten ones I made myself.
I was trapped unwittingly in ordinary people's society and only gained a better understanding after falling down. I was taking slow and difficult steps in my cultivation. Thanks to the fact that I have been quite attentive to Fa-study, I have been able to come through under the protection of our benevolent Master and Dafa. I have been able to pick myself up after numerous falls and to break through several life and death tests. Now I understand that if I had been able to be with even just one other practitioner, my experience would not have been so difficult. I know that many practitioners who were previously in environments similar to mine are now able to access the Minghui website as well. We have truly formed a whole body in the human world. This fact itself is a manifestation of all of us eliminating the old forces' interference.
Last year I came to this new city for graduate studies and I still did not meet any other practitioners. I bought a computer, but I felt that accessing the Minghui website at that time was something extremely difficult. Also, I did not know much about how to operate the computer, so I rarely thought about accessing the website on my own. Actually, it was the attachment of fear that made me think it was impossible to access the Minghui website. Not long after, my cousin (also a practitioner-graduated from university the same year as I did) and I met two other practitioners at work in Beijing, and these practitioners could access the Minghui website. This put an end to our isolation. For a while afterwards I received Master's new articles and other information via email from my cousin. My cousin did not access the website either, so he did not teach me how to get to the website. I still thought that using the Internet was a very hard thing. The attachment of fear stopped me from accessing the website myself. Then I went back home during winter vacation. Many of my relatives are practitioners, so we often share understandings and experiences together. All of this helped me to improve my righteous thoughts. I realized that as a Dafa practitioner, I should log onto the Minghui website if possible. Once I said to my mom, "This time when I get back to school, I will access the Minghui website."
I did not know how to access the website and I still had some fear, so I was not very confident when I said this. Still, I did have this righteous thought at the time. After the vacation my righteous thoughts eventually weakened. I still had fear. When I became busier with my studies, the idea of accessing the Minghui website was again put aside. Once, while I was chatting with my cousin on the Internet, I asked about some issues that should not concern any Dafa practitioners. He felt that I was not being diligent in cultivation and frankly pointed out my attachments. I felt very upset at the time. My mom also reminded me, saying I became "big-headed" after I was accepted as a graduate student and developed many attachments, and that I was falling behind in the Fa-rectification process. I thought about this for several days and felt quite ashamed and sad. I made up my mind that I would be more diligent. I called a practitioner in Beijing and asked how to get access to the Minghui website. I was told that I could use special software to access it. I recalled that I had actually received the software as an e-mail attachment before, but because I had strong fear in my mind at that time, after turning it over in my mind again and again whether I should try it out, I thought I'd better not, thinking it would be so dangerous. I still thought it was better to get the new articles and information from my cousin.
Once, a new article was published on the Minghui website that my cousin told me he had already read on the Internet. He did not send me the article via email, and I was embarrassed to ask him for it. I felt that it's time I break through all the obstacles to view the Minghui website myself. I felt I could no longer use the excuse that the local net could not link to the overseas Internet sites. I thought: "How have we gotten Master's new articles for the last six years? It was because other practitioners let go of human attachments and made enormous sacrifices. Why is it that I only want to take without giving?" I decided that I must let go of all attachments, access the website, and truly conduct myself according to Dafa's standards for disciples.
That morning I got up very early and found an Internet bar. There were very few people there at the time. I switched on a computer and opened the software from my email. Straight away there appeared several IP servers and an orange-colored webpage. I linked to Minghui.net according to the instructions given to me by my fellow practitioners. When I saw "Falun Dafa" my eyes became wet. From that moment on I experienced a new start in cultivation. The period of time that I was sealed off by the old forces was over and I could access the Minghui website!
In retrospect, accessing the website was not that difficult. The Fa-rectification progress has already made the environment quite relaxed. We also have such good software, so it is quite easy and safe to access the website. Like many things in our cultivation, very often the things themselves are not that difficult to accomplish; what makes them difficult is that we hesitate to let go of our human attachments. When we can let go of the attachments, obstacles and interferences become nothing.
Now I also use overseas secure email to subscribe to Minghui articles each day, and to download audio and video materials. The days when I was in isolation have truly come to an end. Although there are still no other practitioners around me, the fact that I can get information from the website makes me feel that I'm with many practitioners all the time. This experience made me understand that as long as we firmly cultivate ourselves, we can do away with all attachments. Fear and interference are all false appearances and are only temporary. From the eternal historical perspective, isn't the persecution we have suffered for the last few years also temporary interference? As long as we hold on to our faith in Master and the Fa, firmly cultivate ourselves and do well the three things Master has asked us to, we will be able to break through all obstacles during this historic period of time. The persecution arranged by the old forces is nothing and we do not even need to think about it. Master's Fa-rectification, our cultivation and the salvation of sentient beings, which is all guided by Master, bear the greatest and eternal significance.
Since I gained access to the Minghui website, there have been great changes in myself and in the environment around me. The evil can no longer easily interfere with me in various aspects. In the past when I did not have access to the website, in certain ways I was often trapped in the ordinary people's mentality and could not get out of it for a long time; I did not feel peaceful inside and experienced physical discomfort, particularly in my head. It felt like I had an "air hat" on all day long, making me very uncomfortable. After initially accessing the Minghui website, whenever I read it, I would hear some cracking sounds in my head, and then the "air hat" would disappear. I felt very calm and kept steady righteous thoughts. It is very hard to describe in a few words the wonderful feelings I experienced. Now all the unhealthy phenomena I had in the past has largely disappeared and been forgotten. I have become used to this wonderful state of mind.
I have experienced some very good effects from downloading the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party and other truth-clarifying materials. My attachment of fear has become less and less. By studying Master's new article "The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be," my human notions have also become less. In the past I used to be afraid to clarify the truth and persuade people to quit the Communist Party face to face; but now, most of the time I'm in a state of mind that I must clarify the truth at all times. The effect of my truth clarification efforts at the moment are still not very good, as I still have some fear. I shall do away with the obstacles in the same way that I broke through obstacles to access the Minghui website. I believe that as long as I steadily do well the three things Master has required us to do, and steadily walk well the path Master has arranged for me, I will break through any obstacles and be worthy of Master's benevolent salvation.
Now I understand that Master has given me the best of all things, and yet I still have not done well in many ways, especially in the area of clarifying the truth. Through the Second Mainland China Internet Experience Sharing I have discovered where I have fallen short. I will catch up with fellow practitioners in a timely manner.
October 29, 2005
