(Clearwisdom.net) For some time, daily trivia and qing have caused me to become a little depressed. My Fa-study time was often occupied with other things, and my truth clarification work was postponed again and again. Subconsciously, I felt I had done a lot of Dafa work already and could relax a bit. I began to do less and less, until finally, I stopped doing any Dafa work for a long time.
Upon reading Teacher's new article "The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be," and grasping the merciful edification of our Teacher, I looked at my own behavior and felt very ashamed. Compared with those diligent practitioners, am I still a cultivator? How many of my thoughts are on Dafa work, compared with ordinary people's issues? Why can I always find excuses for not being diligent? Is it because my faith is lacking, or have I been taken advantage of by the evil? It is so difficult for a person to step out of human notions. We can always find some reason for our negligence. As Teacher pointed out: it is caused by the attachment to the time of Fa rectification and incorrect post-natal concepts, thinking, "now is the final stage of Fa rectification and I can take it easy. I have done a lot of things for Dafa and I feel entitled to a break." Teacher has been telling us that as Dafa disciples during the Fa rectification, it is not enough to disentangle ourselves, we have an important duty. Sentient beings have expectations of us, and are waiting to be saved. Now we have a very good environment to tell people the truth of Dafa, isn't it our duty to save more people? What reason do we have to waste our time in despondency and not step out of human attachment?
Teacher said in "The Closer to the End, the More Diligent You Should Be,"
"the cultivators of the past didn't dare to slack off for even a second, and that was when it took an entire lifetime to complete the journey. So how can Dafa disciples--who are to achieve the Attainment Status of a being who is saved by Dafa and who have the most convenient cultivation way--not be even more diligent when they are given this most glorious honor of Fa-validating cultivation in a brief cultivation period that passes in the blink of an eye?"
Now I understand Teacher's immense grace and I know my direction in the future.
October 14, 2005
