(Clearwisdom.net) Before, when I was clarifying the truth to Chinese people in Mainland China through the Internet, I had not been sure of their mentality. What I had been doing was just posting all the clarifying-truth materials on the net, but not caring if they would read them and so it appeared that I was fulfilling a task.
After a period of time, I realized what kind of attachments I had which should be released. I also tried making phone calls but had never been really involved since in most cases when I called they usually hung up or cursed at me. Then, I didn't take this as an opportunity to improve myself. On the contrary, my common people's mentality rose up. I regarded it as a setback and made up a pretext that I had other clarifying-truth jobs to do to cover up my attachment of not having the courage to pick up the phone to clarify the truth. By acting in this manner, I had lost time due to my hesitation and fear. Then, when I did make an attempt, I could not pick up the phone as if the phone were very heavy.
On one Saturday, my younger sister and I went to Hangnan to study the Falun Dafa principles with others. Clarifying the truth over the phone was the main topic in practitioner's experience sharing. After attending experience sharing meetings, several times, I was touched by my fellow practitioners' experiences and wanted to make phone calls to clarify the truth because I understood what I should do and found my attachments and improved my mentality.
Several days ago, I made a call to a girl in China, who hung up in the middle of my talk. Thinking it over, I decided to try one more time. I called her again. Unexpectedly, she said, "What do you want to say? Just say it." Then, I quickly told her the facts of the persecution against Falun Dafa while she, to her credit, didn't hang up the phone until I finished expressing my points.
In deed I was very nervous whenever I was about to make a call. Whenever I made a call, I would ask myself, "Why should I make this call?" Now, I only have a single idea: "saving people." This idea is deeply rooted in my mind. After sending forth righteous thoughts anytime, the idea of "saving people" has become firmer and more decisive, with no impure element in my mind, and everything seems so clear and clean. I completely understood what I should do.
Even so, I had been nervous in making phone calls. In explaining the facts to people, I might lose my concentration or not be able to clearly express myself due to nervousness. In those cases, I would type some notes on a sheet of paper to help me remember all the points I wanted to clarify on the call, and read them to the person on the other end. I explained that that Jiang has been sued in the United States, Falun Gong has been spread widely outside China, Falun Gong practitioners in China have been persecuted, all of us outside China know it and I am bringing you the news over phone, hoping you will understand it.
As I can recall, whenever I was calm and confident about my phone calls, most of my calls were not hung up on and most people on the other side were patient enough to listen to me until I finished my explanation. Then, I thought that Teacher really helped me. He knew that "being nervous" was a big obstacle for me and kept encouraging me whenever I was planning to make a call to tell the truth. As long as my kind compassion came up and I was eager to clarify the truth to those precious Chinese people, Teacher would always help me. Teacher told us,
"The evil has now been destroyed in massive amount, and it looks like the evil ones can no longer run wild." (Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Atlanta Fa Conference).
Now I can really feel more relaxed and find the situation easier in making phone calls, and clarifying the truth over phone is really the most convenient and direct way.