(Clearwisdom.net)
(Editors' note: this article was written by a practitioner with only middle school education. Her husband is also a Dafa practitioner. Their two year old child was born while they were homeless in order to avoid further persecution. This couple grew up in the countryside and did not know anything about computers. In order to save people, however, they overcame a lot of obstacles and learned how to operate a computer. They download Teacher's articles frequently, as well articles from Minghui.net and distribute them to practitioners and everyday people so they may know the facts about Falun Dafa.)
Prior to the persecution of Falun Dafa in China I did not know how to operate a computer, and I often envied those people who could type very fast and proficiently. However, due to the needs of Fa-rectification, I learned to use a computer and to type; my typing though is extremely slow. [typing in Chinese is very different from typing in English. The person must first type in the phonetic spelling of Chinese in order to generate the proper Chinese character on the screen, then must go back and proofread extensively.]
Due to the international lawsuits against Jiang Zemin for the crime of genocide, there were a lot of cases of persecution which needed to be compiled. To aid in this endeavor practitioners around the world have been recording their experiences and the details about the location and how they were persecuted in order to expose these crimes. All of this information needed to be put into computers and organized so it could then be accessed by other practitioners via the internet.
My role was to type up these cases so that on the day of the court hearing all the information was readily accessible. However as the hearing date drew near the pile of materials was still very large due to my inability to type very quickly. As I looked at the huge pile of practitioners' testimonies, I started to feel frustrated and I just wanted to finish the typing as soon as possible. I edited out some sentences that I thought were not important. Later, I emailed the completed files to another practitioner. I received a response informing me that it was important to copy all the persecution cases exactly as they were written and not edit any sentences. I realized that this was Teacher's hint to me and I needed to treat Dafa's work more sincerely and strictly. However, at that moment, I really did not look inside myself to find out the root of the problem.
After Teacher's comments on the article entitled "Expose the Evil Happening Locally to the Local People" was published, practitioners strictly followed Teacher's comments and started writing out their stories about how they were persecuted in their hometowns by local people who followed Jiang's persecution policy against Falun Gong. While I was typing their stories, I still had an attachment of frustration and tried to finish the typing quickly. However, I discovered this attachment very quickly and decided to get rid of it and in the process of doing so, many other attachments I had were exposed.
Because I was responsible for taking care of a two year old child, doing the housework, and balancing the three things practitioners should do well, (which are to study the Fa well, send forth righteous thoughts and clarify the truth to the public) I always felt that I did not have enough time and was very tired, failing to look at the problem from the Fa's standpoint. When I saw unclear handwriting, grammatically incorrect sentences or marked error locations, all these caused me to type even more slowly, and then I would start to complain again. I remembered one overseas practitioner said that every time she talked about the persecution of her family, her heart was bleeding, but she still needed to speak out about it. For each individual practitioner, I think when they recalled the brutal persecution that they had gone through, it was very difficult for them to describe or express their experiences and the hardship they suffered. However, I did not use a compassionate heart to understand their hardship. Instead, I complained that their writing was sloppy and that it affected my typing speed and wasted my time. It was all based on my selfish point of view and my own self-interest. The fundamental point was that I had a very selfish heart. These practitioners had dared to risk their lives to determinedly expose the evil acts and validate the Fa. Yet I was complaining because I had to type a bit longer. Every word these practitioners say and every move these practitioners make during the Fa-rectification period could reveal the battle between righteousness and evil in other dimensions. Now when I think back on this problem it looked very simple, but it exposed some of my attachments that I should have gotten rid of a long time ago. As Teacher said,
"If you are able to succeed in improving yourself this way, what you do then, with a pure heart, will be the best and most sacred." ("Further Understanding" from Essentials for Further Advancement)
Thus, we should never forget to cultivate ourselves while volunteering for Dafa and strictly use the Falun Dafa principles to set a standard for ourselves.
Several times I wanted to write down my experiences but I changed my mind. I let myself think that I already understood this problem's root cause and that it was a very trivial thing. However, when I looked at it from the viewpoint of the Fa, I realized that it was again those deviated substances trying to prevent me from writing down my experience. I also realized that in the process of writing, I was also rejecting and eliminating those deviated substances. As they were afraid of being eliminated, they formed all kinds of reasons in my mind to stop me from eliminating them.
