August 12, 2003
(Clearwisdom.net) I fortunately began cultivation in Dafa in December of 1995. In my seven years of cultivation, with fellow practitioners, I had gone through the tests of "April 25th" [Zhongnanhai peaceful appeal] and "July 20th" [onset of the persecution]. My cultivation mindset is becoming more and more persistent, and in the process of Dafa cultivation, I found a partner who would walk the path together with me.
Under the evil suppression of Falun Gong everywhere in Mainland China, other practitioners, my husband and I have created a Dafa truth-clarifying materials production site. Because of our "family style" operation, when we encountered conflicts, we often discussed and resolved them from the perspective of the Fa. Even though there were tests and tribulations for us to upgrade our xinxing [moral character, heart or mind nature], they were all worked out eventually. Things had been going very well until September 2002, when my husband's work unit tried to arrest my husband and his practitioner coworker . My husband's coworker is part of a four-member family who are all practitioners. They were all arrested and my husband was forced to leave home to avoid arrest. I was pregnant at that time, but we did not forget our mission to clarify the truth about Dafa and save sentient beings.
My husband was arrested before the child was one month old. When I heard the news, the only thought I had was telling him one phrase, "Righteous mind and righteous acts." Soon, I heard that my husband was interrogated for four days and four nights, deprived of sleep and tortured, but he was still very firm in his belief in Dafa. In the letter my husband wrote, I read, "they attempted to force me to write the 'guarantee statement'* to give up cultivation in Dafa. I couldn't write it! Father and mother: please forgive me. I will not stay here for too long. I will go home soon. This is not the place I should be in." I was so proud of my husband's steadfast and firm heart for Dafa, like a diamond.
Soon after, I was forced to leave home to avoid the persecution, with my baby. Some time later I went back home to visit my parents, and I was arrested. When the police interrogated me, I kept sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the attachment of fear and the evil substances in other dimensions. My heart gradually calmed down. I looked them in the eyes with a smile on my face. My righteous mind and actions made them run out of ideas, and I finally walked out the police station! I had only one thought on my mind then: only the Fa can lead us out of difficult situations. Later on I learned that my father, who is also a practitioner, was detained in a district detention center and sentenced to forced labor.
After my relatives learned about our situation they came to visit me and tried to persuade me to give up cultivation. I used this opportunity to clarify the truth to them. I spoke to them from the perspective of human rights, about the persecution, freedom of belief, and told them of Dafa's spreading around the world, of the Chinese government concocting false news.
Soon after, four policemen knocked on my door. I kept sending forth-righteous thoughts, eliminating the evil, and the evil vanished by itself. In order to avoid the persecution, I took my child and left home to become homeless again. This time I heard my husband was sentenced to from seven to ten years of imprisonment.
My parents-in-law who don't cultivate started to ask me for the papers to our apartment title and for some valuable things at my home. In the beginning, I felt their behavior to be unfair. After I calmed down I studied the Fa and read the book, to understand this situation from the perspective of the Fa. One saying from Master, "let go of fame, interest, and sentiment, reach consummation and go up to heaven," ("Reaching Consummation" from Hong Yin) woke me up. Suddenly I realized that I had not let go of material interests. My distress was an emotion that I was afraid to lose everything, and if I don't let go of my pursuit of "fame, interest and sentiment," how could I reach consummation? I felt ashamed at that moment to call myself a cultivator, although I have cultivated for so long. After I became aware of this insight, I gave the things my parents-in-law wanted to them unconditionally. Later I realized this is a persecution that the old forces arranged, to use the excuse of "testing practitioner's individual cultivation." After going through the difficult past year, I truly feel that whenever tests or tribulations take place, only our "righteous minds" can direct us to the righteous path. We should do well to be worthy of Master's compassionate salvation.
When I had just planned to write down the above experiences, how I was persecuted, the evil took advantage of a loophole: my "slacking" and laziness. I never had a stomachache before, but suddenly my stomach started to hurt. It was so painful that I had difficulty breathing and I was sweating. I was vomiting and had diarrhea, could not sleep; could not pick up a pen to write. I knew that this was not right and started to look for the reason, but I was always looking outside myself. After two days and two nights, I finally found the cause for my laziness that caused all these bad results. I sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the bad thinking and thoughts in my mind. Gradually my stomach stopped hurting and I finished this article.
The above are my personal experiences and understandings. If there is anything that' s not appropriate, please pointed it out and correct me.
