Maturing in Dafa Cultivation
I was lucky to discover Falun Dafa when I was 27 years old in the summer of 1997. I finally found what I had been looking for while I was just starting to understand things. To return to one's true nature is the real purpose of being human. My children and I have since said good-bye to medicine and hospitals. I read Zhuan Falun earnestly and embarked on a new page of my life's journey.
When the persecution of Falun Gong in China began on July 20, 1999, four fellow practitioners and I went to Tiananmen Square and the Appeals Office, where the streets were tightly controlled with police cars all over. Police guards were stationed at major entrances and they would only let you pass after you answered the question of whether or not you practiced Falun Gong. Many Falun Dafa practitioners were thrown into police vans to be sent to Shijingshan, Guangcai Stadium, etc. In the police van, the practitioners would recite Teacher's poetry collection Hong Yin in unison. I was not arrested that time. After I went back home, I saw TV programming that defamed Teacher and Dafa. Tears ran down my cheeks non-stop. Why was such a great system of cultivation being persecuted? Falun Gong teaches people to be good and improves their health. Where was the problem? I started to clarify truth to my neighbors and co-workers, most of whom were very supportive of Falun Gong.
I never faltered in my determination of practicing Dafa while I studied the Fa and did the exercises by myself at home, and I clarified the truth to people around me whenever I had the chance. Only at the end of the year 2000, did I finally get in touch with a fellow practitioner who provided Teacher's articles like "Towards Consummation", etc. I was like a lost child who finally found the way home. I said to Teacher in my heart: "Teacher, I lagged behind in cultivation; but now I know how to do things better." After that, I received truth clarification materials from that practitioner, including text documents, photos, tapes, etc. and was fulfilling my duty in assisting Teacher in Fa-rectification, in and out of Beijing's streets and lanes. Those that did not know the truth of Falun Gong often noticed my activity and wanted to report me to the "110 hotline"; but I safely escaped with my righteous thoughts. In May of 2001, on the eve of the 100th anniversary of Qinghua University, a dozen fellow practitioners and I went to Qinghua University. We distributed about one thousand truth clarification flyers to help save those teachers and students who had no access to truthful information, and at the same time efficiently deterred the Head Evil (Jiang was at Qinghua University attending the Centenary celebration). Afterwards, we all left safely. Later we went to Tiananmen Square to give out "Self-immolation" analysis and other truth clarifying flyers to tourists. Falun Dafa practitioners around me often shouted, "Falun Dafa is good!" "Give back our Teacher's good reputation!" and were dragged away by police agents. I told nearby tourists, "You all witnessed this with your own eyes; this is the striking contrast between Compassion and Evil!" I had "Falun Dafa is good" and "Zhen-Shan-Ren (Truth-Compassion-Forbearance)" color stickers that I put on light poles and display boards.
To help with Fa-rectification, another practitioner and I organized Dafa materials sites, mainly for printing hongfa photos (including the Truth of Self-immolation, Dafa Spreading Worldwide, etc.). Those photos and splendid bookmarks were distributed to Dafa disciples, who passed them on to those with predestined relationships. However, the evil's persecution of Falun Dafa disciples and the sabotage of the Materials sites never stopped. We suffered a huge loss, as practitioners were arrested one group after another, and many sites were sabotaged.
I felt pain whenever the smiling faces of those who had disappeared came to mind. I was even depressed for some time. Why don't they stay together with family members like ordinary people and enjoy their lives? It is their duty to save people and the boundless power of the Buddha Fa that inspires Falun Dafa disciples to give up their comfortable family lives and careers and suffer a forced homeless life for the wonderful future of worldly people! I always felt that all Dafa disciples are truly one body. An omission in any of us could result in the evil forces' taking advantage of us.
I know that we still are going to have difficulties to overcome. Although we lack in finances and equipment, we will still continue to strive forward, because we are maturing in Dafa cultivation!