(Clearwisdom.net)
In the past, I suffered numerous ailments, such as intestinal cancer and ulcers. Each year I spent a large sum of money but my health did not improve. After I started practicing Falun Gong in 1998, the illnesses that accompanied me for more than 30 years disappeared and I experienced the happiness of being truly healthy. But Jiang's regime started their persecution of the great Buddha Fa from July 20, 1999. Because of my less than thorough and inadequate study of the Fa, afraid of losing my job, I started to have second thoughts about practicing Falun Dafa. In November 2000, under the coercion of the local police, I signed a so-called "Repentance Statement" drafted by the "610 Office" [an agency specifically created to persecute Falun Gong, with absolute power over each level of administration in the Party and all other political and judiciary systems], and separated myself from Dafa.
After I departed from Dafa, all the ailments reappeared in me, and there were a lot of family problems. My younger sister continued practicing Dafa steadfastly, and called me many times to encourage me to return to the path of cultivation.
The local assistant also emphasized to me that the opportunity to practice Dafa was indeed rare and extraordinary, and should not be taken for granted. But I was not swayed. One day I inadvertently ran across some Falun Dafa cassette tapes in my home. I was overjoyed to learn that the opportunity and good fortune to practice Falun Dafa was still waiting for me. I immediately told my sister that I wanted to practice again. She quickly brought Dafa books and new articles to me, asking me to cherish them this time. I started practicing again. I studied the Fa diligently, sent forth righteous thoughts, clarified the truth and followed the pace of Teacher's Fa rectification. At the same time, I demanded diligence of myself so that I could catch up the valuable time that I had lost and to remove omissions in my own cultivation.
Just half a month after I started cultivation again, I saw my mom in a dream. She disappeared after saying, "You must ask for Teacher's forgiveness." I mentioned my dream to my sister and she told me, "You should follow what mom said and do it." While looking at Teacher's picture, I expressed my sorrow and repentance from deep inside my heart. I vowed that I would resolutely practice Dafa and strive to be a qualified Dafa practitioner.
I had another dream later on: I dreamed that a huge slab of stone that trapped me inside a well opened. I regained my freedom. After I woke up, I realized that compassionate Teacher forgave me. Teacher's compassion is vast and boundless. Whenever I suffered doubt running up against obstacles, Teacher would always warn me in my dreams. I felt so ashamed of myself with Teacher's constant caring about me. My tears could not stop running whenever I faced Teacher's portrait.
I will never let go of Dafa, and I will never let go of this exceptionally rare cultivation opportunity. I told my wife and children that they should all return to the course of cultivation. I will not waste even a second when it comes to studying the Fa, clarifying the truth and sending forth righteous thoughts.
I solemnly declare that the "Guarantee Statement not to practice" that I wrote under the coercion of village officials, as well as my signature on the "Repentance Statement" at the "610 Office" are null and void. I will again cultivate Falun Dafa and follow Teacher closely in the Fa rectification.
Heshi [a greeting of respect, pressing both palms together in front of the chest] Please accept my sincere gratitude for Teacher taking me back to the course of the journey returning home.
