4/12/2003
(Clearwisdom.net) I am an elderly police officer. During the growth of Falun Dafa I had also joined other practitioners in group study and exercises. In July 1999, dictator Jiang started the persecution of Dafa practitioners, and at the time I became the one in charge of the Falun Gong issues. Facing a test between taking a righteous or evil path, I was confused about what to do, which resulted in me stopping my cultivation practice.
During the high point of the persecution of Dafa, many practitioners let go of their thoughts of life and death, resisting the persecution with their righteous thoughts and actions. Again, this awakened me from the pursuit of fame, profit and giving in to emotion. Dafa practitioners' strong righteous belief impressed me very much, and also made me ashamed of myself.
Teacher wrote,
"These people who only want to take from Dafa and not give for Dafa are, in the eyes of Gods, the worst beings." ("A Suggestion")
I finally came to my senses. I would never assist in crimes again! Furthermore, I would expose the evil persecution of Falun Gong, and I would again enter cultivation in an honorable and upright manner. At that time my family criticized me; friends and relatives didn't understand me; colleagues mocked me; people in society looked at me with scornful eyes, and the higher authorities threatened me. But I was not afraid of anything. I talked with the people around me openly about how profound Falun Dafa is. Because of that my job was changed, and I was more clear about Jiang's regime using the cruelest means to persecute Falun Gong practitioners. This gave me a more clear understanding of the persecution against Dafa and practitioners, and gave me a firm trust in Teacher and in Dafa.
I had one fear after another. I was afraid that I was not fit for Teacher to care for me, afraid that the other practitioners wouldn't understand, and that I was not fast enough to follow the Fa-rectification, as well as other worries. Just when I was wondering, wanting to jump over the hurdles of my fear and in pain for not being able to pull myself back up, it was then Teacher helped me. In a dream Teacher showed me and let me understand that it's not the end to go off track, as long as you climb back up. Other practitioners gave me Teacher's recent articles to read and encouraged me to follow the Fa-rectification. I finally found Teacher; I found fellow practitioners; I found myself and I have found the road "back home." From then on, the feeling of wanting to go with Dafa but still doubting with an unsettled heart was completely gone.
Teacher had said, "Like I said a long time ago: whoever attacks goodness is definitely evil." ("Teaching the Fa at the 2002 Fa Conference in Philadelphia, U.S.A") I told everyone that I am a Dafa practitioner. My boss, colleagues and people around me all tried to avoid me, not wanting to get in trouble, so I took the initiative and reached out to them and even some higher officials. Face to face I told them that Falun Dafa is good, and about the suspicions surrounding the findings in the Tiananmen Square "Self-immolation" incident. During this era of truth clarification I took the Fa principles as my Teacher, exposed the evil and validated Dafa. This has impressed many people. They all said, "Dafa is good; if you want to practice it at home then just go ahead, we don't care." "Falun Gong practitioners are all good people, we don't want to detain good people." Through clarifying the truth, people around me all came to me of their own initiative and asked to learn about Dafa, and wanted to read Dafa books. I showed them Zhuan Falun and some of the Teacher's recent articles. One elderly police officer said after he finished reading Zhuan Falun, "This is really the Truth!"
Once, the police department planed to hunt down practitioners. I immediately notified fellow practitioners to send forth righteous thoughts, to resist the persecution. As it turned out, that hunt was cancelled. During the times considered to be "sensitive dates," the authorities tried to capture practitioners at the same time. My son, also a police officer, had to carry out the higher authorities' orders to capture a practitioner. I criticized him. My son said uneasily, "I don't want to capture practitioners, either. It is the higher authorities' orders; nothing can be done to prevent it." I calmly explained the idea of treating Dafa practitioners kindly. Afterwards, my son understood all of what I had said. Now he has also become a Falun Dafa supporter.
Other than that, I also told my relative who worked at an important post, "Do not listen to the evil people's lies! Do not cooperate and persecute Dafa practitioners in this workplace." In order to bring a just environment back to Dafa and to advocate justice for practitioners who are being persecuted, frequently I write my experiences and other materials to the regional, provincial and even central government to validate Dafa, expose their evildoings and at the same time rescue human beings. I use my special position to visit the illegally detained and jailed practitioners and gave them Teacher's recent articles. With Buddha's immense and far-reaching grace, I returned to cultivation. Teacher's compassion helped me to once again step back on the path of "returning home."
