(Clearwisdom.net) For a while, I found it difficult to read the torture reports regarding Dafa disciples posted on Clearwisdom.net with attention. I read some other practitioners' experiences where they wrote that they had read so many that they felt a bit apathetic after a while. In my case, I was too upset to read the torture reports, and at the same time they also tended to stir up my leftover demonic mentality of violence. I have been fighting it off and while rejecting it, I kept sending forth righteous thoughts to help the persecuted practitioners and to make those evil persecutors receive their retribution. However, gradually I found reading Clearwisdom.net in this way exhausting, so I chose to read other reports first, leaving the torture reports last. Over time, I would only take a brief glance at those reports. On the surface, I was not much different from those everyday people who are indifferent towards the suffering of Dafa practitioners. In addition, I did not read those "solemn declarations" carefully, and it was for the same reason -- I found them too upsetting to read, too. There was also a hidden mentality - I felt that they had nothing to do with me.
After reading Master's recent articles, I became awakened, feeling extremely ashamed of my earlier indifference towards the practitioners suffering persecution. What I did was none other than pursuing temporary mental comfort, clinging to attachments, and being taken advantage of so that I could not be part of the indestructible unified body formed by all Dafa disciples!
I now see the root cause for this way of thinking, and in fact any human mentality and thoughts straying away from Fa-rectification will lead one to exhaustion. To be truly indestructible like a diamond requires one to act completely in accordance to the Fa. If I had been able to eliminate the evil with strong righteous thoughts, I would not have avoided reading the torture reports. It was due to my weak main consciousness and unsteadiness in eliminating the evil.
I have also corrected and renewed my attitude toward "solemn declarations." All those brutal beatings, tortures and deceptions are aimed to force Dafa practitioners to depart from the Fa. "Solemn declarations" therefore provide an environment to break away from the evil in oneself and to expose the evil persecution. At the same time, I can draw lessons from those practitioners who had been on a difficult path. Another important point is that, although I do not know these practitioners and will not have a chance to talk to them, I wholeheartedly welcome back these fellow practitioners with kindness and compassion cultivated in the Fa. I also send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate those evil old forces and thugs who persecuted practitioners and who are still persecuting Dafa.
I have made a decision - when reading articles from Clearwisdom.net, I will abandon my former mentality of reading them as if reading a "newspaper." I will read them with righteous thoughts and compassion, determined to send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil. I will change from reading for my own satisfaction to treating it as a process of becoming one body with all Dafa practitioners across the world, and a process of selfless elevation through continuously absorbing the useful material and wisdom in order to better help people to know the truth.
Some practitioners, me included, intentionally or unintentionally pick their favorites when reading articles from Clearwisdom.net or Pureinsight.org. My view is that Clearwisdom.net and Pureinsight.org are precious places amidst the persecution for experience sharing and flow of information. Those fellow practitioners who engage themselves in Fa-rectification work, day and night, tried very hard to find time to write out these articles to share with others. There are also those fellow practitioners who risked their lives to send the persecution reports out of China. They wanted to, through their efforts as Dafa particles, help Dafa disciples across the world form a more compassionate and indestructible united body. If we treat Clearwsdom.net lightly as an everyday person's newspaper, then would it be any different from not listening attentively to other practitioners' experience sharing at a Fa conference? Aren't we sharing some common ground with those people in society who think Dafa practitioners' efforts in clarifying the truth are unnecessary? Also, let us think of those practitioners in jail, for whom one day feels like a year. We can now send forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil. If we let go of the evil in front of us, we are as bad as neglecting our duty. Only by studying the Fa well, by being familiar with the information on Clearwisdom.net can we do better in truth clarification and compassionately bring the wisdom bestowed to us by the Fa into full play. Think about it: if we ourselves do not truly care about the news of the persecution against practitioners in China and cannot purify ourselves at all times, then what sort of influence do we bring upon people when we clarify the truth to them?
Master said in "Lecture at the Conference in New Zealand," "I hope that all of you will sit quietly when listening to other peoples' presentations. To cherish others is to cherish yourself. This is because the Fa conference is holy and sacred, and you are cultivating the Dafa of the cosmos! " (Unofficial translation)
I have thus understood that we must read the articles from Clearwisdom.net and Pureinsight.org attentively, and measure whatever mentalities we have against the Fa. We must firmly clear out the evil factors we still possess and firmly eliminate all the evils that are damaging the Fa with righteous thoughts. In fact, when practitioners keep a very pure mind, we can do everything very quickly. Our efficiency is far superior to everyday people.
I hope that together with all practitioners, we will forge with the purest righteous thoughts an indestructible unified body on our path of Fa-rectification cultivation.
