28 January 2002
(Clearwisdom.net) Recently my mind was unable to calm down when doing the exercises, and I found myself always thinking about how to go out to validate the Fa and how to clarify the truth to people. In addition, I thought of other things while reading Dafa books. It went so far that when I read Dafa books, I could not keep from yawning. I realized that I was not in a correct state and that I should look within, but because I did not find the fundamental cause of the problem, nothing was resolved. When sharing this with other practitioners, I found they were experiencing similar problems to various degrees. Some suggested that it was due to the evil interference and could be eliminated by sending forth righteous thoughts, so I started to send forth righteous thoughts to clear out the interference. The result was that although the problems became less serious, they were still there. What was the real cause? I was still not clear.
After I studied Teacher's "Fa-Lecture at the Conference in Florida, U.S.A.," I felt that Teacher clearly pointed out the attitude problem I had towards Fa-study: "When your eyes read the Fa and yet your mind isn't on the Fa, think about it, aren't you reading in vain? Who are you reading for? You yourself aren't really studying the Fa, then. Haven't I told you to make sure that you yourself truly obtain gong? Then if your mind isn't on the Fa when you're studying the Fa, who are you studying it for? This isn't to criticize you--I'm just telling you that this is a really critical situation."
Straight away I saw the cause of my problems. I knew that every time when Teacher gave a Fa lecture, Teacher always told us to read the book and study the Fa more. I knew the importance of Fa-study and had treated it as a compulsory daily activity. I would extend the time for Fa-study every day, and gradually I began to see it as a task to accomplish. I considered the amount of time I spent reading each day as Fa study, and ignored whether or not I was understanding the Fa. When studying the Fa, my mind was set on doing other things, and I would pick up the book and read either to the time or the amount of pages I had set for Fa-study. While reading the book, my main consciousness was not focused and I was rather lax with myself. This omission was intensified and amplified by the evil. I failed to do what Teacher required, "So, no matter how busy you get, when you study the Fa you have to set aside all other thoughts--don't think about other things at all, just study the Fa." I realized that I was already unwittingly misled to a dangerous state, and separated from the Fa.
Teacher pointed out the serious consequences of my deviating from the Fa and taught me how to solve this problem. Dafa is a serious matter. How can we allow ourselves to study the Fa in such a careless and perfunctory manner?
We are cultivating in the process of Fa-rectification and continuously elevating towards the more microscopic. Why is it that we experience such a state in this period of time? And why is it so hard to break through? Through the study of Teacher's "Fa-Lecture at the Conference in Florida, U.S.A." I suddenly understood that our Fa-rectification cultivation was moving towards the more microscopic, and the more microscopic the matter, the more extensive its celestial scope--and the fundamental cause of our obstruction lies therein.
"...the evil in the dimensions that you are supposed to shoulder and be responsible for has not been eliminated. That's the cause." If the evils are not eliminated, they will persecute you and resist you. They were the cause of the state I was in and I must rectify them with the Fa. So I said with righteous thoughts, "I am a Fa-rectification disciple. The new universe is formed entirely with the principles of 'Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.' You are the more microscopic beings in my system, and my system is also a new system formed with the universal principles. The systems in the new universe must also be pure. If you refuse to assimilate to the universal principles and continue to interfere with my Fa-study and Fa-rectification, and if you refuse to change your existing concepts to assimilate to the characteristics of 'Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance' and refuse to recognize that the universal principles are the most righteous Fa, then I will not allow you to exist in my system. You have come a long way, and I have over and over again given you opportunities to improve your understanding. However, my forbearance has its limit and I must be responsible to the righteous factors in the universe. If you continue to stick to your wrong course, I will not violate the universal principles and act wrongly out of personal considerations. You have three options: 1. Be eliminated in Fa-rectification; 2. Reposition yourselves; 3. Assimilate to the Fa where you are. I do not wish you to take the first option and hope you will choose the third option--assimilating to the Fa where you are. I hope you will assist me in consummation and Fa-rectification rather than creating obstructions and hindering me from Fa-rectification in this human world." While I was sending forth this thought, I felt the cold, black microscopic matter in every pore in my body disappearing at a rapid speed, and my mind felt clear and calm.
I'm sharing this bit of my experience with everyone, which has also helped consolidate my clear understanding at the same time.