(Clearwisdom.net) The combination of the rapid progress of Fa-rectification and the publishing of Teacher's new articles one after another has caused many practitioners who went astray while detained in the forced labor camps to realize the errors of their ways and return to the mainstream of Fa-Rectification. This is all due to Teacher's great benevolence and the almighty virtue of Dafa. But many people are trapped by the human sentiments of remorse, despair, and a sense of inferiority. These kinds of feelings are left by the wayside on the way to cultivation. They also reflect a deficiency in Fa study. Those people are particularly in need of encouragement from fellow practitioners to help them improve under the guidance of the Fa. Although they were taken advantage of by the evil forces due to their attachments and went astray under the pressure, they have, under the inspiration of Teacher, come to realize their wrongdoings. They feel they didn't live up to Teacher's benevolence and arduous efforts to save them. Their biting remorse is beyond words. They long to exchange experiences with other practitioners, become aware of their attachments continue with their cultivation in Falun Dafa. Their only concerns are Fa rectification and cultivation.
I had that kind of experience, so I would like to share it with you.
I had been detained three times and in 2000 was sentenced to one year in a labor camp, where I was filled with unforgettable remorse. Though unwillingly, I took a step in the wrong direction and betrayed Dafa. After writing a guarantee to give up practicing Falun Dafa, I cried aloud. Under this gripping pressure, I passed days as if they were years. With my celestial eye, I used to see many beautiful things. Ever since I wrote the guarantee, all I saw in my celestial eye were demons and an endless desert, gloomy and devastated. All the wonderful things that I had accomplished in cultivation were gone. It was clearly a hint from Teacher that if I didn't correct what I did, I would be with the demons and have a miserable end.
Although I recited the Fa everyday while detained, I was disturbed by the brainwashing materials that we were forced to read and the slanderous video programs against Dafa and Teacher. Once I was able to quote text from Dafa but gradually the amount diminished. I realized that I shouldn't stay there any longer. A life like that was no different than death. I couldn't live on without Dafa. I had to get out. I had to study the Fa and start cultivation practice again.
Because I had that thought, I wrote the "guarantee letter," and was released, with regrets, after being detained for four months.
I went through feelings of remorse, inferiority, despair, depression, and awakening. But I am back on course with cultivation practice again--all because of the great benevolence of Teacher, the almighty virtue of Dafa, and encouragement from fellow practitioners.
In the summer of 2001, I was detained again. The police said, "This time, don't dream of getting out. You will be sentenced to three years in jail."
I said solemnly, "It's not up to you. The path of my cultivation is arranged by my Teacher." I believed I could get out in a week. In the detention center, I didn't follow the demands of the guards. On the second day, they called my name to take a picture of me. I didn't answer. Half an hour later, they called again. I thought they were going to interrogate me, so I went out. I saw many people standing in a line and the guards were handcuffing everyone. They were going to take pictures of them. A righteous thought occurred to me, "No. I won't allow it. I will go back to the cell." So I turned back. It was a long corridor. Every time a detainee goes into the corridor, he is escorted by a guard. But I just walked on my own. None of the 5 or 6 guards there said a word. At the door of the cell, a guard silently opened the door for me. From then on, nobody mentioned anything about taking pictures. The righteous thought had suffocated the evil. I realize that no matter what we are doing or what has happened, we should not use the human mindset. Send out a righteous thought and the result will turn out to be exactly what you want it to be. Teacher says, "...when a person's True Thoughts come forth, they are very powerful." ("Dafa Disciples' Righteous Thoughts are Powerful") Seven days later, I walked out of the detention center openly and with dignity. Teacher says, "The Fa can reveal all attachments, the Fa can eradicate all evils, the Fa can expose and dispel all lies, and the Fa can strengthen righteous thoughts." ("Deter Interference")
In order not to be arrested again, I didn't return home and am currently homeless. But I am participating in the Fa-rectification and doing what a Dafa practitioner ought to do.
Everything is witnessing the boundless virtue of Teacher and Dafa. Let's make progress together and assist Teacher with what we have accomplished in cultivation till the splendid moment comes when the Fa rectifies the human world.
The above is my experiences and understanding in cultivation. Please correct me if I am wrong.
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Written on December 7, 2001
