I have practiced Falun Dafa for many years. When I saw that Falun Dafa was still shadowed by dark clouds, I wanted to try my best to validate Dafa. The fact that Dafa was still in tribulation showed that we had not cultivated ourselves very well. In order to demonstrate Dafa to the world, I went to Tiananmen Square on April 25 and the scene on that day was quite different from usual, which might have been pre-destined. When I unfolded the banner of Falun Dafa to the common people, I felt myself being a gigantic figure. The banner fluttered in Tiananmen Square for over 20 minutes. Thus I happily fulfilled my wish.
Three days later, I was escorted back to the detention center of my hometown. I want to share with you some of the stories about the xinxing tests that I encountered. One day, at noontime, the prisoners including me were taken to parade through the streets. They said it was to interrogate me. When I walked out of the door, the scene in front of me shocked me. The courtyard was full of prisoners on the ground being tied up by police. A white board with a name and the accusation was hung on their chests. I was treated the same way. At that moment, I had righteous thoughts: do not be afraid; whatever happens will be helpful to improve my xinxing. It also reminded me of Jesus being nailed on a cross in those days. It would be my pleasure to be able to sacrifice myself for Dafa.
During the parade, I thought Falun Gong was innocent and I should not behave like a criminal. I saw all the other prisoner's heads were drooping. Since I stepped forward to validate Dafa, I held my head high and squared my shoulders smiling to the policeman who took pictures and the people. I meant to tell them Falun Gong is innocent.
Later I heard the police and prisoners in the detention center all talk about my attitude. A few policemen started to talk with me about Falun Gong. They all admired the reflection of Dafa on me. The prisoners in my cell had behaved badly, so some guards condemned them and said, You should learn from that Falun Gong person.
Dafa is innocent. When policemen escorted me to the detention center, I said: I will not go to a detention center. Dafa is innocent. It is the wrong decision of the central government that led us to go to appeal to the government. The police said: We only carry out orders. I thought: It is good for our cultivation. A true cultivator should be in this kind of environment. The police realized I plead not guilty and said: You can hire a lawyer. I said: I want to inform my family and hire a lawyer. Later my family found a lawyer who is also my relative. He attempted to save me from the perspective of ordinary people and helped the police to persuade me. He told me: You can write to the police a pledge saying that you will give up practicing Falun Gong. I can guarantee you will not be sentenced. I said: That is impossible. Our conversation lasted only 5-6 minutes. When he realized his goal could not be attained, he asked me: Do you need me to visit you again. I said: No. He felt he lost his face and left. The police nearby were quite surprised by my attitude. I knew this was the power of Dafa.
There was also one test of love for parents. My father came to visit me and told me that my mother's previous mental problems had worsened because of me. I felt a sharp pain in my heart on hearing the news. But I thought, I have already attained Dafa. If I can be devoted to Dafa, I shall not feel regret even if am sent to a labor camp. So I told my father: What I am doing now is not wrong. Please go home and take my mother to a hospital for medical treatment. The final result was that the sentence of sending me to a three year forced labor camp was not approved and I was unconditionally released after being detained for one month.
It is in this way that Dafa once again demonstrated to the world and my wish was fulfilled.
June 2000
