Experience Sharing

Good day everyone!

My name is Nicole Milot, married and mother of three children. I was born and raised on a farm, near the St-Maurice River, Ste-Flore Parish, near the town of Grand-M re. Right now my home is in Beauport, near Quebec City.

Before knowing the Great Law, I found the life on the earth very painful and difficult to live. I wanted to find a meaning to stay here, a purpose of the pains, of life and death. I read a lot about esoterism and spirituality, to find out at the end that it was always a repetition for so many years and I had had never the true answers.

My husband Norman and I had studied and practised many spiritual paths. Looking back, I realise that the Xinxing was not particularly taught ( i.e. mind-nature and moral qualities). Despite a lot of knowing, still I was looking for a spiritual path.

When I was in the presence of Falun Gong, it was the time for me to receive this unique teaching. Master Li Hongzhi says to us: (Chapter 1, page 4) "... The real purpose of being a human being is to return to the origin and go back to the truth. So once a person wants to cultivate himself, he is said to have revealed his Buddha nature. This thought is most valuable because he wants to return to the origin and go back to the truth, jumping out of the level of ordinary people."

First, I would like to say that before to know Falun Dafa, in 1996, while I was studying and practising another type of qigong, I felt an engine running below the navel. I perceived a movement, a vibration, a real noise that I could heard and feel, and that manifestation could be there during the day or the night. To those I talked about that, for them it was funny but were not able to explain it. It was at the same time, strong and soft, pleasant and disturbing, amazing. It was only after a few months after my introduce to The Teaching of Master Li Hongzhi, that I realise that it was the wheel of Falun Dafa in my belly. About this matter, in the Zhuan Falun it was written: (Chapter 1, page 40) " Falun is the miniature of the cosmos, having all the supernormal capabilities of the cosmos. It has the ability to turn round and rotate automatically. Once it is planted into your body, it will always rotate at your lower abdomen, and will rotate like this all the year round, and will never stop..."

August 1997, my husband Norman found on the Internet a website on Falun Dafa. The only first three chapters of Zhuan Falun were translated in French. As soon as I started to read, I realised that it was not an ordinary writing. I was not able to stop to read, I was reading slowly because the language was particular. It was like the translator was trying to find the right word. I left that I had to read beyond the words for a perfect answer to my questioning. I found purity, innocence and simplicity that seduced me.

Already at the first pages, I must go to the toilet for vomiting and diarrhoea. I closed my eyes for each vomiting and I saw white snakes, white weasels and small animals black, grey, and white to be thrown out of my mouth and from my intestine. I opened my eyes each time and I closed them again. It' the same scene. What is that? What's happening? I think it was a cleaning on another level that I used to be. But at that time, I didn't realise the relation between what I was reading and what was happening to me. I went back to bed and I continued to read. I was going back and forth between my bed and the toilet. In spite of all I continue my lecture and I read (chapter 2, page 86): " Seen from another space, the bones of your body are all black. To purify such a body in such a short while, it is impossible for you to have no reaction. So you will have some reaction. Some of you may vomit and have loose bowels..." and to my great surprise, I read: (chapter 3, page 111) " Perhaps many of you have heard something about the possession by animals, such as foxes, yellow weasels, ghosts and snakes, etc. in the world of cultivation..." and He add at the page 134:"...Some people can never give up what they practised in the past. We teach being constant in a single cultivation system. True cultivation is to be constant in only one way. Some Qigong masters have written some books, but I tell you that there are such things as snakes, foxes, and yellow weasels in their books, which are the same as what they have practised. When you read those books, these things will jump out of the words..." I realised what happened to me and it was quite a shock.

I told Norman about the great "spiritual" cleaning that I just passed through, just before reading about it in the Zhuan Falun. This is incredible. Falun Dafa is really a serious, efficient and bowling me over!

We decided to go to Montreal to meet some Falun Dafa practitioners. People seemed to me serene and calm. I'm astonished and I admire the capacity of endurance for some ones and the sincerity of the others. Each time that I came back home, I'm more and more determined to cultivate and practice very well.

Few times, I felt heat irradiating from a group of practitioners that were reading in a park. We were driving 250 miles almost each weekend to have the chance to practice Falun Dafa with a group. On the road, I was reading to Norman when he was driving. Little by little, I realised the importance for reading Zhuan Falun. So voluntary, I get a deeper understanding of Fa and the practice of the exercises. My capacity for the lotus position is not very good, but I am very determined, and everyday I'm working on it. The meaning of the pain has changed.

Many great masters had told Master Li:" When it is difficult to endure it, you can endure it. When it is impossible to do it, it is possible to do it. " The Great Law is working on me and on day I'm able to do a little more on a lotus position. Now I'm doing haft an hour.

I feel cherish, I have experiences and dreams that I think some times are real, that help me to understand and to deepen little by little, on my way. I don't want to get attachment, but this helps me to continue. I become more and more enthusiasm, I am jubilant. I would like to shout to everyone in the world: "I found the True Way, come to learn Falun Dafa, it's wonderful, magnificent, extraordinarily." I don't find superlatives suitable to describe IT. Constantly I talked about Falun Dafa to my children, but they turn a deaf ear. I'm learning to have a calm heart. Little by little, I'm beginning to impregnate this high level teaching and to control myself better.

Despite all, my comprehension is very superficial because I marked with a yellow felt-tip some paragraphs in the Zhuan Falun that I found more appealing to me, so almost all the sentences.

But I am really afflicted when I read at the last lesson, (page 355): " The enlightenment quality of some people cannot be brought out. Someone reads my book and underlines it here and there casually. Those who have their Celestial Eyes open all can see that this book is shining golden and bright with all colours, and every word of the book is the image of my Law body. I would cheat you if I did not tell you the truth. The one mark you made in the book has caused it to have a mass of blackness. How dare you do so? What are we doing here? Are we trying to guide you up to the high dimension in cultivation? There are certain things that you should think about. This book can guide you in cultivation; do you think it is precious? Will your worshipping the Buddha really enable you to cultivate yourself? You are very sincere and dare not touch the image of Buddha at all, and you burn the incense sticks every day for him. But you dare to ruin the Great Law that can really guide you in cultivation."

I must change my way of thinking, of speaking, of acting or at least be conscious, it the rectification by the Law. I understand little by little the great gift.

Norman and I, we have noticed that each time that we leave some thing outside of our home, a chair, a bicycle, a container, every time we were stolen. Our neighbours can do the same without being stolen. We don't understand. One day, some thieves took our snow blower just before winter. We forgot to lock the garage door. Insurance will not cover if there is not evidence of robbery. I was very obsessed by this robbery. I accused thieves, others, not knowing what to do.

One day, while I was thinking about truthfulness (Zhen) in the sense of Zhen Shan Ren (Truthfulness-Benevolence-Forbearance) in my life of each day, suddenly I realise, when I observe myself, that I am not in harmonise with Zhen Shan Ren. Some times when my clients pay me cash, I can subtract some money from taxes. As time pasted, I didn't realise my wrongdoing, it was a bad habit. I'm not Zhen Shan Ren when I act like that. I decided to correct this habit right now. The same day, I'm tested four times. Four clients offered me to pay cash. But I passed the test that day. No loss no gain. " If you refuse to loose, the universe will organise thing so that you loose. " I was just learning a little bit more, I am harmonising with the Fa.

When I began to read Zhuan Falun, I was unable to read about the third eye. I had a nauseating and my third eye was hurting. It took me almost one year before I can read the chapter about the Tianmu without nauseating and headache. I was very attached to some experiences that I had had in the past.

Before the Falun Dafa when I often go to an Asian restaurant. Sometimes I felt that something was attached to my third eye, like something digging and it was often painful.

The last time, it was more painful. I was in Tha lande, in a cab on our way to the hotel. This time it was very painful. I thought that because I visited so many temples that some entities were attacking me. I went to bed during the afternoon and I was very tired. This experience was very intense, painful, reel and unreel at the same time. I slept 3 hours. When I waked up, it was still painful but I was less exhausted that finished by stop. I don't know what kind of experience I had had but I don't have those experiences in these kinds of restaurants today. And I was reassure when I read: (Chapter 3, page 129) "If you can really cultivate in the right way, nobody dares to touch you rashly. What's more, you are under the protection of my Law bodies, so you will never be in any danger.

Finally, I'm grateful for having a scale to climb up to the heaven! Thanks, Master Li. I understand step by step the Zhuan Falun. Also, now, I appreciate my precious human body. It is the perfect instrument in this world for returning to my origin and my authenticity. I'll be back because I want to return to my real home with all my heart, and I hope that is my last night to the inn.

Heshi