I Am Teacher's Disciple and a Particle of Dafa
(Clearwisdom.net) I liked to read and listen to fairy tales when I was a little kid. During over ten years of schooling, I was polluted by the atheism promoted by the CCP. However, deep in my heart, there was still a flicker of hope. Therefore, after reading the invaluable book Zhuan Falun in March 1996, ideas such as the theory of evolution and atheism, which were like chains put on me by the CCP, were broken through. I felt that Falun Dafa was very good and was what I had been looking for. I quickly found the person from whom I borrowed the book and told him that I wanted to learn Falun Dafa. At the first group Fa study, I made up my mind that no matter what happened, I would firmly study Dafa and carry on to the end!
Upgrading the heart and mind is most fundamental in cultivation practice
Every day, I spent my spare time in Fa study, recited Teacher's articles, and watched my thoughts and behavior: I am now a Falun Dafa practitioner and I should follow the Fa's requirement and should not bring shame to Dafa. No matter whether I was at work, out in society, or at home, I would strictly discipline myself. Gradually, my xinxing improved. Dafa's miracles and supernatural phenomenon manifested in my body. In my dreams, Teacher used Falun to clean my body. Falun was like a fan spinning around. My main spirit came out of my body and went up to the sky layer after layer. After one month of practicing, I got rid of my eye glasses for near-sightedness which I had worn for many years. My high blood pressure, heart disease and other illnesses all disappeared.
One day, while studying the Fa, I came to understand the principle of letting go of life and death. The next day at work, my hands unintentionally touched high-voltage electricity. At that moment, I heard a popping sound and a big round fire ball flashed. People nearby were horrified by the sight of it, but nothing bad happened to me. My body felt cool and fresh, and very comfortable. I immediately realized that Teacher had endured the life debt for me. If not for Teacher's kind protection, we cannot practice cultivation at all!
With my continuous Fa study, I could study the Fa with a very calm mind and my xinxing improved. I have experienced most of the physical changes mentioned in the book "Zhuan Falun". Dafa's law principle constantly manifested in front of me. Sometimes I truly felt that each word in the book of Zhuan Falun contains limitless inner meaning, it is boundless ...During that time, I really experienced changes at a very fast pace. Sometimes I did not even have time to realize it and that phase was finished.
Just when I was feeling that I had practiced well, in order for me to improve quicker and become a genuine practitioner, Teacher began to arrange some tests for me. My tests mainly came from my family. At first, my wife tried to prevent me from attending group Fa study and group exercises. After Fa study and looking inward, I found out that I had an attachment of laziness and did not want to do some household work, and that was why my wife complained. Teacher arranged that chance for me to get rid of my laziness. After that, I began to take more responsibility for some household work. I also began to be on time for our group Fa study and group exercises. Once I prepared some food that I liked. During dinner time, my wife became very angry. I looked inward and realized that I was very selfish and only thought about myself. Doesn't Teacher asks us to be selfless and consider others first? No matter what we do, we should always think about others first. Therefore, I admitted my mistake to my wife.
Sometimes in order to get rid of my attachments that were hidden very deep, Teacher would use my wife to point them out. It was very difficult for me to endure that. Once when she began to cause trouble again, I forgot about being a Dafa practitioner and could not bear any more and began to argue with her. As a result, she tore up my Dafa book. After that, I regretted not having a good understanding of the Fa, and not doing well, thus bringing shame on Dafa and letting her accumulate karma. However, Teacher continued to encourage me and gave me a chance to become a good person again. Sometimes, in order for me to get rid of my human mentality, Teacher arranged several chances for me to pass a test.
Thus from the setbacks and tribulations and by constantly studying the Fa, I finally understood that from the moment that I began Dafa cultivation practice, everything I saw, heard, and encountered, all related to my cultivation. Every step of my returning to my true self was arranged by the Teacher. Only if I unconditionally look inward, get rid of all human mentality and desires, will I be able to become a genuine practitioner.
Teacher has made a great effort to save me, though I have not been diligent enough. I feel that I can never pay back such a Buddha's infinite grace. The only thing I can do is to work hard on cultivation practice and be a genuine Dafa practitioner.
Safeguarding and validating the Fa is my duty
On July 20, 1999, the persecution towards Dafa arranged by the old forces began. Propaganda slandering Dafa spread everywhere and changed every day. I calmly recalled my cultivation practice from the previous few years and believed that there was nothing wrong with being a good person as Teacher has taught us to do by following Truth-Compassion-Forbearance. Firmly continuing my cultivation practice was my only choice. I decided to go to Beijing to safeguard the Fa. However, at that time I still had a very strong human mentality, especially the attachment of sentimentality. Teacher saw me having such an attachment, and used my wife to give me a hint. At home she would find my faults intentionally or unintentionally and said, "Other people have already left. Why are you still staying at home? Go! Do not come back." Finally, I made up my mind and went to Beijing on October 24, 1999. Although my ID card was withheld by my work unit, we still managed to arrive in Beijing with the arrangement of the Teacher. When I first walked on the Tienanmen Square, I felt very excited. I only had one thought: I am a genuine Dafa practitioner, a particle of the Fa. As a Dafa practitioner, I should stand out and safeguard Dafa!
The next day after we arrived in Beijing, Jiang's regime illegally banned Falun Gong. Many Dafa practitioners decided to go to the Tiananmen Square to appeal for Dafa. However, Tienanmen Square had very strict security. The police would arrest anyone who would appeal for Dafa. After discussing with other fellow practitioners, we decided to go to the Tiananmen Rostrum to validate Dafa. On the morning of October 27, over a dozen fellow practitioners and I displayed the banner and cried out loud: "Falun Dafa is good! Falun Dafa is the righteous Fa! Kind people, you should try to make a clear distinction between right and wrong!"
I knew that Teacher arranged this opportunity for me to fulfill my wish and validate the Fa!
We were taken to the Tiananmen Square Police Station. Four to five police and military police officers beat me up. They handcuffed my hands to my back and asked my name. I thought to myself that I am not an ordinary person. I came to Beijing to safeguard Dafa. I told them, "My name is a Dafa practitioner." They then beat me up again. However, I did not feel any pain at all. My mind was empty. I knew that Teacher endured the pain for me again! I did not know how much time passed; I lost consciousness. They then poured cold water on my body and I came to. When they tried to take off the handcuffs, they could not open it. They cut off some of flesh from my hand while trying to open it.
During illegal detention, I promoted Dafa to people in the detention center and told them how wonderful Dafa is. Many criminals expressed that if they had known about Dafa before, they would not have committed crimes and been sent to the detention center. Among them, two criminals obtained the Fa after they understood Dafa and knew the truth of the persecution. One day my third eye opened and I saw a light pole on top of each Dafa practitioner's head. There were light circles hovering when they slept at night. Such magnificent and glorious scenes made me become even more firm in my cultivation practice. A policeman in the prison had a talk with me and told me that if I did not agree to be "transformed", I would be sentenced and also lose my job. I told the policeman why I began to practice Falun Dafa and then told him how great, sacred, and beautiful Dafa is. He nodded his head and agreed that we did nothing wrong. He said that it was Jiang Zemin who would not allow people to be good people. He also cursed the evil CCP for its corruption and said it will collapse sooner or later.
Striving to do the three things well
After July 20, 1999, from constantly studying the Fa, I gradually understood that being a Dafa practitioner during the Fa validation period, our great historic mission is to clarify the truth about Falun Gong and save the sentient beings.
I was illegally sentenced to a half year. After coming back home, I began to clarify the truth to my relatives and then to people I knew. At first, people were afraid of listening to me, especially my relatives. They knew I had been illegally detained and dismissed from my job. They were worried about me. At that time, my wife also interfered with me. Because I lost my job, she felt a lot of pressure. She argued with me every day and even threatened to divorce me. During that time, I felt very sad. Looking inward, I realized that the sentimentality attachment which I did not completely get rid of before had appeared again. When I clarified the truth to her before, I had treated her as my relative and I was filled with human sentimentality, thus she could not accept what I said. Teacher told us,
"Some of you have done poorly in clarifying the truth to your families, and that is because you haven't done it right. One reason is that you don't know what their stuck point is, you are unclear on the cause. Another thing is that when you clarify the truth to your family, you always regard them as family, rather than as sentient beings who are to be saved." ("Teaching the Fa in the City of Los Angeles")
As a result, when I truly considered her own welfare and treated her like other sentient beings, asking her to not commit crimes toward Dafa, she began to change. From a few arguments a day at first, she came to not argue any more. Then, she began to support me. Sometimes, when I was clarifying the truth, she helped me, too.
Teacher asks us to do the three things well. When we cannot do one of the three things well, then we have not met Fa's standards. I remembered that I did not study the Fa well enough several times. When I clarified the truth to other people, I did not have a pure heart and had the attachment of competitiveness. As a result, the ordinary people could not accept what I said and even slandered Dafa. Sometimes I was interfered with by a desire for comfort and laziness, I allowed myself to feel complacency in cultivation and did not clarify the truth for several days. Especially during those so-called sensitive dates, I was interfered by the evil for a long time and wasted my time and followed the road arranged by the old forces. Teacher gave me hints several times and asked me to be diligent in my cultivation practice. Once when I was watching TV, it was about a place called "House of Treasuring Time," I suddenly realized how bad I was in my cultivation practice! In order to change that state, I began to recite the Fa. My cultivation state changed little by little. Once when I was clarifying the truth on a public bus, I was praised by the ordinary people. I also went out at night to post banners and put up posters. Whenever I had interference from thought karma, or became afraid, I would tell myself: I am a Dafa practitioner. I come here to save the sentient beings. I have Teacher protecting me. I should not be afraid of anything. At that moment, I would feel that I became very huge. It was really amazing when I dissolved myself into the Fa.
In order to break through the evil's financial persecution, I bought a tricycle to carry people around for a living. I began to use that opportunity to distribute truth-clarification materials. Wherever I went, I would distribute materials in that place. I knew that people who got on my tricycle were predestined. I should not let a single predestined person miss out. At night, I had a dream and saw many sentient beings applaud me. I told them to remember: Falun Dafa is good! Truth, Compassion, and Forbearance is good!
After the Nine Commentaries on the Communist Party was published, I and other fellow practitioners distributed the Nine Commentaries and persuaded people to withdraw from CCP related organizations. Teacher guided predestined people to board my tricycle. Not only did I have business to do for a living, I also clarified the truth to those people. Teacher arranged everything so ingeniously! Sometimes I had human mentality appear and became lazy. I would then think about how difficult it is for the Teacher to validate the Fa and made huge painstaking efforts to save sentient beings. I do not have any excuse if I cannot do things well. While riding the tricycle, I would sing the song called "Thank the Teacher for Graciousness" in my heart. I could not stop my tears from running down from my face. I told myself : "Dear Teacher, I will firmly continue my cultivation and hope more sentient beings are saved."
December 31, 2008