Austrian Fahui: Recognizing and Eliminating the Attachment of Resentment

(Minghui.org) Greetings, Master and fellow practitioners!

I recently discovered that resentment is a particularly deceitful attachment, because it tries to give you a false perception. It makes you think you are justified in feeling resentful. It tries to cover up the real you and reflects certain thoughts into your mind, such as, “Indeed the situation at that time was extremely tough,” “the matter was really troublesome,” “others cannot understand my predicament,” and so on.

I used to think that as practitioners, when problems surface we should forbear. However, this may not be enough to eliminate resentment. As a result, I often cannot take it in the end.

To give an example, I helped with Shen Yun performances in my country. My task was to coordinate the sale of the Shen Yun streaming platform (Shen Yun Zuo Pin) at the theater.

I had my first child a few months ago, so my husband, who is not a practitioner, accompanied me and our six-month-old son to the city where the shows were held. We stayed there several days. This brought a new series of challenges. For instance, I had insufficient sleep for several months before the show, I did not have time to do the exercises, and I needed to pay for expensive hotel accommodations.

Previously, I could either study the Fa or watch a performance during sales breaks. But this year I ran around between the theater and hotel to feed my son and to let my husband take a break. Furthermore, the bomb threats from the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) led to increased safety checks at the venue, which made it harder to go back and forth. In addition, two practitioners with sales experience were unable to help this time, reducing our sales team to four. This meant that I had to change plans, and it increased everyone’s workload.

It’s a great honor to assist with Shen Yun and I knew this is for our cultivation. Even though there were changes in my personal situation, I still felt grateful for the opportunity to support Shen Yun. My son was not too bothered by the change in location and my husband took time off from work to help me. I knew that Master arranged everything for me.

My mind was clear on the first day of the show. I told myself that nno matter how difficult it was, nothing could stop me from accomplishing my mission. People are waiting to see Shen Yun and be saved. Every person who subscribed to the Shen Yun platform is depending on us to bring a part of Shen Yun home and share it with others. We did well in sales the first day. I knew this was Master’s encouragement.

However, on the subsequent days, especially on two-show days, I struggled to maintain a good state of mind. When I had no time to rest or eat and was running between theater and hotel, my resentment began to grow. I was not able to feel grateful for this opportunity and think of how I could do better. Instead, I thought of how I could make it through this tribulation. As my righteous thoughts weakened, my bitterness grew stronger and controlled me, thinking, “This is really hard,” or, “How can these practitioners not come and support this project?” or, “I have to go through another security check at the theater again. Time is already pressing. The audience will come out soon.”

Our sales declined each day. I was very clear, and I realized that resentment and compassion are at odds. Compassion is a irreplaceable prerequisite in fulfilling our vows. Assisting Master in saving people involves doing well in selling subscriptions to the Shen Yun platform. Although on the surface I continued to talk to people with the same friendly voice, it did not work. Only the compassion from Dafa has the power to move people. In fact, this is the case in every truth clarification project, and every contact with sentient beings.

After the shows concluded, in my heart, surrounding environment, at home, and even among practitioners, I often faced elements of resentment. Why was it that everyone around me was unhappy, why was everything so difficult? Such a state is not right; the problem must lie with me.

Looking within, I realized that though I tried to endure during tough situations, I did not get rid of my resentment. In fact, I should not feel bitter at all because that is not the real me. The deeper I looked within, the clearer I knew that being resentful is a dirty thing. Not only is it an attachment that comes from selfishness, it is at odds with compassion. Furthermore, indulging in resentment is greatly disrespecting Master and the Fa. It doesn’t want to be eliminated, hence it manifests in making one think there are good reasons for it to exist, and that it is a normal reaction. But that is not the truth, so we should not be fooled by it.

Master meticulously and compassionately arranged every practitioners’ cultivation path. Will the real me dare to judge any part of this arrangement? Or even complain about it? Of course not.

Master said:

“Don’t complainStay good and kind;…”(“A Sacred Song,” Hong Yin IV)

“A benevolent person always has a heart of compassion. With no discontentment or hatred, he takes hardship as joy.” (“Realms,” Essentials for Further Advancement)

I should be happy when there are hardships. So why is it sometimes hard for me to recognize these tests, and succumb to complaints?”

Master then gave me another chance to help pass a test.

We drove to visit my father-in-law. It was pouring rain outside, and my son cried all the way there. My husband forgot to bring the baby’s things that I asked him to pack. My clothes were dirty when we arrived, and I had forgotton to bring a change of clothing. My mind was full of complaints. When we went out to buy things we forgot to bring for the child, my father-in-law was buying a lotto ticket. He said he doesn’t buy a ticket often. He only buys them when there is a chance of winning a big prize.

He did not win a prize, but I was inspired. Isn’t it like getting a lotto ticket when we encounter what appears to be a tough situation? The only difference is that as long as I act according to the Fa, I will win a big prize and received huge gains.

Master said:

“As a practitioner, when you suffer pain, you are gaining four things in one shot. To put it in jest—where can you find a deal like this?” (Lecture Given at the Conference in Sydney)

Just then, I clearly realized that resentment is an attachment, and is not me. Naturally the attachment does not want to be eliminated, therefore it will try to create various deceptions to stop me from improving. It wants to turn my lottery ticket into one that does not win a prize. I thought, “I see through you now, I know what you are doing. From now on, I want to keep getting the lottery ticket that will give me four gains.”

I suddenly felt relaxed and I could clearly see the situation I was in. I let go of resentment, and began understanding how others felt. I no longer wanted to scold people, but tried my best to turn the bad start into a better day. After getting rid of resentment, there was room for compassion. My son was happy again. In reality, the situation was not that terrible. I was ashamed for not understanding Master’s teachings before.

Now, if there is trouble or a tough situation, my first thought is no longer, “This is so hard but I must endure it.” I can now often see the true meaning behind the incident, and see it is another precious opportunity, just as if Master has given me a lottery ticket. A prize for four gains, this is something that cannot be exchanged for all the gold in the world.

I had a deeper understanding of this paragraph in Zhuan Falun:

“Cultivation itself is not difficult, and neither is raising one’s level itself difficult. It is because they cannot give up human desires that they call it difficult.” (Lecture Nine, Zhuan Falun)

Thank you, esteemed Master and fellow practitioners!

(Presented at the 2025 Austrian Fa Conference)