“Doing Things” Should Not Replace Cultivating One’s Heart

(Minghui.net) I used to have ulcers, bronchitis, irregular urine and bowl movements, and other illnesses. I had a hard time sleeping, and my vision and hearing were not good. My body was like a completely rotten piece of wood. One of my family members told me about Falun Dafa. I knew that Dafa was good, so in order to have a healthy body, I entered into Dafa cultivation in 2001. Not long after, all of my illnesses disappeared. I felt light when walking, and my face glowed with health. I am 71 years old but feel much younger than before I started practicing Falun Dafa.

Through constant Fa study, I learned what cultivation is and the seriousness of it. I understood that we are here for sentient beings, and we must do the three things well, so as not to let Master down. I should study the Fa more and help Master to save more people. I need to catch up with the process of Fa rectification. I go out to clarify the truth every day. I talk to everyone I encounter, and have no fear.

Master said:

“If you have no fear, the factor that would make you afraid will cease to exist.” (“Eliminating your last attachment(s),” The Essentials of Diligent Progress II)

It’s truly so. Before I leave my home every day, I send righteous thoughts and ask Master to give me wisdom and strengthen me. I ask Master to bring me the people with predestined relationships, so that I can clarify the truth about Dafa, and help save them.

It’s been more than 20 years, and I haven’t counted how many people I’ve clarified the truth to in total, but I have made accomplishments every day. I diligently clarify the truth to people, and ask them to help me distribute informational materials. One person from the village who quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organizations, said to me, “There are many people in my village who don’t know how good Dafa is. Please give me some materials, and I will give them out for you.” For many years, we often met at a specific location. I gave him materials, and he helped distribute them.

Because my truth clarification went smoothly, other practitioners thought that I had cultivated well. As time passed, I also felt that I was a better cultivator than some others. Even though I didn’t say so, I felt good about myself inside.

However, during the past two to three years, I have often felt physically uncomfortable. I knew that I was eliminating karma, and ignored it. My family members, especially my granddaughter, often tried to make trouble for me, and intentionally upset me. For example, she agreed to eat noodles for lunch, but when the noodles were ready, she didn’t want them and told me that she didn’t agree to eat them in the first place. When things like that happened, I couldn’t hold it in, and argued with her. I knew I should be tolerant, but I couldn’t control myself, and my heart felt uneasy. She sometimes complained that I was unhygienic. She would tell me that the clothes were not washed properly, or the vegetables were not clean. She would criticize me at any moment. I often thought, “Children nowadays are not mature and don’t know how to respect the elderly. It seemed I had become her granddaughter.” I felt uneasy, couldn’t hold back, and often argued with her.

One day, I became upset with her over a trivial matter. She said, “Grandma, you cultivate Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. Have you tolerated? Are you kind?” I suddenly realized that Master was using her mouth to give me a hint. Master let her help me cultivate my xinxing. However, I had confused Dafa’s standards with those of ordinary people, and argued with others. I was way off in my cultivation.

I have been cultivating for more than 20 years, but I have taken “doing things” as cultivation. I must work hard on looking inward whenever I encounter issues, and let go of my attachment of not allowing others to criticize me, as well as the attachments of competing, saving face, seeking personal benefit, etc. There were a few times my granddaughter intentionally upset me. I tolerated it, and was not moved.

I am grateful for Master’s arrangements. I will try to walk the last leg of my cultivation path well, and not disappoint benevolent Master.