Resolving Old Grievances and Developing Compassion

(Minghui.org) Ms. Peng, our law firm’s finance manager, calculates and publishes each lawyer’s monthly income. Since several lawyers often collaborative on a case, the profit-sharing ratio varies from case to case, and income figures are sometimes calculated incorrectly. Ms. Peng always under calculates my income.

For example, last month, she failed to record 3,000 yuan under my name. This month, another 20,000 yuan profit from a case that another lawyer and I worked on was not allocated to me. When I pointed it out, Ms. Peng said she made a mistake, and corrected it by recording 8,000 yuan for me. I didn’t think much of it—I assumed it was the other lawyer’s idea to split the income this way.

A few days later, this lawyer and I went out on business and discussed the case. He said he’d asked Ms. Peng to split the profit equally, so he didn’t understand why I only received 8,000 yuan. I was a little upset and wondered if Ms. Peng deliberately cheated me. But I reminded myself that I was a cultivator and I shouldn’t be affected by human notions. So I tried my best to eliminate these thoughts. The resentment I had for Ms. Peng vanished.

I’ve known Ms. Peng for over a decade. On the surface, I was nice to her, but in my heart I had negative thoughts about her. She was a clerk in a real estate company when I first met her, and I was the company’s legal counsel. After I won a case for the company, the boss rewarded me by letting me live for free in one of their units. Ms. Peng and the vice president showed me the unit, which had a good layout and lighting. I was very happy. But when I got ready to move in, it wasn’t the same. Although the layout was the same, the decorations and light fixtures were obviously inferior. When I asked, Ms. Peng insisted it was the same unit. I had no choice but to take it.

I later found out she’d switched the units because the vice president wanted mine.

I took an attorney to the real estate office on business one day. Ms. Peng was very friendly and asked him for his phone number. She contacted him and asked him out behind my back, which made him uncomfortable. Our law firm later hired her, but she was lazy and careless. She often flirted with the male lawyers and this annoyed me.

I’ve cultivated Falun Dafa for over 20 years, so I know my attachments can cause conflicts. As my cultivation level has elevated in recent years, I’ve clearly seen that, although I did not fight with Ms. Peng or anyone else, I felt uncomfortable when I faced them. I had developed bad thoughts, and I knew it was a serious issue. I kept asking myself why I resented Ms. Peng.

From an ordinary person’s perspective, her behavior is not that out of line. She was just doing what people often do. Why was I behaving like an ordinary person?

When I looked at the issue from the standpoint of the Fa, I saw I had attachments to self interest and that I was jealous. I also looked down on others. Ms. Peng is helping me by exposing my attachments and I should be thankful. Furthermore, it is now the Fa-rectification period. Most people came from high levels and are Master’s relatives. Rather than being resentful, we should be sympathetic and tolerant of their behavior. How else can we display our benevolence?

After a period of ups and downs, my mindset gradually became stable and kind when I faced injustice. I was less swayed by negative human thoughts and attachments, and I was able to pass this xinxing test. Of course, as a Dafa practitioner, I still have a long way to go. I have not reached a state of perfect tranquility. I will intensify my Fa study and cultivate myself so I can be a genuine practitioner who truly treats others with kindness and compassion.