Correcting Myself As I Memorize the Fa

(Minghui.org) I am a lucky person, because I found Dafa, which is difficult to encounter! I am so fortunate to have become a Dafa practitioner. I have Dafa to guide me in my cultivation. It helps me look within, cultivate, and correct myself all the time. I am gradually assimilating to Dafa and returning to my original, true self. I want to complete my mission and return home with Master.

By studying the Fa frequently, I understood how precious Dafa is, so I wanted to fill my mind with the Fa by memorizing it. By doing so, I would be able to conduct myself based on the Fa when I encountered problems and would be able to remind myself that I am a cultivator at all times.

As I memorized the Fa, Dafa corrected my thoughts and behavior that did not align with it. My realm constantly elevated, and I got rid of bad material substances that I had accumulated in society. This transformation process is a process that begins when we start to cultivate and takes us through to the final stage where we become divine once again. I will share a few parts of this process here.

First, my exercise movements were steadily corrected. After understanding the Fa, I started to suppress my thoughts while doing the exercises. At times when I was not able to do so, I would recall the Fa from memory. By doing so, my inaccurate exercise movements were all gradually corrected. When I meditated or sent forth righteous thoughts, my back was straight and I was generally clear-headed. If I was unable to straighten my back, or if my mind was not clear, it might have been caused by problems with my xinxing. If this was the case, I would correct myself based on the Fa immediately.

Second, my main consciousness became clearer. When I first started memorizing the Fa, I could not do it well. I forgot segments that I had just memorized after a short time. As the amount of Fa that I memorized increased, the speed at which I was able to memorize increased, too. I was able to memorize the Fa lecture by lecture, and I am now able to remember more Fa. This has helped me assimilate more to Dafa. The principles that are shown to me have increased, and my main consciousness has become clearer, too. When I encountered problems in the past, I dealt with them in human ways and could not remember that I was a cultivator. But after memorizing the Fa, my main consciousness became stronger, so when I encountered a problem, the principles related to the problem would come to mind. I just need to abide by Dafa’s standards and I will be able to do well. For example, when it came to clarifying the truth, before memorizing the Fa, I thought, “I should go and clarify the truth.” But after memorizing the Fa, I thought, “I want to and must clarify the truth.” When I distributed truth-clarification materials or went to the morning market to clarify the truth face-to-face or distributed calendars face-to-face, my divine nature was strong when my main consciousness was strong, and my fear decreased.

Third, after memorizing the Fa, I learned that I must look within and cultivate my xinxing. For example, when I first started to cultivate, my husband had a stroke. He could not take care of himself, and he did not realize when he had soiled himself. He drooled, and his mind was like that of a three-year-old’s. My dislike for my husband’s saliva was the hardest attachment for me to eliminate. He kept drooling, but he would not let anyone wipe it up. If someone tried to, he would hit that person and then smear his saliva with his hands all over the place. He smeared it on clothes, the table, the sofa, and blankets. And he would spit it into and around the dustbin. The rancid smell was everywhere. When I had just cleaned up the house, he would drool all over everything and smear it everywhere. I cleaned it up every day. I could not stand it and kept trying to figure out how I could make him do what I asked him to. Sometimes when I could not maintain my xinxing, I got upset, lost my temper, and reproached him.

I was using human thoughts to force myself to cultivate my xinxing at that time. Because I was basing my actions on human thoughts, I was not able to get rid of the attachment. After making a mistake, I would regret it and blame myself. Actually, this was not just about getting rid of my fear of filth, it was also a manifestation of attachments, such as to jealousy, looking down on my husband, complaining, fighting with others, impatience, feeling unbalanced, notions that were acquired after birth, and attachments that were brought about by Chinese Communist Party (CCP) culture. My husband came to help me reach the goal of cultivation. Everything around me has been created to help me improve my xinxing. I should not be misled by these displays.

As I memorized the Fa, my understandings became clearer. After going through rounds of tempering and refinement, these attachments gradually lessened. I improved from feeling vexed at the smell of saliva to being unmoved when he smeared saliva on me. I have yet to attain the level of smiling as though nothing happened. Nonetheless, I believe that, as long as I keep memorizing the Fa and cultivating my xinxing, I will definitely be able to attain that. I know that I need to look within first and look at the other person’s merits when conflicts arise. Dafa is changing me to become more kind and gentle.

Fourth, my thoughts and notions have changed since I’ve gotten rid of elements of the CCP culture. As I memorized the Fa, the bad thoughts and acquired notions became less, and I could look at problems based on righteous principles. When bad thoughts appear, I am more likely to recognize them, catch hold of them, and get rid of them. I am gradually able to differentiate the notions that are deviant. The CCP’s subtle indoctrination over decades has warped Chinese people’s character and led them to have extreme thoughts about problems. We do not realize it ourselves and even find these thoughts quite good. Only people who truly cultivate Dafa can see how much CCP culture had harmed humankind.

While memorizing the Fa, I have gradually become clear about the CCP culture in many of my thoughts and behaviors that had been hard to recognize. For example, when my husband is being slow, I will get impatient and speak impatiently. In the past, I thought that this was because of my bad temper. I thought highly of myself, looked down on others, exaggerated things, and told lies. These were all displays of CCP culture. In my daily life, much of how I spoke and behaved, which I did not take much notice of, were all displays of CCP culture. These are factors that stop us from cultivating diligently. Only through Dafa are we able to get rid of them.

While memorizing the Fa, I personally felt the wonderful manifestations of Dafa. When I was clear about principles and improved my xinxing, there would be small but notable changes in my body. Only when you make the effort to memorize the Fa and immerse yourself in it will you be able to experience Dafa’s wonderful, great, magnificent nature.

Many amazing things have happened while I clarified the truth. One winter night when I went out to distribute truth-clarification materials, I was walking up a slope and did not notice ice had formed. Only after I finished distributing the materials and was walking back down the slope did I discover that the entire surface of the road was covered with ice, and the slope was not only long, it was also quite steep. I wanted to take a longer path but it was too far away. Just then, the street lights all lit up, illuminating a small narrow path in the center that had less ice. I was so touched that I cried. I said, “Thank you, Master! Thank you, Master!” and returned home safely.

Another time, in early spring, the ground was covered with snow. It was raining that night, and I went out with an umbrella. The rain stopped after a short time, and I accidentally stepped into a puddle in my snow boots. I did not look down, but by the time I returned home and took off my boots, they were completely dry. I remembered hearing myself step in the water, but the outsides of my boots were totally dry and did not even have any mud on them. I knew that Master was encouraging me.

I slacked off a bit recently. I felt anxious about it, but I just could not become diligent in my cultivation. Obstructed by human thoughts about “not being able to speak well enough,” I did not do well clarifying the truth in person. I also sometimes got sleepy when I studied the Fa. The disturbance was great and my cultivation state was sometimes good, sometimes bad. I knew that it was time for me to improve my xinxing and expand my capacity. However, I did not find the root cause. After writing this, I miraculously found the source: the selfishness and self-centeredness that I have been holding onto all this time. These attachments manifested differently, and I was not able to recognize them clearly anymore. They disturbed me for a long time before I could find them. I am writing down these incorrect cultivation states to expose and get rid of them.

Writing about the positive aspects of my cultivation helps to motivate myself to recover the feeling I had when I first started cultivating. Cultivation is a very serious matter. Only by studying the Fa with a tranquil mind can we continue to correct ourselves, do well the three things, and cultivate in diligently. Only by doing so can we best repay Master.

The above are my personal understandings. Kindly correct me if there is room for improvement.