Discovering My Attachments to Impatience and Anger

(Minghui.org) I once had a dream that I was at a practitioner’s home, and someone brought me two components of equipment. One of them had a missing part, and the other had a broken part. It was not convenient for me to repair them at this practitioner’s home, so I decided to take the equipment to my place.

However, I chided the practitioner in regards to the equipment, and she started to cry. I then criticized her before I left, “Are you still a cultivator? You feel wronged as soon as you’re being criticized.”

After stepping out of her house, I noticed my car was gone. I stood there with a machine in each hand, and I wasn’t sure whether I should stay or leave. And that’s how the dream ended.

A practitioner recently came over to discuss things with me. But only one out of four issues had anything to do with me, so I chided her. She said calmly, “What’s the hurry, and why are you upset?”

Her words reminded me of my dream! I was carrying a machine in each hand, one was my attachment to “impatience,” and the other was “anger.” Wasn’t this a hint that I should let go of them?

I’m quick and impatient, and I don’t mind my speech. Therefore, I say the wrong thing from time to time and often fall into disfavor with others. I get angry when things are not up to par. I also sulk when I hold onto angry thoughts. But if I express them, it’s done with resentment, which makes others uncomfortable. 

I also criticized other practitioners, “How can you be so careless and don’t even know how to do basic maintenance work?!”

When I criticized the practitioner in my dream, it meant that I wasn’t cultivating my heart. I understand that before I repair a piece of equipment, I should first cultivate my heart. Being “steady” is the basic quality that can ensure a calm attitude when dealing with the unexpected.

In regards to the four issues I mentioned, the first one was related to me, so I didn’t get impatient or upset. But the other three had nothing to do with me, and I became agitated. 

Actually, the three unrelated issues exposed my attachments and were there to help me cultivate. In essence, the issue that I was concerned with became a non-issue, and the three things that I didn’t care about served as my tests.

I searched inward and found my selfishness. I wasn’t impatient or angry talking about something that concerned me, as it didn’t affect my self-interest. But irrelevant issues were a waste of my time and energy, meaning they affected my self-interest. Wasn’t I being selfish then?

There are no coincidences in cultivation. Things that I consider negative are actually good things, as they exist to test me and expose my attachments.

I will let go of my impatience, calm down, become steady, and create a harmonious environment. I will cherish every practitioner and walk the last portion of my cultivation path well. Being steady every step of the way is a requirement for Dafa practitioners, and everything we do serves as a testimony of our wonderful cultivation journey.

This is my limited understanding. Please point out anything that is not in line with the Fa.