Cultivating Away My Attachment of Not Accepting Advice

(Minghui.org) One day after we finished clarifying the truth on the computer, a fellow practitioner who worked with me said, “The other day, your voice was softer and you spoke more slowly, and I think that was very effective.” 

I thought, “My voice was low and I was slow that day because I had a headache and wasn't feeling well. You don’t know how to clarify the truth. You are an amateur. How can you tell me how to do it?” As soon as I thought this, I realized it was resentment. The fact that she pointed it out might mean that there were areas where I needed to improve. If it could help me to save more people, why wouldn’t I change?

The next day I slowed down and spoke softly. It felt very uncomfortable, and I felt my energy could not be released. After speaking for more than 20 minutes, no one agreed to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organizations. When the practitioner saw that the way she suggested wasn’t going well, she said, “Why don’t you clarify the truth in your own way? Don’t follow my way if it affects your saving people.”

I quickly returned to clarifying the truth in my usual way, and seven people quit the CCP. The practitioner said, “The way I suggested was wrong. From now on, you do it your own way.” 

I said, “I clarify the truth according to each person's voice. I will be fast if the other person is fast, and slow if the other person is slow. When the other person's voice is not very friendly, I will lower my voice so he will calm down. If the other person is a child, I will speak in a child’s tone. When the other person is a gentle woman, my voice will also be gentle. 

“With Master’s blessing, people seem to respond to me when my condition is good. People listen to whatever I say. The energy I get from Dafa is being released. Also, for those who agree to quit the CCP but know little of the truth about Dafa, I will replay the phone recording for them to give them another chance. We cannot let them quit the CCP for the sake of quitting the CCP. We need to truly save them. Those who know the facts will tell other people about it, too. There will be more and more people saved.” I said very excitedly.

After I finished clarifying the truth that day, I looked within. I found that what I had explained to the fellow practitioner was a serious attempt to validate myself. I was hinting to her that I had been doing a good job, so she shouldn’t tell me how to clarify the truth in the future. This is an issue of indoctrination by the CCP – not saying things directly, but doing it in a roundabout way. After finding these human attachments, I admitted my mistake to Master in my heart and sent righteous thoughts to disintegrate these human attachments. 

I apologized to the fellow practitioner when I saw her the next day: “I’m sorry! I was wrong yesterday. I seriously tried to prove myself and to show off. Our ability to get people to quit the CCP is the result of Master’s immeasurable blessings and fellow practitioners’ cooperation. I was greedy for heaven’s merits! I will correct myself and act according to Dafa, and it will not happen again. Please forgive me.” The fellow practitioner made the gesture of heshi to me, and we both laughed.

Eliminating the Attachment of Looking Outward

Once, another practitioner and I worked together to clarify the truth on the computer. The effect was not good and the reception rate was very low. I knew that the practitioner’s 101-year-old grandma was sick. I asked her, “You must be very close to your grandma?” She said yes. I thought to myself, “The fellow practitioner must have a very strong affection for her grandma, or perhaps because her grandma is ill and she has no time to study the Fa, it is affecting our saving people.”

I didn’t want to directly tell the practitioner to let go of qing for her grandma. I instead told her about my experience of letting go of my qing for my child. I said, “You really can’t save sentient beings if you don’t let go of your qing.” She said: “I’m not attached to qing for my grandma, I’m just fulfilling my obligations.” 

My face suddenly turned red. I realized that I had looked outside when I encountered problems. When problems arose, I blamed others for not doing a good job, which affected my ability to save people. Isn’t this being arrogant? I was not cultivating myself, yet I thought I cultivated well. 

The attachment to looking outward was very serious. It was this attachment that hindered my saving people. I was scared and sweating all over. I admitted my mistake to Master in my mind. I sent forth righteous thoughts to dismantle my attachment to conceit and looking outward. 

I felt very relaxed after getting rid of the attachment to looking outward. From then on, whenever I encountered any problems when clarifying the truth I only looked at where I failed to do a good job and where I did not meet the requirements of Dafa. If I found any shortcomings, I would send forth righteous thoughts to resolve them right away. 

I now realize I must memorize the Fa more, use Dafa to cleanse myself, cultivate myself well, save more people, and fulfill my sacred mission. This way, I will be worthy of the title of Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period, and live up to the kindness of Master.