My Reflections After an Elderly Practitioner Regains Her Sight

(Minghui.org) An elderly practitioner in our Fa study group began turning blind five years ago. She did the exercises and listened to the recordings of Master’s (Falun Dafa’s founder) lectures every day. She did the housework as usual, and she would not get hurt or burned when she cut vegetables or cooked. She said Master was looking after her and it was impossible to repay Master’s grace.

When we recited the Fa one day, she said she could see my face. She was excited and grateful to the practitioners for their selfless help, and thanked Master for bearing so much karma for her. I was happy for her and thankful for everything Master did for us. The only way we can repay him is by fulfilling our historic mission through genuine cultivation and eliminating our attachments.

However, I thought: I had helped this practitioner a lot and played an important role in her improvement because I had downloaded the articles from the Minghui website for her, sent righteous thoughts, shared cultivation experiences, and studied the Fa with her. I was happy that I had helped her a lot. But I immediately realized that I was taking all the credit.

After I got home, I thought about why I had this attachment of wanting to take the credit. Everything is arranged and protected by Master. It’s due to Master’s grace and the power of Dafa that her eyesight was restored. 

When I took credit for helping her, wasn’t I disrespecting Master and the Fa? Wasn’t I seeking recognition from other practitioners? This is not true cultivation.

Master said,

“The creditors of the karmic debts you’ve owed lifetime after lifetime and even the victims of your massive karmic debts insist that you pay, so what can be done?” (“Stay Far Away From Peril”)

I said, “Master, I’m so ashamed, I’m sorry. I must get rid of these bad notions, study the Fa well, get rid of my human attachments, do the three things well, and return to our true home with you.”

Eliminating Fear

A practitioner was photographed by police when she clarified the truth to people. When four police officers came to her home, she clarified the truth to them, gave them amulets and a calendar, and offered to help them quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP).

After they left, she came to our Fa study group that is also our materials production site, and asked us to send righteous thoughts for her. I suggested she stay home study the Fa, send righteous thoughts and look inward. I suggested that she should not have come to the materials production site and group Fa study site, because she may have led the police to us. After hearing my words, she left.

I disagreed with her behavior, I felt what I said was based on the Fa and I was thinking about safety, but I knew that I was not compassionate and did not care about her feelings.

I looked inward and found that I had fear, resentment and complaints, and I had looked down on other practitioners.

Aren’t practitioners’ behavior a mirror that reflects my attachments? I have no reason to look down on her—I should examine myself instead. We are all covered with karma, but Master saved all of us. No one is better than anyone else. Why was I jealous of a practitioner who has righteous thoughts? I also have various attachments, such as being unforgiving, showing off, fear, and arguing. These are all reflections of my selfishness, and these attachments must be eliminated!

I understood what happened was a good thing that Master used to help me see that I needed to improve my xinxing. I behaved like an ordinary person, rather than a cultivator as I had looked outward and judged others with my attachments and notions.

From now on, I must follow Master’s requirements, treat other practitioners with compassion, cultivate myself and my speech, and do the three things well.