Overcoming Sickness Karma by Getting Rid of My CCP Mindset

(Minghui.org) Before I was old enough to attend school, I was simple and well-behaved, and everyone liked me. I was joyful, and my mom often said I was friends with everyone. When I was in the first and second grades, I got along well with my classmates. By third grade, however, I fought back whenever I encountered bullying. If the situation didn’t go my way, I asked my older sister to help me get revenge.

At home, I often argued with my sisters. My mom said I was learning bad behavior at school and becoming increasingly unruly. I entered middle school during the Cultural Revolution initiated by Mao Zedong (a former Chinese Communist Party leader). People in China were told to “struggle against heaven and earth,” and that we were “class enemies.” From the principal, to the teachers, to the students: Everyone was focused on “class struggle,” and we were immersed in “raising political awareness.”

After entering society, I never backed down if anyone bullied me. I was quite good at fighting because of my experiences in school, and I knew how to win during conflicts. Every fight was significant, and I refused to give up until I won. I was known for being fierce and overbearing.

Due to my combative nature, it was inevitable that my anger took a toll on my health. My chronic cough and asthma worsened—I had flare-ups every year that required treatment. I wasn’t yet forty, but my illnesses became serious. Medicines were not effective, and I was bedridden.

Falun Dafa Changed My Life

When my life hit rock bottom, and I was at death’s door, I was fortunate to encounter Falun Dafa. Master Li saved my life. I finally escaped the sea of suffering and found a turning point in my life. The bitterness faded and sweetness returned, allowing me to live a normal life.

After I began practicing, I knew Falun Dafa is good, and that I should act according to Truthfulness, Compassion, and Forbearance. I had cultivated for years, but I was still not forbearing. Whenever someone challenged me, I couldn’t maintain my composure, and I retaliated. Other practitioners were worried about me and suggested I read the book, Dissolving Party Culture, but I couldn’t bring myself to read it. I did manage to listen to the Removing Party Culture broadcast series on Minghui.org, and I found it to be quite good.

When my old illnesses reoccurred, however, I was unable to endure and, as a result, I found myself facing health issues every year.

The Importance of Looking Inward

My health was very poor last year, especially during the busy harvest season. I had a persistent fever, cough, and asthma, and I was unable to work in the fields. Even cooking for my family was difficult. This past summer, I invited a practitioner who was well-versed in the Fa to help me. I said: “I have this chronic cough and shortness of breath. Is it due to my karma, or are there other factors at play?”

“Look inward,” she earnestly told me. Those words struck my heart like a thunderclap, awakening me to the need to introspect. I realized that I often lost my temper with other practitioners and felt regret afterward.

I told her, “I get angry because I believe the other practitioners are doing things wrong and not according to my ideas. I feel my perspective is correct.”

She replied, “You can’t use your own standards to measure others. Everyone has their own understanding.” With this reminder, I understood the root of my health issues. After she left, I said to Master in my heart, “Master, I can’t lose my temper anymore. Please help me eliminate this destructive substance.”

A few days later, Yan came to help me organize some documents. It was market day in our town, and because I was busy distributing truth-clarifying materials, I had a simple breakfast. When Yan arrived, I quickly made a lunch for her. She had already told me she wasn’t hungry and didn’t want to eat, but I urged her to have a little. Instead of eating, she ended up getting upset and began criticizing me.

She kept criticizing me while I ate, but I didn’t get angry. After the meal, I cheerfully said to her, “Thank you for helping me eliminate my attachment to losing my temper.”

She said, “I don’t know why I got so angry today.” I replied, “You came to help me improve; you provided me with a stepping stone!”

From that point on, my mindset improved significantly, and I was able to maintain my composure. Master saw that I endured and helped me eliminate the demonic elements within me that caused my anger. During this harvest season, my health was much better; I didn’t have a fever, and my cough and asthma had improved by about ninety percent. I was able to work in the fields, and I could also cook.

Through this tribulation, I reflected seriously on myself. The root of my inability to endure in the past was deeply entrenched in the CCP culture. Throughout my schooling, I was immersed in the 10 years of turmoil during the “Cultural Revolution” and subjected to the toxic indoctrination of CCP culture, which was focused on “Fight, fight, fight!” Under the poison of the “fighting philosophy,” I developed a fierce and overbearing personality and deviated from my innate kindness. I was deeply harmed by the CCP culture, which led to my strong demonic nature. This was why I faced obstacles and failed countless times, which resulted in persistent health issues.

Changing My Mindset

I recognized my past arrogance and the belief that I was always right. Isn’t this just like the CCP’s ideology of “greatness, pride, and correctness?” Since coming to power, the CCP never admitted its’ wrongdoings; what it sees as right is deemed correct, and even when it’s wrong, it’s still right. As the saying goes: “No one is perfect.” Can a country or a political party really be without mistakes? The logic of CCP culture is truly that of a cult.

Although I’m a Falun Dafa practitioner, I still carry karma and have so many attachments I need to let go of. It’s impossible for all my thoughts and actions to be right. My inability to endure was a major flaw and a serious exposure of the influence of CCP culture.

The purpose of writing this article was for me to lay a solid foundation in cultivation and follow the path arranged by Master. I personally experienced the importance of removing the CCP culture in me; it is the key to breaking through and overcoming difficulties. This is my shallow understanding and if there are any inaccuracies, I welcome feedback from fellow practitioners.