(Minghui.org) I woke up with a terribly dry and bitter-tasting mouth and throat one morning in the spring of 2021. I also felt that there was something in my nasal pharynx area. I didn’t pay much attention, but it worsened over the following months. I eventually lost my appetite. My wife kept urging me to see a doctor, but I kept saying it was a false appearance, and that I would get better by doing the Falun Dafa exercises, studying the Fa, and sending forth righteous thoughts. I was holding on to a strong faith.
However, I couldn’t stop thinking about it. Everyone knows that I practice Falun Dafa. I didn’t want to cause any negative impression of Dafa. I eventually went to our county hospital for a CT scan. My doctor told me that the scan found a tumor on my nasopharynx, which was beyond the county hospital’s ability to treat. My children took me to a big hospital in our provincial capital, where I had an enhanced CT scan. While waiting for the result, I stayed in my son’s home in the capital.
While waiting for the result, I was so worried that I couldn’t sleep well, nor could I concentrate on studying the Fa or sending forth righteous thoughts. I told Master Li (Dafa’s founder) in my mind, “I’m so fortunate to be a Dafa practitioner, and shoulder the mission of helping Master in the Fa-rectification! I’m determined to do the three things well. It’s up to Master to decide the result. All these symptoms are false appearances and not a disease!” In the meantime, I told whatever is making trouble in my nasal pharynx area, “I don’t recognize your existence, and neither would Master!”
I reflected upon myself, searched for my fundamental attachments, and asked myself if I had any loopholes that the evil had taken advantage of. Nothing is coincidental for a cultivator. Have I lingered in my current level of cultivation for too long? I must let go of my attachments immediately, and make improvements in my cultivation. I thought for a long time that night.
Over the past 20 years, I seemed to have done the three things, but haven’t advanced diligently. I have missed many opportunities to clarify the truth about Dafa due to my fear and attachment to comfort. My fellow practitioners have cultivated themselves diligently and quietly contributed their work to truth-clarification. However, I have hidden well any sign of trouble. We are practitioners, walking on the path to the divine. The evil won’t be able to take advantage of anything as long as we stay righteous and follow Master’s guidance.
In addition, I had an attachment to the ending time of the persecution. Although I knew that I hadn’t cultivated myself well and that the extended time Master gave us was to catch up, I still couldn’t help longing for the day when the Fa rectifies the human world. I was excited to hear any domestic and international news that conformed to my wish and got disappointed when the situation developed against my wish. I spent most of my time on those ups and downs.
After identifying these attachments, I decided to expose and eliminate them. I told myself to cultivate diligently, and do the three things well. It’s the only way to repay what Master has done for me. I told Master my strong wish was to assimilate to the Fa.
The result of my CT scan came out the next day. Everything looked normal. The tumor had disappeared.
I thanked Master on my knees!
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