Refusing to Remove One’s Jealousy Is Very Dangerous

(Minghui.org) Two years ago, I was reported to the police when handing out truth-clarification materials in a busy area. My home was then illegally ransacked, and I was sentenced to two years in prison.

A few months prior to my release, I shared a prison cell with Ms. Lin, an elderly practitioner. She was a very steadfast Falun Dafa practitioner. Even though she was sentenced to prison three times for more than five years each time, she never wavered in her faith in Dafa and Master. However, she didn’t know what caused her to have such large tribulations successively. 

My intent is not to share either the good or bad aspects of her, but only to focus on how she incurred a serious illness-karma tribulation due to her jealousy. Miraculously, when she realized her loophole, her illness-karma instantly disappeared. 

One night when we were about to go to bed at 9:30 p.m., Ms. Lin came over to tell me that she had stomach pain and asked for my help. I saw that she didn’t seemed to be in a lot of pain, and I needed to work with an inmate to carry some bedding, so I didn’t take it to heart.

Unexpectedly, she came back a few minutes later, saying the same thing. She added that it had never been that painful. While saying that, she was in so much pain that she began to hold her stomach and was bent over. The others around us also saw that something was wrong with her. She was sweating, her face had turned gray, she was shivering, and she couldn’t say anything. 

This happened almost instantly, and we were all dumb-founded. The cell administrator asked if she should call the doctor to come for emergency treatment. Even though Ms. Lin was very weak, she shook her head to decline it. I tried to calm everyone by saying that she’ll be fine and she’ll get over it quickly enough. However, with her in such a perilous situation, I had no assurance either. Then they helped her to sit down on the front bunk against the wall. After that, I sent everybody away to have them make their beds, and I stayed with Ms. Lin for a little while. 

When there were only two of us, I asked her if she had said or done something that she shouldn’t have. She didn’t acknowledge what I said. She kept sending forth righteous thoughts to eliminate the evil factors persecuting her. She said she is Master’s practitioner, even if she had any omission, she wouldn’t allow the evil to persecute her. But it didn’t work for her, as her intermittent pain got worse and worse. She seemed to be in danger. 

I seized the time to share with her based on some Fa-principles, and pointed out again some issues that I saw in her. The first issue was talking about others behind their backs, and the second one was her jealousy. I realized the first issue soon after she was transferred to this cell. I reminded her about it a few times. In the beginning, she didn’t acknowledge it. Later she realized that she did wrong, although she couldn’t correct herself immediately. I also felt this wasn’t the issue that got her into this serious illness-karma tribulation. 

I thought the key to this tribulation was her jealousy. About half an hour before she had the illness-karma illusion, something happened: I received a letter from my classmate, which was written in traditional Chinese characters in the vertical format of ancient letterheads. The characters were very beautifully written. In the cell, one’s letter often got passed around to everyone to read. Upon receiving it, we all thought it was a printed letter. But after we knew it was hand-written, everybody who saw the letter highly praised the calligraphy. It was fair to say that this beautifully hand-written letter had caused a stir in the cell that day. 

That night, I showed the letter to Ms. Lin. At first, she also praised the handwriting. Later, after she found out that it was from a male classmate and an ordinary person, she immediately changed her attitude. She said with disdain, “I thought it was written by a female practitioner. Since it was written by a man, this shouldn’t be counted as good handwriting, but just as so-so.” 

Right then, her expression surprised me. She then continued, saying that other people praised her for her handwriting, as if had been printed. I could feel her jealousy in what she said. I could sense her looking down on ordinary people. Thus, I pointed out to her that she had jealousy. She didn’t agree, but rather said this was her true thought. 

Half an hour later, she appeared to be in a serious illness-karma state. When I shared with her again, she wouldn’t acknowledge that she had such an issue. Even though she had trouble uttering anything, she still tried to defend herself. I then continued to share with her. A couple of minutes later, she stopped defending herself. From her facial expression, I could tell she knew she was wrong. Almost instantly, she said, “I’m well now. My pain is gone.” She stood up, then walked to her bed in the middle of the room and started chatting with others. Her voice became as clear as before. 

This process seemed long, but it actually took only a few minutes. When she returned to normal, all the inmates thought it was incredibly miraculous. 

Cultivation is extremely serious. The closer it is to the end, the more strict we should be with ourselves. Sometimes something appears to be a simple matter, but it’s likely there are some deep attachments hidden. When others point out our problems, or we don’t feel comfortable internally, we shouldn’t just let them go, or find excuses for ourselves. We should confront them and eliminate them, so we can truly change ourselves in cultivation. 

I recalled a situation that happened a little over 10 years ago. Even though I considered myself to have let it all go seven to eight years ago, it came up again that day in the prison. I saw that some thoughts I had in a past situation were very vicious. I had jealousy and hatred towards practitioners who had harmed me. I hoped they’d be arrested and heavily sentenced. I even wished that the things they did to validate Dafa would go wrong. I hoped other practitioners would think I was right and they were wrong in a certain matter. When I learned they indeed ran into trouble, I secretly felt happy about their misfortune and had a mentality of taking offense. 

Every time I recall those thoughts, I felt so ashamed that I didn’t dare to share it with others, as I considered those thoughts to be me. Even though I tried to improve my xinxing and dispel it, and I was greatly empowered by Master, I didn’t feel the problem was fundamentally resolved. On that day in the prison, I suddenly realized those thoughts were not me, but rather were the old forces’ arrangements. Those thoughts were used by them to persecute and destroy me. At the instant when I was very conscious of this, I asked for Master’s help to eliminate them, as well as the root causes, such as jealousy and hatred. None of them were me, and I did not want them to exist in my dimensional field. Right then, I felt a violent, electrifying vibration in my body from the inside out. 

That night, I had a vivid dream. In my dream, a thin string emerged from the roof of my mouth, and I pulled it outward with my hand, which caused a small hole in my soft palate. And I pulled out an egg-sized mass of rotten flesh from the hole. There was another hole inside, as if there was something else in it, and I stuck my finger in to pick it out. A thought asked: “Will my brain also be pulled out?” I self-answered, “No, after what’s inside is pulled out, it will be clean.” Then I picked out another egg-sized ball of rotten flesh.

In the morning, after I woke up, I knew I did the right thing. Therefore, Master cleaned up my mind one more time. Thank you, Master!