A Tribulation Caused Me to Look Inward

(Minghui.org) Another practitioner and I talked with a young man about Falun Dafa one day in 2021. He reported us to the local police. They ransacked our homes and videotaped the process before taking us to the police station. 

They forced us to sit on iron chairs and took our statements. They then extorted 2,000 yuan each from our families to get us released on bail pending trial. When they ordered me to sign a statement I said that I was illiterate and could not write. I refused to follow their orders. One officer said, “Just write down that she refused to sign.” I was released.

The police took statements from us again in November 2021 and ordered me to sign. I refused again.

We were called into the police station again on January 25, 2022. The officer said our case was a criminal one and told us to sign. The other practitioner complied, while I claimed that I couldn’t write. The officer told me to just write XXX, and he had me fingerprint a sheet of paper. Two days later the officer called me and told me that I had to be detained for a couple of days. When I refused, the officer said that he would put the case off until after Chinese New Year. 

I thought to myself: We didn’t break any law. The law says that we have freedom of belief. Nothing is wrong with telling people about Falun Dafa, which teaches people to be good. It’s a good thing to improve morality, tell people to remember that Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good, and urge people to quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) and its youth organizations. I thought: It does not matter what you say. Only what Master says counts.

A Breakthrough

I have practiced Falun Dafa for more than 20 years. My life and everything belong to Master, and I will never waver in my belief. I rejected the persecution and the interference. I sent forth powerful righteous thoughts to dismantle and eliminate the evil factors in other dimensions, which manipulated the police and agents to commit crimes against Dafa and Dafa practitioners. 

At the same time, I calmly and carefully examined myself. Having fallen so hard, I asked myself, “Have you truly cultivated? Did you listen to Master? Have you strictly demanded of yourself in accordance with Dafa’s principles? Do you really think of yourself as a Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period? Have you acted according to Dafa’s standards? Did you do the three things well? Are you really assimilating to Dafa?” 

I understood that I stumbled, caused losses to Dafa, and incurred trouble to my own cultivation. I felt it stemmed from omissions in my cultivation, and was caused by my attachments; the old forces exploited my loopholes.

The first attachment I identified was resentment and a competitive mentality. I was always upset with my husband and argued with him if he did not listen to me. When my husband’s hair became long I called the neighborhood barber to our home to cut it. But my husband refused. I tried to persuade him but he just wouldn’t listen. I had no choice but to apologize to the barber and ask him to leave.

Afterwards I got angry at my husband for being so irrational. My resentment, competitive mentality, all stem from the indoctrination by the CCP. I was furious and scolded him. He didn’t say anything. 

I looked inward—how could this be the state of a cultivator? I calmly apologized to my husband, told him I was sorry and asked for his forgiveness.

I was also upset with my son. “I told you the truth and you don’t want to listen. What’s going to happen to you?” Aside from worrying about him, I also had strong affection for him. I always saved the best food for him. Once, Master hinted to me in a dream that I had too much qing (sentimental attachment).

Now I have let go of my attachment to my son. Being reincarnated into a Dafa disciple’s home, my son’s life is not an ordinary life. He quit the Young Pioneers and was saved. He also knows that practitioners are all good people. He never stopped me from practicing or doing the three things. He protected Dafa books twice.

When I understood the Fa principles, I completely let go of my emotional attachment to my husband and son. I reminded myself that Master is in charge of everything. 

I also have human attachments that I have not thoroughly eliminated—such as resentment, fighting, showing off, self-validation, self-promotion, grievance, blaming others, vanity, and desire for comfort and so on. I was obsessed with food and nice clothes, and was lax in doing the three things. I lived like an ordinary person, and didn’t prioritize cultivation and saving people. I was embarrassed to face Master, and did not live up to the great title of Dafa disciple that Master bestowed upon us.

Cultivation is to cultivate oneself and eliminate human attachments. When there are problems, contradictions, or difficulties and injustices, practitioners need to examine themselves and look inward. Only then can we truly cultivate, continuously improve, take the path of righteous cultivation, and reach Consummation. 

Master devotes himself to his disciples and constantly encourages us. When I was not diligent or was too relaxed, Master gave me timely hints. But I still ran into problems with my cultivation and was confused about the Fa principles. My cultivation was poor.

Now I study, memorize, and copy the Fa a lot. I frequently read Zhuan Falun and Master’s lectures given in various cities, and send righteous thoughts for a long time. My dimension has become clearer and my righteous thoughts are stronger. The bad things and the filth have been thoroughly cleaned up and can no longer interfere with me.

Through studying the Fa and Master’s lectures given in various places, the principles of the Fa are shown to me layer by layer. I realized that my previous understanding was very superficial. Now I understand the deeper principles and connotations of the Fa. I believe in the Fa even more, and devote even more to the historical mission of saving sentient beings. 

I sent out a thought to completely and thoroughly eliminate all human notions, my attachments to fame, fortune, and expressed my wish to become a clean and pure Dafa disciple in the Fa-rectification period, an enlightened being walking the path to divinity.

Everything in the persecution is a false impression; none of it is true. Tribulations are stepping stones on the road of cultivation. They are a ladder for improvement, and a ladder for assimilating to the Dafa of Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance.

With Master’s support, the elements that caused me to fear were disintegrated, and the illusion of tribulation appeared small. I overcame the pressure of negative thinking. With Master and the Fa around, the old forces are useless and mean nothing. Everything is under Master’s control. I turned everything over to Master, and now focus on just doing well with what I need to do at this moment.

I am grateful to Master and Dafa for saving me. My view has been changed in this ordeal, and I have cultivated a kind heart and compassion. I realize the power of the Fa. I don’t hold any grudges against these police officers and public security personnel. They are all pitiful, and are lives poisoned by the CCP’s evil lies. 

They are also Master’s relatives. We should treat them with compassion and kindness, and tolerate them. They are also lives to be saved by Dafa disciples. I hope that they will understand the truth, quit the CCP organizations, and get out of the wicked Party. Dafa disciples hope that they will have a bright future.

I wrote down my experience in order to dig out the shortcomings in my cultivation, expose them, disintegrate all the evil elements in other dimensions and eliminate them.