(Minghui.org) I led a bitter and tiring life ever since I was young. Among my siblings, I was the most capable, so I took charge of the family. After I married, I was again in charge and always had the final say with my husband. This was because I was stubborn and never admitted defeat. These character traits made me suffer a lot.
Soon after I began to work, I was sent to a remote area to do hard labor like many others at that time. The living conditions were very difficult. During that time, I developed chronic hepatitis B, arthritis, neurasthenia, migraines, as well as stomach problems. I spent a lot of money seeking treatment, yet my health only got worse.
In 1999, I worked as a salesperson. A client saw that I was extremely thin and recommended that I be examined by a doctor. I was diagnosed with advanced stage rectal cancer. I had surgery, followed by chemotherapy. The chemotherapy treatment was painful. I was supposed to go through eight sessions. After the sixth session, I began to practice Falun Dafa and stopped the treatment.
I had joined a cancer patient support group after I was diagnosed with cancer. Before too long, all the members of the group had passed away except for me. I had benefited from Falun Dafa, and became healthy!
I had been practicing Falun Dafa for two months when the Chinese Communist Party (CCP) began a suppression of the practice on July 20, 1999. I subsequently lost the environment for group practice. So I learned the five sets of exercises by following a video. I did the exercises twice a day at home, once early in the morning and once in the evening.
My husband, who did not practice Falun Dafa, miraculously heard the exercise music every morning at 3 a.m. So he would wake me up to do the exercises. When I was doing the exercises, he saw many beautiful scenes behind me. He said that the mountains and rivers he saw were so beautiful they were beyond anything in the human world. Once, when I was taking a nap, my husband saw three clusters of a black substance float out from my neck.
At that time, I had not read Dafa’s main text Zhuan Falun. So I did not understand why my husband could hear the exercise music, or why he could see those beautiful scenes and those black clusters. However, there was one thing I knew very well – all my existing illnesses were gone! Master Li Hongzhi, the founder of Falun Dafa, and Dafa saved my life!
I would like to share my story of how I began to practice Falun Dafa.
Finding Falun Dafa
In late May 1999, I saw two groups of people on each side of the front entrance to a nearby park. Each group had about 30 to 40 people sitting in a circle meditating. As I stood and watched, a lady approached me and asked whether I would like to learn Falun Dafa. I said I was a cancer patient. She told me she previously had breast cancer, and it was healed after she practiced Dafa; She looked very healthy. I immediately decided to learn.
Master Is Always Watching Over Me
After several days of practicing Falun Dafa by myself, I felt a significant change in my body and spirit. I was no longer depressed. When I arrived at the practice site for the first time, I felt comfortable, and happy from the bottom of my heart.
The second time I went to the practice site, they were doing the sitting meditation. I also sat down with my legs crossed in the full lotus position. I heard someone whisper, “How come her face is so dark?” It sounded like the person was suggesting I stop doing the meditation. Then I heard the practice site assistant say, “Let her continue.”
I sat for 40 minutes that day. After I returned home, I ate a full bowl of noodles. I had not been able to eat so well for years, especially since I had hepatitis B! During that time, especially ever since I had cancer, eating was a painful process for me.
I went to bed after I ate and slept for three days straight! I usually suffered from insomnia and often had sleepless nights. What a joy it was to be able to eat and sleep again! And this came about after I did only 40 minutes of the sitting meditation!
In July 1999, I went to the practice site for the third time. I was told the park administrators had notified us that this was the last day we were allowed to do the exercises there. The CCP’s crackdown on Falun Dafa practitioners had begun.
I had only been to the practice site three times. I was fortunate to learn Falun Dafa before the persecution! If I had missed those three visits, it would have been very difficult for me to know the truth about Dafa, since the entire country was soon blanketed by the CCP’s propaganda.
However, my enlightenment quality was poor! After I experienced Dafa’s wonder, I still foolishly finished the 14 bags of Chinese medicine prescribed by a doctor.
In February 2000, some practitioners wanted to go to Beijing to appeal for Falun Dafa. At that time, I had not finished reading the book Zhuan Falun. But I decided to go. On Tiananmen Square, we held up banners that read, “Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance” and “Falun Dafa is good.”
While I was doing the wheel holding exercise next to the banners, the police came and took us away. I never regretted that I went there. I knew I was doing something a Dafa practitioner should do – validating Dafa!
There was a large crowd of practitioners at the police station. They recited some of Master’s newer lectures and poems. I was moved. I thought, how come I haven’t heard of these lectures and poems? I cried, and from that moment on, I realized that a Dafa cultivator must diligently study the Fa.
The Grudge with My Brother Was Resolved
Back in the 1960s, the CCP forced many educated young people in cities to go to the countryside or frontier border regions to be “re-educated.” My oldest brother was one of them. He was sent to the northwest of China, to Xinjiang.
My brother thought the younger siblings were able to stay in the city because of his sacrifices. He felt the entire family owed him and should pay him back. People in his circumstances were typically allowed to visit their hometown every four years. But my brother insisted on coming back every year, and that my parents should pay the costs. This put a lot of financial pressure on the family.
In order to obtain permission for my brother to permanently return home, my mother, who was not in good health, ran around to many government agencies. After my brother succeeded in returning to the city, he did not care about our mother at all. He just wanted a job for himself and spent a lot of time fighting with my younger brother over housing.
Upon learning that my parents’ house would be demolished, my brother wanted to keep all the compensation. My daughter’s residential registration was at my parents’ house, so my brother forced me to withdraw my daughter’s registration and moved his daughter in.
While taking advantage of family members, my brother refused to take any responsibility for the family. He did not even care when our parents were in the hospital. I disliked him for his selfishness, and had no contact with him for 20 years.
My older sister, who is also a Dafa practitioner, talked to my brother about Dafa. She told him that one will be blessed for reciting, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!” Bad things will turn auspicious.
My brother was cheated by a group of people while playing Mahjong. I heard he lost so much that he almost did not want to live anymore. He then developed a heart problem. When he was experiencing a bout of severe chest pain, he remembered what my sister told him and recited, “Falun Dafa is good! Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good!” The tightness in his chest disappeared. After the incident, he believed in Dafa and began to practice as well. His character soon changed, and he realized he had been so selfish in the past.
Master taught us:
“Those troubles all stem from the person’s own past actions, so no one should complain.” (“Fa Teaching Given at the 2006 Conference in Canada,” Collected Teachings Given Around the World Vol. VII)
Master also said:
“...because cultivators need to be compassionate. Being compassionate means casting aside all past history and grievances had with ordinary people, and it means not getting attached to anything associated with ordinary people, not seeking the fame or gain of ordinary people, and letting go of human attachments. It means taking everything associated with ordinary people lightly as you go about cultivating, and that is how you will be able to free yourself of it.” (“First Fa Teaching Given in the United States,” Collected Teachings Given Around the World Vol. I)
Master said very clearly that all tribulations were caused by one’s past actions (karma). Why did I carry a grudge against my brother? Isn’t Dafa teaching us to be compassionate? I should thank anyone who makes trouble for me, as those are opportunities for me to improve my xinxing. Blaming others comes from an ordinary person's mindset.
A Dafa practitioner should let go of resentment! It was not easy for me to do this. But in the end, I followed Dafa’s guidance and forgave my brother. Dafa resolved the 20-year grudge between us.
I am grateful for Master’s mercy!
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