Remaining Unmoved When My Vested Interest Was Affected

(Minghui.org) I was demoted at work recently. When several coworkers tried to comfort me, I didn’t maintain my xinxing as a Falun Dafa practitioner and allowed my frustration to get the best of me. I said many things not befitting a practitioner. I deeply regretted it.

I recalled how frustrated I was when I was incarcerated for practicing Falun Dafa. I beat myself up for failing to do things well, which might have led to my arrest. Such a strong feeling of self-abasement eroded my confidence and at one point even led me to doubt Dafa. Fortunately for me, I was able to face my frustration and get over it. Whatever I did wrong had already happened and I knew it wouldn’t do any good if I stayed trapped in remorse. The only way for me to move forward was to face the problem and think of ways to improve myself.

After I was released from prison, I lost my job, which I’d loved. It paid very well and offered me ample opportunities to showcase my abilities and boost my confidence. Because I’d worked at that job for over 20 years, I often thought about it and how unfair it was that I’d lost it. I realized that if I kept thinking about it, I would lose the battle to my own attachment. When I began to doubt myself, I needed to strengthen my righteous thoughts and my faith in Dafa. I kept reminding myself that the negative feeling of being treated unfairly would be dissolved in the Fa. I knew a feeling like that was meant to drag me down and wear me out and that I should look beyond it and take full advantage of the opportunity to improve myself. I should know that Master had already the best for me.

I also thought of other practitioners who had lost everything (jobs, family, etc.) or even their lives as a result of the persecution of our faith in Falun Dafa. Compared to them, the loss of my job was almost nothing. Thanks to my savings, I could afford to be unemployed and still live relatively well for many years to come. The only inconvenience was that I had to watch what I spent and couldn’t offer as much financial support to my relatives as I used to. If I couldn’t even get over such a little inconvenience, how could I succeed in my cultivation? No matter how difficult things may look on the surface, there is always a way out for us. I should feel grateful for what I have and face everything with a positive and compassionate heart.