(Minghui.org) I am 60 years old and I began practicing Falun Dafa in 2005, when I was a yoga instructor. I looked into different religions, initiation schools, etc. for years. In my search for the reason we existed, I studied and specialized in mental health. However, I did not find what I was looking for. When I was told about Falun Dafa I rejected it, as I felt I was finished searching. But a friend urged me to read the book Zhuan Falun.

I picked up the book and read the introduction, On Dafa. As soon as I read the first paragraph I smiled and said, “I found it--my search is over.” I read the entire book and without hesitation and decided to practice Falun Dafa. I never thought of quitting.

For the first four years, since I was unemployed and recently divorced, I dedicated myself to reading Master’s (the founder of Falun Dafa) books and lectures intensively, between 10 and 14 hours a day. I would finish one book and then read the next, over and over again. I did the exercises every day. A month later the other practitioners and I started a reading group.

Miracles Happen One After Another

Since I was a teenager, I suffered from chronic depression and migraines—up to 15 days per month. As a child my family environment was very hostile and I developed low self-esteem. My health was poor and I was very weak due to chronic anemia. I developed anorexia nervosa and I was underweight. 

Approximately three days after I started reading the Fa, when I was half asleep, I heard someone talking. A male voice said, as if explaining to someone else: “The only way for her to cultivate is for us to erase things from her past.” I felt as if something was happening in my brain. I couldn’t move, and then I fell asleep. The next morning when I got out of bed, I knew that my depression was gone. I was never depressed again. The migraine headaches also diminished--the episodes became more and more infrequent until they disappeared completely.

Another miracle happened soon after. For several months, due to a fall, my womb had become detached and rested on my bladder. I had to urinate every 15 minutes. It was difficult to walk long distances because I was in a lot of pain. I knew that surgery or removal of the womb was necessary, but I was not willing to have it done. This interfered with my total concentration when I read the Fa because I kept having to stop and go to the bathroom.

At one point when I was reading about the rectification of the universe and how Master had to separate the galaxy from the milky way so that it would not contaminate the rectified universe, when I got up to go to the bathroom, I said out loud: “If Master can move a galaxy to somewhere else, he can certainly move my womb back to its place.” I was shocked at myself. When I got up I discovered that my womb was back in place. Afterwards I was able to read for hours without needing to go to the bathroom. I cried with gratitude. 

I experienced many similar miracles. 

My Responsibility as a Falun Dafa Association Coordinator

In 2016 I was appointed to be the person-in-charge of the Colombia Falun Dafa Association. The previous coordinator was elderly and stepped aside. 

At first, I did not accept it since I felt other practitioners in our group were more capable than me. I never contemplated assuming this responsibility. But I realized the real reason was that I considered myself completely incapable of assuming that role. I had never been a leader in anything. I had no confidence in my ability to make decisions, didn’t want to take on that responsibility, and I was terrified of failure.

I begged the area coordinator to ask someone else be in charge and explained why, but she said: “Master wants you to be the one in charge.” I did not say anything. In my mind I said to Master: “If you want it, so be it. I accept.”

For several years, I did this work. I felt resigned and as though it was a burden imposed by Master. But I did not feel good. Such a great privilege should be lived with joy and gratitude, but it was not so. I later realized I did not deeply understand my mission.

As I repeatedly read the lectures, I came to understand the magnitude of accompanying Master in the rectification of the Fa. I realized that what mattered least was what I wanted as a human. I did not come here to be a human. Something as big and important as leading a group of practitioners was my mission, it was my true essence. 

The moment I had this realization I stood in front of Master’s picture. I decided to take on this responsibility and truly commit myself to my mission, without any complaints, without holding anything back. At that moment, my inner discomfort disappeared. I knew that I and the group from my country were part of Master’s great army, in this great enterprise of the rectification of the Fa led by Master.

Recovering What Was Lost

After I began practicing Falun Dafa all my health problems disappeared. I did not catch a common cold. My friends and family were amazed.

However, I began to experience a change. I was always a very good reader and I cultivated my intellect. My ability to comprehend what I read was good. But when I turned 50, some things began to happen that initially I did not know how to handle. 

I started having memory problems. Small things would get erased from my mind. I would forget commitments, my mind would go blank at times, and I couldn’t focus when I read the Fa, or remember what I read. My ability to learn and retain information diminished. 

This kept increasing. I began to worry. There are several cases of Alzheimer’s in my family, and my siblings also mentioned that they had memory problems and were receiving medical treatment.

The situation continued until I had several short mental lapses and at times I experienced a kind of fragmentation of thoughts. It was uncontrollable and I did not know how to handle the problem. I felt I had to handle it alone. I did not share it with the other practitioners as I did not want to worry them. 

When I looked inward, I realized that I had an attachment. I used to think that intellectual cultivation was very important. It was unacceptable to me that someone would not care about learning things and getting smarter when there were so many means at hand. I decided to let go of this human notion and this helped me to feel more compassion for people.

However, my memory problem did not seem to diminish. I asked Master to give me some sign so that I could handle the situation. 

One day a sentence from Master’s lecture at a conference caught my attention: “Students will have whatever they need, for this is the ultimate Fa of the cosmos.” (Teachings at the Conference in Australia)

I told Master that I needed to regain my mental capacity in order to perform my work as a Falun Dafa Association coordinator. Without memory it was impossible to carry out my mission, let alone lead a group.

I remembered Master’s words: “As long as you cultivate and make up your mind to cultivate, you will recover all of what you have lost.” (Lecture Two, Zhuan Falun)

These are Master’s teachings, I completely and totally believe in Dafa. This restored my confidence. 

I began to send righteous thoughts in the morning and evening, every day. I directed them at my brain to cleanse, recover, and develop all that I needed for my Dafa work. I denied all the old forces’ arrangements. For a while, every hour of the day, for 5 minutes I recited the formula for sending righteous thoughts. 

Miraculously, my difficulty disappeared. I regained my concentration and memory gradually, and after a few months I recovered everything I had lost. The best thing was that I also developed other skills that I always thought were exclusive to young people, such as being fluent on the Internet, managing certain complex programs for editing videos and audios, and management of some digital marketing platforms and social media, for truth clarification projects. Master gave me more than I asked for. I have been able to train other practitioners in these areas.

I will continue to cultivate myself diligently as I am aware that my quality of enlightenment is not that high. But I also know that Master will provide me with whatever I need. I will continue to put my mission as my number 1 priority. Nothing is more important.

I am very grateful to Master. Please point out anything that I’ve said that is not in line with the Fa.