Strengthening the Main Conscience During Fa Study Eliminated Anger

(Minghui.org) I was expecting something from another person this week, but he did not deliver what he promised. I was annoyed and outraged. Yet, I decided to hold my temper. As I attempted to control my attachment, I experienced an internal struggle with my human sentimentality and desire.

Letting Go of the Attachment Called Anger

Not getting upset and letting go of an opportunity for justice to be served was rather difficult for me. I could not control the anger in the other dimension. It was extremely strong. I thought that as a cultivator, the external reason that provoked my emotion or desire was not important; what was important was my attachment. I knew I must find the attachment. I looked for the answer through Fa study.

It was hard for me to keep calm when I studied the Fa, as I was engulfed in rage. I stayed focused, and did not yield to the fury inside me. As I read the Fa, more rationales emerged from my thought that could further anger me. I ignored them. Besides anger, many other sentimentalities tried to enter my mind.

Sure enough, as I slowly gained control of myself, the Fa entered my heart. Even though I was trying my best, I still had an image of myself banging on the desk with clenched fists as soon as I finished reading the Fa. I denied it from being a part of me.

I found myself in unknown territory for a while. I felt I must cross an imaginary red line to overcome my attachment. It was frightful to let go of anger. My guess was that this fear came from thought karma; the thought karma saw its end might be near. I thought, if someone was scared when he read the Fa, he must push himself harder. Therefore I continued studying the Fa, reading out loud to keep myself focused, to not think about anything else.

I lost track of time. There was a moment when the only thing in my mind was the Fa. I was studying and understanding the Fa. It was a miraculous experience. Also, as I read, Master showed me the many fears hidden behind the anger. One of them was fear of failure. There were also competitiveness, wanting to prove myself, jealousy... It became clear to me that contrary to what I used to believe, aggression is a behavior of the weak.

My body relaxed as Master’s Fa body eliminated my thought karma, and everything around me harmonized. A sense of happiness beyond this world filled my body.

Nothing in this world can bring us complete happiness. The first thing that came to mind was to share this with other practitioners who have not yet understood the importance of self control. Perhaps some of you, like me until only recently, still thought it was normal to lose one’s temper. To these practitioners, I want to let you know about my experience, that illusion has to be broken. If you cannot break through it, then it’s because you have not given it enough effort, and you have not clearly see its’ true nature.

Don’t Find Scapegoats for Attachments

If the effort you put in reaches the standard, the inner discomfort will disappear. Therefore, there is no need to blame your pain on external factors. The external factors are only scapegoats for our attachments.

This experience shook me. At the same time, it was also fulfilling. Once I calmed down, I was able to resolve any issue with unusual rationality, effectiveness, and compassion.

To me, this is the way to enable one to break through to a new realm, to be as vast as the ocean and sky, to truly help those around us, and to consider the situation from the other’s position. Maybe one can even forgive them when they did you wrong; perhaps they had no other choice.

On the contrary, if I followed my emotions, I believe I would not have solved any issue. It might even have caused a negative effect to a Dafa project.

I had flu symptoms over the next three days. The strange thing was that I did not feel sick. Once I discovered the cause of my discomfort – unknown and untamed attachments – I tried to shirk it, and let them – people who started my pain – suffer – share my pain. My nose was runny all day, and my bones hurt. Sometimes, my head hurt too. It was as if I had the flu. These symptoms would suddenly appear. Then they would stop as soon as I had to work on the TV show. They would return as soon I finished the show and sat in front of the computer.

Even though those were tiresome days, my xinxing continued to elevate when I studied the Fa and interacted with others. This was gratifying. I experienced self control – improve my main consciousness – pure thoughts, no enemy, no regret, no suffering… just the way things were in the past, but in a state of peacefulness.The people around me also seemed happier, not just a little more, but a lot more.