Truly Cultivating by Memorizing the Fa Again

(Minghui.org) I thought that reading Falun Dafa books was cultivation, but as the Fa rectification period reaches the end stage, I realize that I can only obtain the Fa through true cultivation.

Only by validating the Fa can I be called a true Dafa disciple.

I Began True Cultivation by Memorizing the Fa Again

I recited Zhuan Falun once in 2004. At that time, my son was little, so I stayed home to take care of him.

It took me about a year to finish reciting Zhuan Falun from cover to cover; I had been on and off in cultivation.

I didn't truly cultivate until April 2020 when I began to recite Zhuan Falun for the second time. I have memorized up to page 322 as of now, and in two or three more days I will have finished memorizing the entire book.

I have just realized that even the punctuation in the book is the Fa.

Since I recently returned to cultivation, I couldn't get in touch with the practitioner who used to deliver truth clarification materials to me. I thought, “It would be great if I had some Falun Dafa materials and amulets.” Master must have noticed my intention.

Soon after, I met an elderly woman on my way to work. She gave me a small gourd with words on it. When I held the gourd closer to read them, I became very excited.

She then handed me a USB flash drive and started to clarify the truth to me. I put my arms around her and hugged her. She was shocked for a moment, then laughed and said, “Are we both practitioners?”

I was too excited to speak. With tears in my eyes, I could only nod vigorously.

I felt like I’d finally found my family. She later delivered some truth clarifying materials, USB flash drives, and amulets to me. I felt grateful to Master for this arrangement. I also thank my fellow practitioner for her dedication and immense effort.

Now I put different truth materials in my bag every day so that I can reach people appropriately on my way to and from work.

I know it is Master’s compassion that has made me return to cultivation. My gratitude to Master is beyond words.

I regret wasting so much time and not doing well in the past, but I will not be lazy in the future. I will align my thoughts and deeds with the Fa and get rid of the things I shouldn’t have as a cultivator. I will try my best to assist Master to rectify the Fa and help people.

Stay Away from the Temptation of Electronics

Soon after I started memorizing the Fa for the second time, I formatted my cell phone and removed the WeChat, Alipay, mobile banking, and Taobao apps.

I have truly benefited from not playing with my cell phone and now have more time to do what I should do. Instead of shopping online, I have to go to a physical store and am thus able to clarify the truth to people.

I also don't worry about anyone eavesdropping on me wherever I go since I don't carry a phone with me. It’s not safe for a practitioner to do that in China.

I don’t use a mobile phone, so I can let go of my attachment to WeChat and the other apps. At the same time, I got rid of the desires and temptations that might weaken my will to cultivate and waste my time when I should instead be doing the three things.

My husband gave me several opportunities to improve my xinxing when he found out I’d deleted WeChat and no longer used a cell phone.

One day, as soon as I got home, my husband threw a fit right in my face. I endured it, didn't say a word, and went to change.

In the bedroom, I kept telling myself, “This is to improve my xinxing; don't be affected, otherwise today’s practice will end up in vain.”

One day, my husband asked me to scan the QR code on WeChat, saying that the social security would expire soon and I would not be allowed to enter the hall without it otherwise.

I told him I had deleted my WeChat and would never use it again. He went into a rage and really let me have it.

He pushed me for the first time in our more than ten years of marriage. Then he dragged me from the living room to the bedroom, opened the cabinet, took out our ID cards, and said, “We won’t need to deal with the matter of social security. Let’s get divorced today!”

I kept telling myself over and over again, “I am a cultivator; it won’t sway me; I have to endure it and be rational.”

I felt warmth in my entire body when I was trying to keep calm, as if I was surrounded by powerful energy. I felt very peaceful and comfortable.

I had him sit on the bed and said to him calmly, “If you really want to divorce me and leave, it will not be today. You are very emotional now, so let’s talk about it in a few days.

“Haven’t I been behaving well? In the past, I didn't cook or clean—I just took care of myself and played on my phone all the time. Now I’ve turned my phone time into housework. When I was doing housework, I was thinking how great you have been for doing these chores for more than ten years. I took it for granted and didn't even thank you.”

That made him calm down a lot and we went together to the business hall. We updated the social security without scanning the code beforehand.

More than two months have passed since then, and he has never mentioned divorce again.

I reflected after the incident. I realized my husband shouldn’t have been so emotional, so there must be something wrong with me. I looked inside myself and found many attachments.

First of all, I was suspicious. We had a terrible fight over a message on his WeChat on New Year's Eve this year. I was so angry that I left the house around midnight. I cried and cried and couldn’t stop because I was so upset and angry.

I thought that compassionate Master was always with me, so at that moment the phrase, “Falun Dafa is good, Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good” came to mind. I started to repeat it over and over again. I don't know how many times I repeated it before my tears stopped and my mind gradually settled.

After finding my suspicious mentality, I traced it back and found my attachment to jealousy. From jealousy, I discovered my mentality of fighting and resentment.

These attachments all originated from qing.

Master said:

“If this sentimentality is not relinquished, you will be unable to practice cultivation. If you are free from this sentimentality, nobody can affect you. An everyday person’s mind will be unable to sway you. What takes over in its place is benevolence, which is something more noble.” (Lecture Four, Zhuan Falun)

Looking at my husband again after I searched inside myself, I realized that he is kind, honest, and able to endure hardships. He has contributed a lot to our family over the years. He also came for the Fa, although he is deluded by ordinary life and has not yet obtained the Fa. But I am a cultivator, how can I resent this or that?

The resentment didn't come from my true self, and I knew that I shouldn't accept it as part of me. It was a false self that was formed by notions and attachments. I shouldn’t have taken the resentment as myself. When I thought of this, I felt the compassion in me, and tears rolled down my face.

Sitting in Meditation

Next, I’d like to talk about crossing my legs during meditation. It was really painful.

At first, I tied my legs with rope to meditate even in the half-lotus position, and I couldn’t hold it for long. It hurt so much that I soon began to sweat with pain.

But I persisted, little by little, and was able to meditate in the full lotus position with both legs crossed. In the last six months, I’ve meditated for one hour a few times, but only after I passed some xinxing tests.

The first time I meditated for an hour was the morning after I passed the lust test in my dream. Another time, I didn’t pass the test when my husband offered me an opportunity to improve my xinxing.

I didn’t do well and felt frustrated, and tears ran down my cheeks while I meditated in bed. After I was done, I picked up my phone to call a practitioner. It was about eight in the evening. Just then, Master's words came to mind. I remembered that we should be kind and considerate of others and not be selfish.

I should treat practitioners the same way. I thought, “Perhaps at this time of night that practitioner might be studying the Fa, and time is precious for every practitioner who does the three things well.” So I put the phone down. The next morning, I meditated quietly for an hour.

I knew Master was encouraging me in that way.

Conclusion

In the process of memorizing the Fa, I gradually became aware of the various human notions and attachments within me. I tried to separate them from the real me, and they diminished gradually. I felt my field became much clearer.

Thank you, Master, for giving me a chance to bathe in the glory of Dafa, and offering me opportunities to tell people the truth about Dafa.

Most importantly, I am grateful to Master for teaching me Dafa and offering me the path to return to my true self.