Learning to Search Inward

(Minghui.org) When the sewer system in my village was being renovated, the workers dug a trench in front of my house to install water pipes. I couldn’t take my moped out and needed to pick up Falun Dafa pamphlets that afternoon.

I called practitioner Yang, “Make sure you recharge your moped before you come for Fa study this afternoon. I need to borrow it to pick up some materials.” She agreed.

Yang came that afternoon but forgot to charge her moped. She just told me to place a board over the trench and push my moped out and added, “You should not leave your moped home all the time.” 

She said some other things that were not nice, but I was not moved. When it was time to pick up the materials, I borrowed another practitioner's bike and left.

Yang and I hadn’t gotten along for years. We looked down on each other and didn’t see eye to eye.

My mind was turned upside down by the time I left the village, however. The more I thought about the whole thing, the more I felt sorry for myself. I was so disturbed. I just wanted to borrow her moped for a short time. What’s the big deal? 

I was the one who took her six miles away so that she could buy her moped. I’ve done everything she’s asked me to. I’ve helped her in so many ways, and I’ve always put her first whenever we did truth-clarification work together.

The more I thought about it, the more miserable I felt. I wanted to cry. A thought then came to mind, “Nope! I should send forth righteous thoughts for Yang. Her behavior is not the real her. 

“And these thoughts are not part of me either! Conflicts happen to help raise my xinxing level. I cannot blame her.” 

I stopped feeling sorry for myself and felt happier. I knew Master Li Hongzhi (the founder of Falun Dafa) was watching over me and making sure I followed the Fa principles to eliminate these bad thoughts.

I arrived at the pick-up location in no time. A practitioner met me and put the bag of Dafa pamphlets on my bike. 

I rode back into the village and saw the village officer riding ahead of me. I slowed down to let him go further ahead so that he would not see me. He kept riding away, and I thanked Master for protecting me. 

As I turned the corner, the three workers had just finished their work in front of my house. They didn’t see me either. Master made sure no one saw me transporting a big bag of Dafa materials.

Master said in “Look Attentively,”

“Though small the world may beThe vast firmament is fully reflectedThe sky is filled with eyesAs all gods focus in...” (Hong Yin II, Translation Version A)

The divine beings were looking to see if my heart was moved. Not being able to use Yang’s moped was not the issue, as raising my cultivation level was more important. 

It was time to get rid of my attachments and rectify myself based on the Fa principles.

Practitioners were in the middle of Fa study when I got home. I looked inward while studying with them and found many attachments – jealousy, competitiveness, arrogance, feeling sorry for myself, being afraid of upsetting others, and zealotry. 

I wanted to get rid of these things because they were not the real me. These were postnatal notions, and I wanted them gone! This was the first time I was able to eliminate attachments so quickly. 

The work in front of my house was completed the next day. Both Yang and I opened our hearts and exposed our attachments. We worked well with each other after that incident, and I experienced the sweetness of searching inward.

I am grateful for Master’s salvation. I would like to do the three things well and awaken more people to repay Master for his benevolent salvation.