(Minghui.org) I am 57 years old and have practiced Falun Dafa for over 20 years. I experienced a test of life and death in 2020. It was Master who saved my life.
Looking Within: Developing Illness Symptoms
I noticed red spots on both of my legs in October 2020. Gradually, these spots began to swell. I thought I shouldn’t acknowledge it, as I knew it was Master cleansing my body. I knew I should continue to do whatever I was supposed to do, and do the three things well.
Some days later, my stomach felt bloated, and then my chest felt the same. As a result, it was hard for me to breathe, and I couldn’t cross my legs into the lotus position for meditation. My heels, chest, and back were swollen. So, I began to pay attention to it and looked within.
I found that my attitude was not based on the Fa. There were also some attachments I still hadn’t let go of, such as showing off, jealousy, fear, resentment, laziness, not willing to take criticism, not putting my heart into Fa study, feeling sleepy when I sent forth righteous thoughts, etc. I decided to eliminate my attachments.
I held firm that I am Master’s disciple and would only follow Master’s arrangements. Thus, I decided to eliminate any arrangements made by the old forces. Later, the red spots on my calf ruptured and oozed liquid, and my stomach became larger and larger. I had difficulty walking and couldn’t eat much. My husband also noticed that something was wrong with me. I began to feel extremely uncomfortable and couldn’t fall sleep.
Believing in Master and Correcting Myself Based on the Fa
However, I was still very calm. I thought, “It is nothing. I am a practitioner. I have Master and the Fa.” My husband saw my symptoms and asked our son to look them up online. My son cried after he searched online.
My husband and son urged me to go to a hospital. I told them not to worry about me and said, “I am fine.” My husband called my mother’s side of the family, and the entire family came to persuade me to go to a hospital.
I thought, “I am a Dafa practitioner. Anything that is not right, is also a good thing. It is for me to improve by passing the test. Even if I have loopholes in my cultivation, I have Master and I will be corrected by the Fa.”
Lacking Righteous Thoughts
I looked within again and again: “What have I done wrong?” I remembered that in 2019, because of my attachments to fame, resentment, anger, and combativeness, I developed a symptom similar to facial paralysis. Because my righteous thoughts were not strong enough, I used an ordinary method of treatment, needling therapy, for two days. I knew I was wrong and corrected myself based on the Fa. Gradually, my face returned to normal. Because I didn’t respond well to that test, the test was bigger next time.
My family insisted that I go to a hospital. My brother said, “I will come tomorrow morning. We will take you there, even if we have to use a lift.” I thought, “Master is taking care of me. I don’t want any arrangements made by others.”
They took me to a hospital, and I went through all their tests. I held only one thought: “I am not afraid of anything; I am disease free; I am a practitioner.”
I didn’t learn the results of the tests, and my family didn’t tell me. I just thought, “I won’t acknowledge the sickness illusion. Master is pushing my karma out, which had accumulated lifetime after lifetime, to the surface to help me eliminate it.”
At the hospital, I had difficulty walking, and I ate and drank very little as the abdominal swelling had almost reached my chest. It was hard for me to breathe. I also had some negative thoughts: “It is very hard to pass this test. Can I pass it? This is a test of life and death. I need to tell my husband about a printer and Dafa materials at home. I might not be able to pass the test.”
Then I thought, “Death is nothing. I have obtained the Fa. What am I worried about?” I also thought about what Master said:
“… what’s a Dafa disciple? He's a being created by the most magnificent Fa, (enthusiastic applause) and he's rock-solid and as indestructible as diamond.” (“Teaching the Fa at the 2003 Washington DC Fa Conference,” Collected Fa Teachings, Vol. IV)
Importance of Fulfilling My Mission
Master has given me a mission, and I was not afraid. I understood that I am a Dafa practitioner in the Fa-rectification period and that my mission hasn’t been fulfilled yet. I want to assist Master to rectify the Fa and save sentient beings. The hospital is not a place I should be. I don’t acknowledge the path arranged by the old forces, I thought.
I said to my husband, “Don’t spend money on me. Let’s go home.” He didn’t agree; he worried that, if I returned home, the treatment would be delayed. I thought, “I want to go home to study the Fa and do the exercises. I am a practitioner and I have Master.”
My husband and son didn’t agree with my request to return home. Moreover, I felt sad that I had difficulty walking.
I didn’t fall asleep that whole night. The next morning, a patient in the same ward said very unhappily, “You didn’t sleep last night. We usually turn off the light and go to sleep at 8 p.m. What were you mumbling about? If you have something to say, talk to the doctors.” I thought, “I am a Dafa practitioner. This is a hospital, and she is a patient. I should think of her and not interfere with her rest.”
I said, “Sister, I am really sorry I kept you from sleeping well. I am very sorry.” She smiled when she heard that. That night, I tolerated my extreme discomfort in silence, as Master told us to be thoughtful of others.
Saved by Master
I had a dream that night. In my dream, a young man fell into water up to his neck. He was almost drowning. The man was a neighbor of my parents. I cried out, “Please save him. Please save him.” Immediately a tall and handsome man came and dragged the young man out of the water. I woke up and cried. It was Master who came to save me.
Master saw that I maintained my xinxing and started to eliminate my karma for me.
My roommate said, “You slept very well last night, and you didn’t make any noise. That's pretty good. Why are you crying?”
I told her my dream and said, “The man who was saved is me.”
She said, “That is not you.”
I thought, “How can you know? It is Master who saved me.”
That day I urinated excessively, and the swelling reduced in my chest, stomach, feet, and legs. The red spots on my calf didn’t ooze anymore. Within a week, the swelling was almost gone, and after a few days, I felt cleansed.
The doctors and nurses saw this and were shocked. The doctor said, “It is unprecedented. What a miracle!” They thought it was because of their skills that I recovered so well.
I knew it was Master who eliminated my karma. I never forget that Master is taking care of me. I always recite, “Falun Dafa is good; Truthfulness-Compassion-Forbearance is good.” Master saw that I was thinking based on the Fa, so he gave me a new life.
I returned home. Later, my son brought me to the hospital for a check up, and all the tests results were normal. My son then told me I was diagnosed with “ascites due to liver cirrhosis” at the hospital, and a doctor said it couldn’t be cured. The doctor had told him a lot about the disease that was quite scary.
Yes, there is almost no hope for a regular person with such a severe liver disease. However, I am a Dafa practitioner. Master has given me a new life!
I am grateful for Master's merciful salvation.
I will be strict with myself and cultivate myself well, and I will do the three things well to thank Master.
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