(Minghui.org) I want to share with you how I eliminated my attachment to jealousy.
“If in the course of cultivation jealousy is not given up, one will not attain Righteous Fruition—absolutely not.” (Lecture Seven, Zhuan Falun)
My attachment to jealousy was strong and hidden. I always found excuses to cover it up when I detected it. I did not want to face this attachment because I had not let go of my attachments to fame and self-interest.
I decided to rectify myself so I started to recite the Fa. A test came the next day after I recite Master’s scripture, “True Cultivation.”
My coworker, who has the same role as me, was chosen to attend further professional development training. I felt disappointed hearing this news. I thought that I knew more than her, and I did a better job. I thought I should be the one to go to the training sessions. I was angry with my leader, and I resented my coworker.
The training itself really did not appeal to me because it was theoretical and useless. I looked within and asked myself why I felt unbalanced. I realized it was because I thought the leader did not appreciate my efforts at work.
“My truly cultivating disciples, what I have taught you is the Fa for cultivation of Buddha and Dao. Nonetheless, you pour out your grievances to me over the loss of your worldly interests, rather than feeling upset for being unable to let go of ordinary human attachments. Is this cultivation?” (“True Cultivation,” Essentials for Further Advancement)
I asked myself if a true practitioner has an attachment to jealousy. The answer was no. So I told myself that I am Master’s disciple, and I wanted to eliminate my jealousy.
I asked myself if I did a better job than my partner. Not necessarily. To be fair, she put more effort than me at work. However, my notion always gave me a false impression that I was superior to others. Over time, I could only see my strengths, not others.
Master arranges everything on my path. I realized that this was a test so I could identify my jealousy. I realized it was time to face my attachment to jealousy and eliminate it. I recited “True Cultivation” again and again and sent forth righteous thoughts to eliminate it.
“As a matter of fact, when you agonize over infringements upon your reputation, self-interest, and feelings among everyday people, it already indicates that you cannot let go of ordinary human attachments. You must remember this: Cultivation itself is not painful—the key lies in your inability to let go of ordinary human attachments. Only when you are about to let go of your reputation, interests, and feelings will you feel pain.” (“True Cultivation,” Essentials for Further Advancement)
When I reviewed this issue calmly and looked at my coworker's strengths I agreed that she was the right person to be chosen for professional development.
That night, I dreamed I discharged a lot of strangely shaped beings from my body. The symptoms that had troubled my stomach at night disappeared afterward.
Thank you, Master, for arranging this to help me improve on the path of cultivation.