Eliminating My Mentality of Showing Off
(Minghui.org) I have a very strong attachment to showing off. Whenever I do a good deed I mention it several times so that everyone knows about it.
“This mentality of showing off can manifest in any situation; it can also surface when doing a good deed. In order to gain fame, personal profit, and a little benefit, some people often brag about themselves and show off: "I’m very capable and a winner."” (Lecture Six, Zhuan Falun)
After I prepare a meal I repeatedly ask if the food tastes good. I feel very satisfied if I'm praised for my cooking skills. Whenever I would do household chores, I remind everyone of what I did; I want to show off and make sure everyone knows that I am very capable. If my family members don't praise me, I get upset.
The shoes that I was wearing made a lot of noise when I was clarifying the truth with my sister and another practitioner. That practitioner told my sister that I was trying to show off and make sure that everyone knew how quick and bright I was. When I heard what she said, I felt very remorseful.
I would often brag and tell practitioners how many people I helped quit the Chinese Communist Party (CCP). In reality, Master is the one doing all the work. What is there to show off?
I have another attachment, that of being very clean and tidy. Whenever people praise my cleanliness, I feel very satisfied. However, how clean can we get in this big dye vat of everyday society?
I would also show off and tell other practitioners how much Fa I memorized or that I practice the exercises every day, never missing one single day. This is something all practitioners should do, there is nothing to brag about.
By constantly studying the Fa, I realized how serious my mentality of showing off was. I paid extra attention to this attachment and after cultivating for a period of time, I was able to eliminate a big portion of it. Now instead of bragging, I silently complete tasks and I actually feel a greater sense of accomplishment.
I was also very impatient before I began practicing Falun Dafa. I would be very short tempered and because of that I would often make mistakes. Even after making mistakes, I would be very reluctant to admit that I was wrong. After walking the path of cultivation, I paid extra attention to this attachment. My sister noticed my drastic improvement and said nobody was capable of changing me except for Dafa. Indeed, Dafa has transformed me completely.
I will abide by Dafa’s principles. Only by constantly studying the Fa can we relinquish all attachments.